Name: John Zagurasky
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Date: Wed Oct 2 21:20:46 MDT 2002
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Bethann, you were the best sister in the world. I miss you so bad I cant stand it. We did everything together our whole lives and now you are gone and I am lost without you. You were everything to me sis. I would do anything in this world to bring you back, or atleast give you one last hug and tell you I love you one last time. I will think about you everyday until the day we are reunited. You were too perfect to be on this earth, you are in Heaven now being the angel that you are. I love you so much Bethann! I know your an angel now! Love always - your big bro - Jawn
Name: Justin Hovey
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Date: Wed Oct 2 21:28:59 MDT 2002
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Me and Bethann were cousins but i considered her my sister. She was the prettiest thing to ever walk this earth and we will never forget her. I love you Bethann and i always will.
Name: Dave Nolder
AIM: self effaced
E-Mail: davenolder@attbi.com
Date: Wed Oct 2 21:31:23 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, you are one of my best friends sisters and are a sister to me, I could never think of you as anything else. I am sorry we never got to spend more time together than what we did but the times we shared were great. I miss you and would love to get to talk to you again. I can't be here for John like you were but with some help I'm sure he will do just fine ;-). - Dave
Name: Cara Anderson
AIM: dukecaa
E-Mail: carebear@stargate.net
Date: Wed Oct 2 21:34:36 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann- One of the sweetest, kindest and prettiest people that i knew...I miss you allready..I know you are looking down on us form heaven...I still cannot believe that you are not here...I will always miss you and love you...so many memories...
Name: doug rainey
AIM: polygamyst
E-Mail: masterofpuppets2313@yahoo.com
Date: Wed Oct 2 21:39:46 MDT 2002
My Words:
i met bethann two and a half years ago at the zaguarsky's house for the 4th of july. her cousin justin is my best friend and he brought me along for the vacation to meet the rest of his family. then this past summer i went on another family vacation with the Zagurasky's and Hovey's to Wilmington NC for a week. besides the fact that it was the most fun i've ever had with any group of people anywhere, i got to know one of the nicest, coolest and most real girls in the world, bethann. we had some long nights of chillin on the deck and playing cards with the family, and talking about how exciting her cousin's wedding is going to be. bethann is a wonderful person and i have never connected so much with someone in a single week as i did with her.
Name: Paul D'Imperio
AIM: p is nice15
E-Mail: cgpd2215@yahoo.com
Date: Wed Oct 2 21:40:29 MDT 2002
My Words:
WEll, I knew her through I great friend and roomate, that would be you John. The one memory I remember is the 2nd time I spent the night over and I was awaken?? to somebody jumping on my bed and scaring me, which she thought was very funny, I never met somebody so fully of energy and caring. Bethanne you will be missed by evrybody that knew you. I kno one thing I will, Just do me a big favor look over your brother John.. LOVE Paul D.
Name: Kristin
AIM: bailey1317
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Date: Wed Oct 2 22:26:42 MDT 2002
My Words:
I truly feel blessed to have known Bethann as long as I did. She was such a joy to be around. Anyone that knew her, knows how special she really was. I will never forget just seeing her and that huge constant smile, and then just hearing her voice, it could always put me in a good mood. Bethann was a BLESSING here with us, and she is now our ANGEL up in heaven watching over all of us! I love you and will miss you forever!
Name: Jamie Hovey
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Date: Wed Oct 2 22:44:57 MDT 2002
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Bethann is not only my cousin but she is a sister to me. I have had the Privilege of watching her grow up to become such a beautiful person inside and out. She meant so much to so many people, I am so proud of her. The feeling of not being able to see her again will hurt me forever. I have shared so many great memories with Bethann,I will cherish all of them forever. Vacations, holidays, visits and life in general will never be the same without her. Bethann,I am so sorry for what happened. I would do anything to bring you back. I love you and miss you so much. I know you are in a better place and I will never stop loving you or thinking about you.
Name: Brittany
AIM: dudukesgirl10
E-Mail: vaccaro968@duq.edu
Date: Wed Oct 2 22:59:36 MDT 2002
My Words:
I met Bethann a few years ago through her big bro John...my memories of her will always be her energy-filled personality, her beautiful smile and the silly talks we had over the years...I will never forget this one time at Jordan's house when Bethann and her Mom came to get Jordan and I...we went to downtown Charleroi to get sweeper bags...it seems weird I know, but for some reason I can remember that day like it was yesterday...we had so many good laughs that day...I cannot believe that something like this happened to such a wonderful girl...Bethann, you're an angel now, looking down upon all of us...can't wait to see your smiling face again! John...I'm always here if you need anything... Love, Brittany
Name: Lindsey Briggs
AIM: Binz45
E-Mail: Binz00@hotmail.com
Date: Thu Oct 3 01:41:07 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, words cannot describe the happiness you have brought me over the years. You were the most out-going, caring, goofball girl i ever knew, and could always bring a smile to anyones face that ever knew ya. None of us understand why you were taken away from us, when in our minds u still had so much to accomplish, but I know God must have needed a sweet angel like u up there for some reason. And, i kno your doin important stuff up there :) I just wish I coulda hugged u one last time, or told u how happy U've made me since John made us meet. I do love u so so so much B Zags! Thank u so much for always bein so good to me. I really cant wait to see u, and especially hear that laugh again! Love always... L Binz :)
Name: Beth
AIM: Bethy181
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Date: Thu Oct 3 02:06:44 MDT 2002
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Bethann..where do I even start? You were, and still are, my bestest friend in the whole entire world. I don't know what I'm going to do without you, we were inseperable, especially over summer we like lived together, and I can't believe you were taken without being able to say goodbye. There is NOTHING in this world I wouldn't do to bring you back, even if it was just for one minute, for one last hug. I just thank God for all the times we had together, cuz they were the best times of my life, especially our 5 vacations together.. I love you Bethann more than anything, you were/are the bestest friend a gurl could ask for.. I miss you soo much! We all know your an angel now and your in a much better place..
Name: Garrett Kovacevic
AIM: GFK8270
E-Mail: GFK8270@aol.com
Date: Thu Oct 3 06:54:13 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann was a wonderful person who was always able to make you smile. She was teh type of person to say she was mad but never really be able to stay mad very long. If it wasnt for her older brother John i would have never met this young girl who brought so much cheer into everyones life. Bethann you are missed by many.
Name: Mike Davic
AIM: Swami36
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Date: Thu Oct 3 08:10:22 MDT 2002
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I met Bethann in 11th grade Chem class. I wish i would have met her sooner because she was the most outgoing and friendly person I have ever met. It brings a smile to my face everytime I think of all the moments in Ms. A's class last year. We drove her nuts and even though she got mad once in a while she still loved every minute of it! I'll never forget how pumped up you were when out of no where you gave me the nickname Mike-Fike-Attiudike. It was always fun being around you, class was never boring. Like everyone else, I will miss you but I will always re-live the memories. WE ARE, AND ALWAYS WILL BE, LIKE THIS _____! you know what I'm talking about ;)
Name: Johnna Hovey
AIM: Smilejohnna
E-Mail: joho1013@hotmail.com
Date: Thu Oct 3 08:15:48 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethyanny, I want to say so much, but I do not know where to begin. You are my sweet God Child. You are my sweet sister. You are my sweet cousin. The pain I feel in my heart is so great to have lost such a gorgeous and breathtaking person. I know you are an angel now, looking over all of us. I have so many memories of you. Of courese the good and bad go together. Us fighting like sisiters and loving like sisiters. I will miss being crazy with you, (boy did we get on some peoples nerves). Most of all I will miss you and I sitting together and holding each other. I think of all of the good times we have had. We are such a close knit family. It will never be the same. We can only ask that you give us the strength to carry on. I will always LOVE, MISS and ADORE you Bethann. You will always be my Maid of Honor and my children will still call you Aunt. I LOVE YOU!!!! My beautiful Angel in Heaven
Name: Jacki Peebly
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Date: Thu Oct 3 08:22:52 MDT 2002
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Bethann, words cannot express my emotions right now...I cannot imagine life without you! You were like my lil sis and I am happy that I became so close with you when I got the chance. I grew to love you SO much...it was impossible not to because you were the sweetest girl ever. You had such a kind heart~ you couldn't stand to see someone's feelings hurt. You were the most energetic person I knew and you had such a passion for life. The sound of your voice and laugh are constantly running through my mind. I cannot recall one memory with you when you didn't make me smile! You always had me laughing and in a good mood! We had so many good times together, and I will NEVER forget them. Please watch over your loving family Bethann~ I know how close you were with all of them. You and your brother had a relationship like one I have never seen before. It amazed me...you were more than brother and sister, more than best friends...you are soulmates. I will never forget the time you sent him a text message from the beach that said "I miss you so much Jawn, and I love you more than life itself!" That's just the kind of person you were~ and I miss you so much!!! You will still always be "MY GIRL"! Not a moment goes by where I don't think of you Bethann...I know that you are the sweetest angel above. I love you with all my heart! Love, JACQ
Name: Christian Hovey
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Date: Thu Oct 3 19:05:54 MDT 2002
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Bethann was a great friend. We were fam and she was one of the most unique people I have ever met. We had great times together and her place will always be at Wrightsville Beach. We had grown a lot closer as we have gotten older and I will miss her greatly. However, even though she is gone now, I know she will always be with me. Love you Bethann!
Name: Gina Marie
AIM: SweetiSpor
E-Mail: warrior_athlete_gina_2430@yahoo.com
Date: Thu Oct 3 19:43:52 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann was like my big sister.I loved her sooo much.I was 6 years younger than her but I had alot of fun with her.I knew her since I was born.Nobody will ever know What I'd do just to take one more look at her face,hear or voice,or do anything with her just one more time.I remember we made a bet one time and if I lost I had to clean her room.Well,I lost.She made me sweep her room.I did but we got in trouble because I sucked her rug,phone cord,and the sweeper cord up.She always new fashion and she loved to match stuff,like the first day of school she flipped out on me because I wore navy blue tennis shoes with a skirt instead of sandels.I loved her soooooo much.I always will.And I'd say atleast 15 times this year I made her bed when she wanted to go somewhere.I have so many more memories with her and I will never forget her.BETHANN-I loved you so much and I forever will.Nothing will ever change that.You'll always be like my big sister and you know I'll never forget you.I love you Lots-*Gina Marie*-
Name: ryan pratt
AIM: prattman02
E-Mail: psnoopy7p@aol.com
Date: Thu Oct 3 19:55:25 MDT 2002
My Words:
bethaann we had some great times together and i will always cherish them for them forever, you where a big part of my life we would hang out every weekend no matter what it was, movies skating or just hanging out we would always have a blast. i rember going to your softball game at gateway i suprised to see you playing, becaused you never liked to play much, but i rember you getting your 1st hit of the season. That is a special moment that i am glad i saw. i rember how bad you where when you had to go home on your birthday, and we where all there for you suprise birthday party, that was 1 of the times i have seen you the happiest. I miss you so much and i ask you to watch over me while your in heaven intill the day i can see you agian.
Name: Jordan
AIM: Jordyn09
E-Mail: jlp433@psu.edu
Date: Thu Oct 3 19:56:15 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann was soo funny, we tried on prom dresses this year. They brought such ugly ones and we would laugh and joke around about them. The one she is wearing on the homepage, is the one that I helped her decide on. She looks so beautiful! R.I.P. Bethaz... we all love and miss you so much... cant wait to see you again girlie!
Name: george slagle
AIM: kruggs1031
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Date: Thu Oct 3 20:07:13 MDT 2002
My Words:
bethann, what can i say i have known u most of my life. ever since me and jawn played pogs. you were always there watching us and wanting to play. u were always the happiest person i knew with ur big smile ur wonderful laugh and the voice no one can hate. all in all u were just the best person to be around. i dont know what we will do without u around. i know i will always the good times we had and even some of the bad. dont worry i will never tell ne one the secrets u told me and i know u will never tell mine. love u girl i will never forget u and always miss u.
Name: Kristin
AIM: baby27ruth
E-Mail: baby27ruth@hotmail.com
Date: Thu Oct 3 21:55:50 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, i dont even know where to start. ill never forget when i met you, when i was in 4th grade. you were the sweetest and funniest girl ever back then, and you never changed. you could never hurt any one, not even a lil bug, you were scared of them! You always had a smile on your face, and if i was ever down, i knew you would always have something to cheer me up! I'll never forget you and all our memories. We miss and love you! You are our beautiful angel now, watching over us from above. =)
Name: Clay
AIM: DaTruSwnga
E-Mail: swnga_13@hotmail.com
Date: Fri Oct 4 08:15:31 MDT 2002
My Words:
I'll never forget comin over my freshman year to chill w/ john and seein bethann there...all she ever wanted to do was hang out w/ us, but we never would let her cause we didn't want her to see the dumb things we were doin. Even then we thought she was too good for us...she was an angel then and she is one now...I will never forget anything about her, she was a great person and always happy, she is gone...but never forgotten...always in my heart.
Name: Allyson Cullen
AIM: pink27cutie
E-Mail: AllysonCullen27@hotmail.com
Date: Fri Oct 4 08:22:59 MDT 2002
My Words:
Dear Bethann, Words cannot describe the sorrow that is felt.....You were the sweetest girl I have ever met and your smile and laugh could put anyone in a good mood. Ill never forget that night at your house when u told everyone that u went to Gannon with me and played golf. You stayed downstairs with us as long as u could, even though u had school the next day...hehe. You were so much fun and made us laugh all night long. We miss you so much Bethann!! Cant wait til that day when i can see you again....... Love, Allyson
Name: Jeff Burke
AIM: burke5888
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Date: Fri Oct 4 09:38:08 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann I cannt express my feelings to well, but you to an unexplainable extent. I miss talking to you on the internet I always wait for Betha44 to come on-- you were my mentor-- we used to talk everyday. I miss you always coming down stairs to talk to me, sorry I made you go upstairs when I was going to lift. We all know you are in a better place, a perfect place. I love you and miss you Bethann. Jeff Burke
Name: Dante Russo
AIM: Dante138
E-Mail: scoot8@attbi.com
Date: Fri Oct 4 11:14:03 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, I will never forget the one night with the dead bird. How that one kid picked up the dead bird from your yard and brought it into your house and you were screaming. And how you chilled with us till early in the morning even though you had a test the next day. Now that your our newest angel, you can watch over us all, you are missed by so many people bethann
Name: scurf
AIM: fabulous338
E-Mail: mscurf3@hotmail.com
Date: Fri Oct 4 11:37:14 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethan, U always brought smiles to peoples faces. You helped me threw some hard times and i nvr got a chance to thank you for that. All i can think of is ur laughing by your locker with sean and me and can just lookin at yenz two and cracking up. I'll miss you Bethan U'll be in my heart and prayers forever!
Name: Jace
AIM: Tomanymoves129
E-Mail: tomanymoves129@aol.com
Date: Fri Oct 4 12:47:06 MDT 2002
My Words:
I knew bethann from john she was a great perosn to know she always made me laugh and everytime i would call for john she would talk and talk and talk forever then finally she would go get john she was a wonderful person she was like the sister i never had and me and john grew closer and closer over the years and then so did em and bethann john be strong hold in there love u like a brother man and bethann i hope ur watching over us now i love u and miss u .. GOD works in mysterious ways
Name: Ian Marsteller
AIM: irm10 and EinhornisFinkle5
E-Mail: ianr_m1024@yahoo.com
Date: Fri Oct 4 14:02:40 MDT 2002
My Words:
i had never met bethann, but john is a good friend of mine and i just wanted to say that i am truly and deeply sorry for you loss zags. if you need anything, i'm here for you ian
Name: Heather
AIM: Sweetihez
E-Mail: sweetihez@aol.com
Date: Fri Oct 4 15:22:25 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann *My other half* I love you so much!! I would do anything to be able to see you again! I will never forget all the fun times we had together, dressin up like charlies angels, singing to madonna, sleepovers, playin club, and so much more! I am so thankful to have all the memories I do! You were always able to make me smile! You were and always will be one of my very best friends! I LOVE YOU ANGEL!!
Name: Laura Henson
AIM: babycakes5262
E-Mail:
Date: Fri Oct 4 16:00:00 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, you were one of the sweetest girls that I have ever met. Everytime I saw you, you had a smile on your face. You knew how to cheer people up just by being yourself. I will never forget how much fun I had hanging out with you and Jacki. I wish that I would have gotten to know you even better. Words cannot express how much we miss you and wish you were here with us, but I know that I will see you again and when I do I know you will still be smiling.
Name: Krista
AIM: Krista919
E-Mail: KristaMargliotti@yahoo.com
Date: Fri Oct 4 18:18:31 MDT 2002
My Words:
Ohh Bethann, where shall i begin Love? Top Ten, then Bloody Sexy Evils, we have 10 now, and one *gorgeous* angel watching over us. U were one in a million sweetheart and no one can or ever will replace your spirit and the special place you hold in my heart. i feel so lost without and the sun doesnt shine as bright now that you are not here, but God had bigger plans for you and you did what you had to here on earth. You have touched so many hearts and lives that your memory will be eternal. there arent enough words in the world to describe what u meant to me. The 11 of us have a relationship that everyone admires and together we can get thru this life now without you. You were that encouraging word when i needed it most, and you were that light when my world was in the dark, i love you so much Angel, and i miss you more every day...see you when it is my time, I Love You Beef, God Bless You... :'( all my love, Krista
Name: Chloe
AIM: chlobabe33
E-Mail: chlochlo3@hotmail.com
Date: Fri Oct 4 20:17:28 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, I don't even know where to begin. You are and always will be one of the most generous and kind people I have ever met. You always made me feel better about everything. You will always be a light in my life. I will NEVER forget all of the good times: all the sleepovers at your house, the times at Beth's, Myrtle Beach, all the dances, so many memories too many to name. We probably could write a book. Bethann, I will love you my whole life. I miss you and wish you would come back but I know you are an angel, for what else could someone so beautiful and kind be? I love you Bethann and I can't wait to see you again
Name: Jessica
AIM: JessG1022
E-Mail: JessG1022@yahoo.com
Date: Fri Oct 4 20:40:33 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann- You were my best friend from kindergarten till 8th grade.Weve had so many memories it would be impossible to forget u.I love u more then u could ever know.U truely are an angel:'( Jess
Name: Ashley
AIM: sk8ergurly3
E-Mail: angelz4ef@yahoo.com
Date: Fri Oct 4 20:48:21 MDT 2002
My Words:
Where do i start? I miss you so much already you were the niciest most delightful person iv ever met u alwayz had a smile on!!! you alwayzmade me smile! ur watchin over us now an your our angel for life i cant wait to see that smiling face agian!! you were so cheerful and happy im goin to miss that but in my memories i wont ill still her your voice and im always thinkin and dreamin of you alwayz i love you bethann you are my angel forever i miss you so much beth luv alwayz ASH
Name: Natalie Muirhead
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E-Mail: natm@stargate.net
Date: Sat Oct 5 13:07:41 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, I cannot express how sorry I am that I missed these last 4 precious years of your life. I will cherish the memories I have of you. Time cannot take away the past that we shared, but it can give us a future. I pray that you are happy and at peace. I also pray that I will get to see your beautiful face again. You are now a "Barbie" in Heaven. I (along with "Crazy Carolyn") will miss you terribly. I love you like a little sister. I hope we shall meet again one day.... Love, Natalie ("Sh-nat-nat"), your babysitter and friend.
Name: Ashley Rodabaugh
AIM: XxKrAzZyAsHxX
E-Mail: xXsweet_as_sugarXx@hotmail.com
Date: Sat Oct 5 13:48:17 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann was a wonderful person and it seems like shes still here bcause i remember seeing her smiling face as she got off the bus when i was in 1st grade and she was in 5th.I remember thinking that she was so pretty She is every thing i wanna be as i grow up so was just a joy all together but i cant wait o see her face again smiling and laughing it brings tears to my eyes when i think of how we cant see her at this point but the memories in outr heart will keep her alive until that day comes when i see her again smiling and laughing ill never forget you *Ash*
Name: Bruce
AIM: tooshortbj
E-Mail: brj123@psu.edu
Date: Sat Oct 5 18:06:45 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann was one of the sweetest girls I know. She always made you laugh and smile even when you were in a bad mood. I, like everyone else, wish she could come back one more time just to just to see her smile and hear her laugh. If it wasn't for John I would've never met her such a happy person. Bethann we all love you and miss you. You'll never be forgotten.
Name: Brandon
AIM: Fixxxer022
E-Mail: Fixxxer022@yahoo.com
Date: Sat Oct 5 22:24:20 MDT 2002
My Words:
I love Bethann so much. She was my best friend. There isnt anything I can really say because words cent express it. I miss her so incredibly bad.
Name: Chrissy
AIM: asphyxiad0ll
E-Mail: pixie_dust@electracide.net
Date: Sat Oct 5 22:32:03 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann.. I can*t even believe this. I knew you since kindergarden, and we had so much fun together.. you were always there for me, no matter what was going on. Trying to pull me out of my shy little shell, making me laugh, and just listening to me when I was having one of my little freak-outs. We were such good friends up through 9th grade, and though the past couple years we sort of went our separate ways, you still always made time to hang out with me in the halls, and that meant more to me than you*ll know. It almost hurts to go to my locker now, as I know you aren*t going to be 3 lockers down, filling this world with your laughter. I couldn*t possibly ever forget you, and everything that you did for me in the 12 years I knew you. I love you, Betha!!
Name: Seth
AIM: BIG TYMA34
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Date: Sat Oct 5 23:30:54 MDT 2002
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Bethann ill never 4get all the good times up neels house having a blast. And the office makin bobby and val mad we had some fun ill never 4get them and ill alwayse remember u love ya seth
Name: Ryan Abels
AIM: Abedogg024
E-Mail:
Date: Sun Oct 6 10:15:01 MDT 2002
My Words:
I still cant believe this happened. I know nobody will never forget her because she had the most memorable voice i have ever heard. I wish i had a chance to get to kno her more than I did especially after reading all the memories i can see that i missed out on knowing a special person. But we will all have our memories so she will never be forgotten in our hearts and my thoughts and prayers are with her family.
Name: Brandon
AIM: Fixxxer022
E-Mail: Fixxxer022@yahoo.com
Date: Sun Oct 6 15:07:56 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann was my best friend in the entire world. If you know me then you know that cause it was always in my profile. I always remember Bethann being mad at me for stupid little things all the time and then one day she told me that she was always just pretending to be mad just to get back at me because she can't really stay mad for more than five minutes. The one thign she said to me the most was "I can't take you Brandon" and she said it all the time. If I wrote about all the memories I have with her I could fill up a book because everything she did was a memory. One thing I remember was over the summer when she wouldnt talk to me for a week or two when she forgave me for it we both agreed that everytime we talked to eachother on the phone whenever we hung up we should always say I love you because you never know what could happen. Well I'm really glad we did that because I love her more than words can explain. I miss you Bethann and I love you so much.
Name: the bear
AIM:
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Date: Sun Oct 6 17:17:59 MDT 2002
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goofy, goofball, shuga, hunny..im here baby, this is the hardest. i just WISH...how do I wish, i wish too much..wishes are deceits, deceiving me of a true love, deceitfulness is blinding to your true fate, memories not lost, this is my worst nightmare.. i cant even deceive myself..but this cant be you, baby im torn..help me if you can..even better TAKE ME as i cry..i cant even try to begin to start again, all i had was vested in you, my youth seems taken as youve passed, your innocence dwarfs mine..thats y your OUR ANGEL, my angel..john's angel, how we need you baby. stay with us. and come take me smiling. im not leaving, just saying goodbye, i need you to need me..
Name: Lauren
AIM: Ldz41
E-Mail: Ldz41@aol.com
Date: Sun Oct 6 18:43:28 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann! I dont even know what to say...We were good friends for a while..then drifted apart, and we were just starting to be so close again...i just think of all the football games me and ur family went to together to....and our matchin genie outfits our parents made for us one halloween....and this year..1st period everyday u coming in to mr carnese's and talking to me and erin until she kicked u out...i just want to hear u laugh again or see u smile..its gets harder everyday cuz i miss u more and more..u were the best person inside and out, and anyone who knew u knows that, u touched so many peoples lives just by being ur own fun self and i will never ever forget u ! I LOVE U HUN ! ill see u again one day :)
Name: Megan Kirchhoff
AIM: Baby M 2012
E-Mail: Fabolous_o4@yahoo.com
Date: Sun Oct 6 19:18:18 MDT 2002
My Words:
This year was the first year I started talkin to Bethann, she was in my 8th period Foods Class and sat at my table. The first time I walked in there after switchin my schedule she offered for me to sit at her table. I started talkin to her every day in there, and sometimes before class I would walk to the end of the hall to meet her so we could walk to class together. She always had a smile on her face and thats the way Ill always remember her, she was the sweetest person I have ever met, she never had a bad word about anything or anyone. When I'd be mad about something she would notice and just smile and say dont worry it'll all be alright. Bethann you were to perfect to be here on Earth and thats why you were taken so early, I know now that your in a better place and your smiling over all of us, I'll never forget you. I miss you and its just not the same here without you. RIP babe
Name: Jason Ahumada
AIM: ourpaljason
E-Mail: ourpaljason@aol.com
Date: Mon Oct 7 11:15:12 MDT 2002
My Words:
I knew Bethann a lot shorter than many of you knew her. I met her through the family I am about to become a part of, the Hovey's. I guess I have known Bethann and the Zaguraskys 3 and a half years or so,but I knew right away-as soon as i got to know her cousin Johnna, my future wife, that she was very much loved, and a very special young lady. It wasn't like I heard something every 6 months about her. It was all the time....Bethann did this.Barb said Bethann is going to do that.She was always present in my house 6 or 800 miles away! There are tons of pictures here so that Johnna would always have her close by.....I think she still is. I got to know her better as time passed and the Zagurasky's vacationed at Wrightsville Beach, NC where Johnna and I now live,and she was always the life of the party. I think she liked it down here a lot.The beach complimented her;we all got bronzed from the sun,Bethann got prettier. (can't say much for the rest of us....)She was beautiful.All of my friends(i'm 25) would say as they walked around in my house-"who's that girl in the picture" before Johnna would yell at them,"she's only 17!!" I'm rambling on but I do know this. She was taken untimely,without a doubt.We have to believe God knew what he was doing even though we hate what we are left to deal with--it is not for any of us to decide or question.I know she loved so much,and I know she was loved in return even more.I know that by the unprecedented outpouring of respect and love I witnessed first hand.The Zagurasky's and the rest of the family need all the support they can get from those who care.No one can imagine what they are going through,but I know she is in a better place now, and she would only want the best for all of us- because that's how Bethann was..... Love You
Name: jeremy
AIM: deljm112
E-Mail: deljm112@aol.com
Date: Mon Oct 7 11:36:20 MDT 2002
My Words:
bethann was the person who i always ran to for the answers to everythin...she always knew exactly what to say...she always knew how to brighten my day up and cheer me up if i was in a bad mood...bethann was always in a good mood and rarely eva got mad at ne body...me and her had this lil inside joke about how we were eachothers twin...we said that cuz we thought that we were exactly alike...we were always thinkin the same thing and we always wanted to do the same thing...ill neva forget the first time she got a hit at softball...she jumped around on first base for about a half hour...and ill als neva forget the first time i met her...at sandcastle on ef day...from there on we were best friends...ill neva foregt bethann and i know she will always be with me...i miss ya bethann...
Name: Lauren Martin
AIM: AngeLauren88
E-Mail: angelauren08@yahoo.com
Date: Mon Oct 7 13:15:12 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, I will never forget all the great times with you. Especially that crazy Halloween Party you had when Erin was "Gramps!" English, Aerobics and Astronomy will never be the same. You are truly one of the most beautiful people i have ever met. You will always be remembered and loved. You are a Heavenly Angel and a gorgeous one too. Love you sweetie!! -Lauren
Name: ally
AIM: allikat1283
E-Mail: allycat341@yahoo.com
Date: Mon Oct 7 18:35:58 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann was the funniest girl ever. She was always making people laugh and i will never 4get all our fun times in Miss A's class...we were always laughing. i cant believe this happened and the world is gonna be so empty with ur smile, ur laugh and ur voice here to make everyone happy. We know ur makin everyone up in heaven laugh. I miss ya bethann!! cant wait to see you again, i'll be thinkin about u every day
Name: Howie Lesofsky
AIM: Howie3203
E-Mail: Howie3203@hotmail.com
Date: Tue Oct 8 09:09:35 MDT 2002
My Words:
B I never thought I would miss you this much! It seems like yesterday that we were having a water fight at round hill park (even tho it was so cold) and rolling down the hill having so much fun. E I just wish I could see you one more time and hear you laugh, see your smile, and just laugh at the odd things you would say. Maybe one day I'll be able to though. Even though I only knew you for a short time you will always be in my prayers and memories for as long as I live. I love you B.
Name: Lisa
AIM: xOx LiSa xOx 1102
E-Mail: lmd023@hotmail.com
Date: Tue Oct 8 09:31:46 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann! I dont even know what to say...I still cant believe this happened! I wish i had the chance to get to know you better more then I already did! But I will Never forget your smile and Laugh that could brighten anyones day Up! I will nvr forget you! Cant wait to see you again!!
Name: Tonya
AIM: tonnie7270
E-Mail: tonnie1025@yahoo.com
Date: Tue Oct 8 10:21:46 MDT 2002
My Words:
Where do I even begin, I have had the pleasure to know Bethann pratically my whole life, at least since John and I were in elementary school together. She was such an awesome person to be around, just to hear her voice made me smile. She had such a kind heart and always had a beautiful smile on her face. It does not seem that long ago that we were playing mario cart at my house or just hanging out in there basement. I would do anything to have one more of those moments that may have been stupid then but do not seem so stupid now. Even though we all grew apart over the years, and went our separate ways, Bethann still was always and will always be a little sister to me. Bethann had a unbelieveable bond with her entire family and that bond will never be broken. I know she is in a better place and is watching over her family. Life was twisted upside down that morning that God called Bethann home but she now is an angel watching over us. I am looking forward to seeing her smiling face again, until we meet again..I love you Bethann and will think about you always.
Name: Jorie Gunsallus
AIM: Vanilliababy42
E-Mail: Don't have one!
Date: Tue Oct 8 14:05:31 MDT 2002
My Words:
I didn't really know her but I saw her at the Prom! In her white gown, ready to be married! LOL I sware i was looking for the priest! She just looked so beautiful and she was glowing when she smiled at me!
Name: Brigette
AIM: sweetheart12777
E-Mail: sweetheart12777@aol.com
Date: Tue Oct 8 14:34:46 MDT 2002
My Words:
I personally didn't know Bethann but I did know Candace and I heard a lot about her. I always pictured her as a sweet person who got along with everyone. I just want to say to everyone that it is a very sad thing to loose someone you love especially someone that young and you are all in my prayers.
Name: Aunt Joyce
AIM:
E-Mail: joycehov@yahoo.com.
Date: Tue Oct 8 18:21:07 MDT 2002
My Words:
Princess Bethann, I do not know where to begin and I promised John I would not write a book. No amount of words or actions can describe the tremondous loss myself and others around me are suffering. You were the ever burning "sparkler" in our family. Your presence was always known whether it be your beautiful smile, your silly laugh, your unique voice and your ongoing energy. How boring its going to be without all the "Bethann Stories". I've started to journal them, they were so entertaining. You loved life and the people around you. When I was back home I looked to see you come bouncing through the door or bouncing out the door. I long to hear you say "Aunt Joyce" The hole in my heart wiil never mend. Our family was blessed with all our great times. Your memory will stay alive with me always. I will be forever changed without you. Please help us be strong. I know you are above watching. We need your strength. I truly believe you were the strongest of all. Forever in my heart and soul, I Love You Aunt Joyce P.S. I'll so miss your fashion shows
Name: Tyler Barton
AIM: Brillow00044
E-Mail:
Date: Tue Oct 8 21:24:33 MDT 2002
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Bethann, I was just starting to get to know how great you were. You were one of the sweetest most nicest girls I have ever met. I only wish that I could have gotten to know you sooner and hung out with you more. God took you away from this place and away from all of us for a reason and He only knows why he did. We all know your in a better place looking down on us. God Bless You. Love Ty
Name: Gina Garofolo
AIM: applejcks318
E-Mail: gina_bina_5885@tellmeimcute.com
Date: Tue Oct 8 21:49:36 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, you were such a sweet girl. You were always so happy. Your laugh was priceless and your voice OMG it was the cutest thing ever! You were never afraid to be yourself. You were such a goofy careless kinda gal. You weren't afraid to try anything new. This world isn't going to be the same without your beautiful face and sparkling smile. I'll never forget when you'd be at Bethis's house and u guys would come up to see me. I'll never forget when you played softball for us and u got on base you were so excited. There was also the time we went pumpkin smashing-you were so into the stealth mode. Last year in Camando Lando's class you always made me laugh. I will miss you so much Bethann. I hope heaven treats ya good babe. Watch over us, especially ur best friends they miss you tons as well as everyone else. Can't wait to meet u again some day up in that great big sky! Thank you for all the great memories I'll never forget them! Thanks for the rainbow also. We all know it was you smiling down on us telling us your ok. Keep an eye on Luke and Candace too. They'll never be forgotten either. Love you lots girlie! God Bless you! Your our gorgeous angel up in heaven now.
Name: unknown
AIM: unknown
E-Mail: unknown
Date: Tue Oct 8 23:05:51 MDT 2002
My Words:
when i look at the pictures of you and how much fun you looked like you were having i think about it and you had soo much more life to give and so much my live to live you were a beautiful lady with wonder spirit andi know that God has an awsome place for you in heaven if we could only see you.. but we dont have to we have the memories of you in your pictures and family and friends and we will never forget you and i know you look down on us right now and smile cuz we laugh about the good times that were shared with you instead of the sad one.. God bless your family and friend unknown
Name: Melissa Cherry
AIM: candlady8
E-Mail: meba5@attbi.com
Date: Wed Oct 9 12:23:40 MDT 2002
My Words:
Never have I known such a lively young lady. And I know the bullfrog that jumped into the canoe with Laurel & Bethann at Camp Henry Kaufman had to feel the same way, even though they were at least six feet from shore, when the frog jumped in, Bethann & Laurel squeeled & jumped out still squeeling and trying to get to dry land, that poor frog just sat there stunned til we went out after the canoe. I think he finally recovered enough to jump out. So glad I kinda forced her to go on that trip. My life has been blessed just knowing Bethann for the last 13 years.
Name: Lindsay
AIM: Naughtygrl60
E-Mail:
Date: Wed Oct 9 14:41:27 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann....You were such a great person all the time.No matter what you always had a smile on your face...I can still remember when I was in 6th grade and you were in 8th everyday on the bus you would call me back just to chat about everything and you would always play with my hair and you brought your curlers on picture day and you curled my hair it was so curly,and you just kept on saying"Aww lindz u look so cute"...Oh hunnie I would give anything to see you again...I just wish we would of hung out more at high school...i'll never forget our childhood together..you were the greatest friend anyone could ever of asked for...No matter what you'll always be my friend and i'm not going to say goodbye i'm just saying see u later on...your our angel now watch over us..Love u so much
Name: Allison
AIM: NLBBALL13
E-Mail: A13Shoot@aol.com
Date: Wed Oct 9 16:52:14 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann... I dont even know what to say. If I could just see your smiling face or hear your laugh, I would do anything in the world for just one more time. I will always remember how much life you had in you and it will be greatly missed here with us. I miss you sooo much but I know you are an angel in heaven watching over us and protecting us.You are the most beautiful angel too :o) I cant wait til the day I get to see your face again. I will always remember the sleepovers at your house and all the times that I was with you.. Those were the best times! And I will cherish and remember those for as long as I live! Luv ya hun!
Name: Jessica
AIM: bonjovibaby17
E-Mail: bonjovibaby17@hotmail.com
Date: Wed Oct 9 21:50:57 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann: You were one of the nicest people to ever walk this earth. I knew you since kindergarten. Every year I would look forward to your Halloween parties and Birthday parties in the summer. You were nice to everyone and never judged anyone by the way they looked or acted. Even though we didn't hang out as much when we got older...I still considered you one of my good friends and I will miss you. I hope I will get to see you again one day up in heaven. Lots of love ~~~ Jessica
Name: Kali
AIM: Kalcan7
E-Mail: Kalcan7@hotmail.com
Date: Thu Oct 10 06:21:15 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, I can't even begin to say how much I miss you. I know you are the most beautiful angel in Heaven watching over us all, and that helps, but I still can't even explain how I wish I could see you one more time..hear your voice which I know now is the voice of the most beautiful angel, see that little smiley face you made before we went anywhere in the mirror when youo checked to see how you looked and you always looked beautiful..and you always will. We met in elementry school, you were my very first friend. You taught me the true meaning way back then and most definately now what a true friend is. You have taught me so much in such a short amount of time and I know that you will help us all out, watching over us, until we will all meet again because you were so caring and compassionate. I have never met someone like you before and I know I never will. You have touched so many lives, and you have definately impacted mine in a way that I will never forget. I would like to thank you for all that you have taught me and just let you know that I love you, I always have no matter what, and always will. Rest in peace Bethann, I know I will see you again, but until then I love you sooo much and miss you eternally. You will forever be in my heart. I love you.
Name: Scott
AIM: twiek
E-Mail: twiek@hotmail.com
Date: Thu Oct 10 09:13:50 MDT 2002
My Words:
My regards go out to the family. Its a great loss to lose a loved one. I hope time heals and we join our loved one's in the end. -Scott
Name: Amber
AIM: Balboaroc
E-Mail: Balboaroc@aol.com
Date: Thu Oct 10 09:49:00 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, we had never met but I have always felt like I knew you and your family so well. I work with your Aunt Joyce and have always been entertained by her Bethann stories. I so enjoyed seeing pictures of you and your family, you were beyond beautiful in your prom dress. Just know that you have even touched people who have never met you. My thoughts, love, and prayers are with you and your family. I know you are smiling down on all of us! Hugs to the Zagurasky and Hovey families always.
Name: unknown
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Date: Thu Oct 10 11:58:23 MDT 2002
My Words:
I am an EF graduate who graduated years before Bethann went to high school, therefore I never knew Bethann, but my heart goes out to her friends and family for their loss. After looking at the photos of her and reading the memories of everyone who was close to Bethann, I realize that she was a stunningly beautiful girl, full of life. She was very lucky to have so many people who cared about her, for not many people are fortunate enough to have as many people care about them as Bethann did. Many people don't have as many friends in their whole lives as Bethann did in just 17 years. I pray that she lives on through all of your memories of her.
Name: Ashley
AIM: pishy70285
E-Mail: pishfish00@hotmail.com
Date: Thu Oct 10 21:40:18 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann,MY HUNNI BUN BENAN, I love you and miss you more than ever....I would do anything to hear your voice one more time and to hear you say "well hello my little fishy girl!" You're my best friend, you were like my sister and you mean the world to me. I cant even begin to name all the memories that i have with you. "pish fish attitude dish", thats def. one that i hated. Although we did have our fights i still LOVE YOU! The past two summers have been the best two summers of my life and thats because you were with me. I dunno what im gonna do without you. I miss all the boy talks already and meeting you at rite aid on my way home from work. O yeah and hey "why you actin so messed up towards me?"..... anyways i have so much more to say that i wouldnt be able to end so im going to end it at I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME. MY BEST FRIEND FOREVER! LOVE YOU BUNCHES, Pishy Fishy Squishy
Name: Tonya
AIM: Tonnie7270
E-Mail:
Date: Thu Oct 10 22:21:21 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, A million times we think of you, A million times we cry. If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died. In life we loved you dearly, we love you still. In our hearts you hold a special place no one can ever fill. It broke our hearts to lose you, but you didn't go alone. A part of us went with you, the day God took you home. Through tears your laughter and humor will forever live in our hearts.
Name: Uncle Jim
AIM: none
E-Mail: jhovey@mdot.state.md.us
Date: Fri Oct 11 05:24:06 MDT 2002
My Words:
HOW WAS YOUR DAY AT WORK, UNCLE JIM? Every day, in that truly distinctive voice, she was FIRST to greet me with her smile and the always present twinkle in her eye. And if I had had a bad day, suddenly it wasn't so bad. Because she was bound and determined to make it better. Oh, Bethann, I miss you so. Your presence is always lurking just to the side of all my thoughts. Your Dad is right. You fulfilled your mission. Your joy and happiness touched everyone you knew - and even those you did not know but who knew you. My favorite story is the one about the kids at school taking bets as to whether Bethann would speak to the kid who always sat alone in the lunchroom. OF COURSE SHE DID!
Name: Perry Jackson
AIM: TbonemasterP
E-Mail: dont have one
Date: Fri Oct 11 19:59:42 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethan,i never really knew you well, but my brother and my sisters did.They talked about you sometimes, and now i cant belived this happened.no one will ever forget you Bethan.
Name: Fr. George, Matushka Maria, John, Elizabeth, Nicholas & Alexander Yatsko
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E-Mail: FrYatsko@aol.com
Date: Fri Oct 11 23:21:05 MDT 2002
My Words:
To all of you who read these prayers; Please offer the following words from your heart and if you have any questions or thoughts about these prayers contact me at 724.925.7129 begin_of_the_skype_highlighting 724.925.7129 end_of_the_skype_highlighting or ask Bethann's family to have me contact you. Any time! Any day! Fr. George, Matushka Maria, John, Elizabeth, Nicholas & Alexander Yatsko LET US PRAY !!! Again and again in Peace let us pray to the LORD. LORD have mercy. Again we pray for the repose of the Blessed Child of GOD, the Handmaiden BETHANN, and that, according to His unfailing promise, He will grant to her His heavenly Kingdom. LORD have mercy, LORD have mercy, LORD have mercy. That the LORD our GOD will commit her soul to the place where the just repose. LORD have mercy,LORD have mercy,LORD have mercy. The mercies of GOD, the heavenly Kingdom, and rest with the saints, for her and ourselves, let us ask of CHRIST, our King Immortal and our GOD. Grant it, O LORD. O LORD JESUS CHRIST our GOD, Who has promised to bestow the heavenly Kingdom on them born of the water and the Spirit, and who, in blamelessness of life have been given unto YOU: and said: "Bring the children unto Me, for they will abide in the Kingdom of Heaven", we humbly pray, according to Your unfailing promise: Grant the inheritance of Your Kingdom to Your Child, the spotless Handhaiden, BETHANN, who now has departed from us. And grant that we may continue to the end in a chase and Christian life, that we may take up our abode in the heavenly mansions with all Your Saints. For You are the Resurrection, the Life and the Repose of all Your servants and of Your servant the now departed child of GOD the Handmaiden BETHANN, O Christ our GOD, and to You we ascribe glory to Our Father who has no beginning and Your Most Holy, Good and Life-Creating Spirit, now and ever and unto ages of ages. AMEN! MEMORY ETERNAL!
Name: Your Neighbors Forever...Lisa and Larry
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Date: Fri Oct 11 23:50:23 MDT 2002
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Well Bethann....your Dad has been waiting for us to sign in...but you leaving us so suddenly has left us speechless...it is hard to even start a sentence.....We have so many fond and funny memories of you, but one of the earliest is when you were about 5...asking for a candlelit bubblebath...Remember when you were my helper at my babyshower? Anxiously awaiting the arrival of a new kid in the neighborhood..then came Gina...your "little sister" to fix up...and that you did mascara and all...GINA ADORES YOU! When a girlfriend would come over she always wanted them to meet you to show you off!! She loved all the attention you gave her...THANKS....and valued your input on fashion...Most don't realize you were the only 2 "girlies" in our neighborhood and Gina has alot of fun memories because of you to cherish...sledriding,bonfires,making her 4th grade halloween party a hit,pool volleyball..i think we're winning right? THANKS for letting her be a part of your life when it was time for you to get all dressed up and look so beautiful for the dances..that made her feel so special!!! I'm going to miss your mom calling me with a new story...We have alot of memories that will always keep you alive in our minds and hearts...I truly believe, somehow...someway...you will give your family the strength they need. We will think of you always and we will miss you dearly...Keep On Smiling...
Name: John
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Date: Sat Oct 12 00:41:01 MDT 2002
My Words:
My wonderful sister Bethann, I have been having a hard time sleeping at night, So i wanted to post. I want you to know that Mom,Dad and I miss you so terribly. Things will never be the same without you around sis. You were always there for a good laugh when everyone was down, and always there to energize the family. It gets harder and harder to walk past your room and not see you sittin on your chair, typing away on the internet. It gets even harder realizing we arent going to have our fun and crazy times anymore that most brothers and sisters dont even share. We always had so much fun together. We did everything together Bethann and my heart has shattered into a million pieces with out you. We shared the most special relationship ever Bethann, we had a bond which was inseperable. I want to thank you for that and the uncondtional love that we had for each other no matter what. I am a lost person in this dreary world now sis. I want you to know you will always be the best sister in the world, and I promise to tell you everything like I always have, and I know you'll listen. I am going to miss your stories though ;(. I love you with all my heart, we all do. Mom, Dad and I will unconditionally love you forever, and never will one memory of your special life leave any of our sides. I know you are happy in Heaven my angel. Love forever Your big bro - jawn
Name: Liz Yatsko
AIM: Lizz4565
E-Mail: Lizz771@aol.com
Date: Sat Oct 12 18:33:07 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann was always a character...she made me laugh every time I saw her. That huge smile and never-ending laughter...no one will ever forget her! She made everyone so happy when she was around. But you're in Heaven now, Bethann...looking down on and wishing us the best. Soon enough we will be reunited again but until then, prayer and the Lord will keep your memory alive. All my love-Liz
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Date: Sat Oct 12 23:56:20 MDT 2002
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Bethann, I only met you once but once was enough to tell that you were one of the nicest people I ever met. The whole time we talked you were laughing and smiling. You were the nicest person there and I'm so sorry that this happend. Even though I didn't really know you it hit me really hard, b/c you were so young and way to pretty to die so early. I wish I would have got to see you again just so you could make me laugh! Even if we didn't really know each other , you'll still be greatly missed.
Name: Stephanie Halpin
AIM: deardogz
E-Mail: cuddlingcatz@htmail.com
Date: Sun Oct 13 09:51:28 MDT 2002
My Words:
I never meet Bethann But my dad Steve Halpin is friends with her dad. They deer hunt togather. She sounds like a wonderful person. I would of loved to know her. She is a really pretty. Best wishs to Bethanns family. Stephanie Halpin
Name: Uncle Tom & Aunt Betsy
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E-Mail: Tdenome@msn.com
Date: Sun Oct 13 10:37:32 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann taught our son - her cousin Nicholas - how to ride a bicycle! We have many wonderful memories! We also have great remorse over her loss and our loss of not spending more time with Bethann. We know that she is now an Angel and hope that she understands and we ask you Bethann to help us all heal.
Name: Danielle DiPerna
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Date: Sun Oct 13 15:07:09 MDT 2002
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Name: Danielle DiPerna
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Date: Sun Oct 13 15:32:23 MDT 2002
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Bethann was a wonderful person who had a good heart.Bethann was in at my table at foods 8th period with meghan kerchoff,shane raliey,and holli jackson.i always remember the 1 time in foods when bethann was told us that she couldn't make an egg and that day she did!she was so happy that she did it!that day i told her that i couldn't make an egg and she told me if she could do it then i can.everyday that i think i can't do somthing i always remember what bethann told me.bethann just so u kno holli and meghan are still asking me and shane if we are going out yet but were not!i'll always remember photography 1 last year with mr.o and the crew.the crew was myself,shane raliey,eric campbell,jerret harrison,anton patil,and holli jackson what great times we had!!!! we alway miss u soooo much and no 1 can replace u in foods 8th period.bethann watch over myself and everyone else!!!!! luv ya danielle
Name: Matt Nelson
AIM: Mattice14
E-Mail: Mattice14@aol.com
Date: Sun Oct 13 18:03:07 MDT 2002
My Words:
Bethann, i always loved and conidered u as a sister. we grew up together and had the best of times. i will always love and cherish the times we spent together. i will never forget your smile that brought so much happiness to all of the people around you. you will always be in my heart. i love and miss u so much. i do anything to bring u back. thanx for the signs to let us know that ur ok.
Name: Jarrod
AIM: Ba11s 11
E-Mail: jarrodmatthews@hotmail.com
Date: Sun Oct 13 19:32:31 MDT 2002
My Words:
I wrote a letter/poem to Bethann and gave it to her mother. She set it up in her coffin, that ment alot to me, I hope Bethann read it somehow. You can read an exact copy of the letter in my sub-profile on AIM. I didn't know about the magnolia out side her window. That's amazing, and comforting at the same time. I get chills thinking about it. By the way, thanks to her family who sent me the card thanking me for my letter. I glad I could give you some comfort during these tragic times.
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Date: Mon Oct 14 00:24:52 MDT 2002
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Remembering You Your time on earth seemed all too brief because I wanted you in my life forever. And although I really miss you, in my heart I know that you are at peace. Still, countless times throughout the day I find myself remembering you. Although I cannot see or hear you, I know that you are with me. I'll feel you in the warmth of the summer sun. I'll see you in the brilliance of autumn leaves. You'll be beside me in the peacefulness of a gentle snowfall and rejoice with me at the emergence of the first flowers of spring. I'm thankful for the times we shared and the priceless memories too; for those memories are a comfort now when I lovingly - Remember You.
Name: Angela Peponidis
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E-Mail: angelapep@aol.com
Date: Mon Oct 14 07:43:19 MDT 2002
My Words:
Dear Bethann...How greatly you will be missed. God must have a good reason for making you an angel so soon. Someone down here needs to be taken care of and I guess that you were chosen to do that for Him. You were a beauty on earth and I am sure that you are the prettiest angel in heaven. We love you.
Name: Helen
AIM: woozey2@aol.com
E-Mail: woozey@aol.com
Date: Mon Oct 14 10:32:34 MDT 2002
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How many times have I cried for your passing but smiled at the memories in my heart of your laughter, love of life and beauty. My first memory of you, giving us a preview of an upcoming dance show, your spice and sassiness, your confidence ever showing. You had the ability to make everyone feel happy and you shared your heart with those who needed lifting and you gave light to those that felt lonely. Such a little girl, such a beautiful young lady, never leaving the closeness and protectivenss of your family but reaching out to make your way. Daddy's girl, mom's best friend and a brother's soulmate, we all will have to keep your special meaning in the locket of our hearts. Bethann, you have gone from us here but we know you are close in our prayers. love you Helen and Cole
Name: Mary Hovey
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Date: Mon Oct 14 10:47:23 MDT 2002
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Bethann, What a surprise it was when you came here for a visit. I turned around and there you were in the hallway with your smile. Little did we know that you were making a lasting visit with us all. Yet now it seems so clear how fate steered you into our lives for one final time. It was a time that left its imprint, not only of your image, but a signature smile and a touch of your soul. We will always miss you. Love, Mary
Name: C.J. FIORE
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E-Mail: FIOREOUSF@AOL.COM
Date: Mon Oct 14 14:29:28 MDT 2002
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YOUR THE ONE I ALWAYS TURNED TO WHEN EVER I NEEDEN A SMILE...BUT IT LOOKS LIKE I WONT BE SEEIN THAT FOR A PRETTY LONG WHILE...WHEN YOU WALKED INTO A ROOM I SWEAR IT GOT BRIGHTER...AND THE FRIENDSHIP WE HAD COULDNT GET MUCH TIGHTER...BUT NOW THINGS HAVE CHANGED BECAUSE YOUR NOT MY FRIEND ANYMORE...YOUR MY GUARDIAN ANGEL WHO I LOVE AND ADORE...YOU WERE LOVED BY ALL AND HATED BY NONE...AND THE HAPPINESS YOU BROUGHT TO US WILL NEVER BE DONE...CAUSE YOU LIVE WITHIN US WAY DEEP DOWN...YOU LEAD AND GUID US EVERYTIME WE FROWN...AND YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE ME...WE WONT EVER BE APART...NO MATTER HOW FAR AWAY U ARE YOUR ALWAYS IN MY HEART.
Name: Eric
AIM: Emaglor022
E-Mail: Djfunn710@email.msn.com
Date: Mon Oct 14 19:35:48 MDT 2002
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Bethann hey u, there is not enough tears that can be cried to show how much pain i have inside. You always had a smile and a nice thing to say. I'll never forget the tragic day when all of that seemed to be taken right away.I miss you so much i am glad we were such good friends and we got to go to the christmas dance in 9th grade. Well i gtg, u and candace have eachother and all of us have u guys as our angels. please watch over me and guide me in the right direction. help me make the right choices and do the right things. I kno u will. u were a great girl i miss u so much. say hi to candace and luke for me please. I never forget u its just not possible. Love Eric Joseph Migliori
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Date: Mon Oct 14 19:36:02 MDT 2002
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Bethann, I only met you once or twice, but you were one of the sweetest people I have ever met. I remember when I met you, you made me feel welcome. You were an outgoing girl who had nothing but nice things to say. You were willing to make a new friend. I didn't know you well at all but reading about you I can tell how loved you are and how greatly missed you will be. I'm upset that we didnt get the chance or time to become friends. You had so much more to give. Even though we only met a couple times I will never forget you.
Name: an old friend
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Date: Tue Oct 15 12:03:31 MDT 2002
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Bethann, you were one of my good friends in middle school days. I sit here and think back of all the good times we had. Just a little bit ago we were hangin out and it made me miss all the good times we used to have. Just walking down the hall and seeing your beautiful smile made me have a better day. I miss all the laughs we used to have and talkin on the internet. All the memories with you will never be forgotten. I kno your up in heaven watchin over us. Tell Candace that I miss her so much too. Even though we haven't talked as much as we used to.. Bethann, I still miss you so much and I love you. You will be in my heart forever.
Name: Misty Faircloth
AIM: CURMISKATNIC
E-Mail: CURMISKATNIC@aol.com
Date: Tue Oct 15 15:37:10 MDT 2002
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Your Guardian Angel M.F. Each day I am with you ANd wish that you could see I'm there right beside you And I'll always be So when you're feeling sad and the day is mostly done Find comfort knowing....your guardian angel, I've now become! Never forgotten, always in our heart and souls.
Name: aunt claire
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Date: Wed Oct 16 11:57:23 MDT 2002
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BETHANN MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL, REMEMBER WHEN YOU WERE ON VACATION THIS SUMMER AND I FAXED YOU A LETTER WITH ABOUT 100 I MISS YOU ON IT, WELL I COULD TYPE THAT A BILLION TIMES AND THAT WOULD NEVER BE ENOUGH TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH I MISS YOU. WHAT I WOULND'T GIVE TO HEAR YOU GOING UP AND DOWN THE STEPS AGAIN AND HEARING ANOTHER BETNANN STORY. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO WITHOUT YOU, YOU WERE THE SUNSHINE IN MY LIFE AND YOU ALWAYS WILL BE. COME AND SEE ME . I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY FRANK, AND I'LL ALWAYS BE CEIL... BUT FOR NOW YOU MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, AUNT CLAIRE
Name: Nicole
AIM: Nleigh26
E-Mail: Wasilko217@Duq.Edu
Date: Wed Oct 16 16:46:16 MDT 2002
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Bethann truely was a special person. She was one of the most sweetest and kindest individuals that I have ever had the pleasure of meeting and getting to know. Everytime I saw Bethann she was always in the best mood and had a huge smile on her face. Not only did she always have a smile on her face but she always brought countless smiles to the faces of those around her. Bethann had such a kind heart. Her kindness and love touched so many. I never EVER saw her being mean or hurting another individual. That just was not in her nature. She had such a wonderful spirit and was so full of life. Bethann was such a beautiful person both inside and out. I remember being at the beach with Garrett this past August and hearing that unmistakable voice that no one could ever hate and me turning around to see that beautiful smile of hers. If I had the chance I would thank her for always being so kind and outgoing towards me and for always making me feel welcomed when I was around her. I am so incredibly thankful for the memories I have of her. I will cherish them forever! Bethann truely was one in a million. I will think of her always. My thought and prayers are with you and your family. God Bless.
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Date: Wed Oct 16 21:22:14 MDT 2002
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I'm writing here because I wish so much that Bethann was still here. Unlike everyone else who wrote though, it's because I never had the chance to be friends with her, and she's a girl who seems so wonderful. My relationship with Bethann consisted mostly of fighting, over petty little things that seem soooo ridiculous now. It’s hard to believe that such meaningless fighting could stand in the way of two people being friends, and now all i feel is guilt because i never got the chance to know her. I can see she was an amazing person who i probably would have loved had i been mature enough to forgot all the insignificant differences. I missed out on an amazing friend. She was so innocent, and since she is an angel now, I know without doubt that her lovable, gorgeous and sweet self is at peace. Her precious soul is soaring and I can only imagine her in heaven with Candace and the many others, but that doesn’t console my regret over never apologizing to her. As i think about our new angels, i realize how much bethann has taught me ... she's taught me lessons in maturity and forgiveness, and im so grateful for that. I only wish she was here and i could hear that cute little voice, so i could say the things i should have said before ... i am so genuinely sorry, babe. God bless your cherished spirit! You are so missed!! To everyone else…PLEASE realize how agonizing it is to have things end on bad terms. I feel extreme guilt every time I think about the last things I said to Bethann. Make peace now with everyone you love, because you will realize when someone is gone that you truly did love them and cherished their life, whether you realized it during their life or not. To Bethann’s family, I extend my deepest empathy to you, and I pray that you all pull through strongly – your daughter/sister/cousin/niece/angel was beautiful on this earth and still is in heaven, because everyone there will appreciate such a caring, loving, and pretty addition to the Kingdom.
Name: Betty Clayton
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Date: Thu Oct 17 14:28:41 MDT 2002
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"A thing of beauty is a joy forever." Wasn't it only yesterday that you were a little child? How swifly the years go by. God's word tells us that to be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord. We have this promise and we know that one day, when He returns, He will return Bethann's spirit to her newly glorified body. We cannot begin to understand why Bethann was chosen to go away. Lives, who were so close to her, will forever be changed because she is no longer with them in her body. She touched so many people in so many positive ways and always made herself a blessing to someone else. I am Tom DeNome's mother in law, living in Virginia. My sweet Bethann, you were deeply loved on this earth. Your beautiful spirit and love continue today, and will be with us unto the end. Thank you for the magnolia bloom and the rainbow!! Love, MA
Name: Shelley
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E-Mail: countrychick04@aol.com
Date: Thu Oct 17 22:23:21 MDT 2002
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I knew Bethann from the Hovey's who are my next door neighbors. I saw Bethann every holiday that her and her family would come down and I even spent time with her at her own home. Bethann was wonderful girl with a beautiful personality. Her smile and laugh would lighten up any room and anyone's day. Its sad to have her taken away at such a tender age, but God stillhas great plans for such a beautiful soul. She will greatly be missed in my heart.
Name: anonymous
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Date: Fri Oct 18 12:00:35 MDT 2002
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I would just like to take this opportunity to appologize to Bethann for all the times we've faught. We used to talk when she was in 10th grade, then the summer after that, there was a few things that went on that made us not like each other anymore. I wish I could go back and appologize to her for every wrong thing that I ever said to her, but I can't. I hope that now since you are in heaven you realize that all the problems between us were only over jealousy. It is a shame we could not look past that, and I am sorry I was not more mature about things. You were a wonderful person, probably one of the best to walk down here... but now that you are up there above us, I hope you find a new destination to fulfill your new journey. Once more, I'm sorry for the lost words and the moments of anger, rest in peace<3
Name: Annonymous
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Date: Fri Oct 18 22:43:34 MDT 2002
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Sky so bright and clear Remember I am here The ocean ever rolling Remember I am near All our hearts are open wide Remember I will be by your side Today and forever...
Name: Lt. Tom Carter - Allegheny County Sheriff's Office
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Date: Sat Oct 19 10:43:57 MDT 2002
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GOODBYE BETHANN GOD TOOK YOU AWAY IT DOESN'T SEEM FAIR BUT IN THE BACK OF MY MIND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THERE YOU WEREN'T A CLOSE FRIEND BUT OUR PATHS DID CROSS AND YOUR ABSENCE IN THIS WORLD IS TO ME A VERY SAD LOSS YOU WERE TOO YOUNG TO DIE AND TOO INNOCENT TO FEEL THE PAIN ONLY HEAVEN BENEFITS BECAUSE YOU IT HAS NOW GAINED I MAY THINK OF YOU A LITTLE LESS WITH EACH PASSING DAY BUT YOUR CHARACTER AND PERSONALITY IS SOMETHING I WON'T EVER FORGET YOU HAVE CHANGED ME IN A WAY I WISH FOR YOU ETERNAL PEACE THAT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE MY FRIEND I HOPE TO LEAD MY LIFE WELL ENOUGH TO MEET UP WITH YOU IN THE END May God be with you always Bethann. Every rainbow that I see in the sky brings back the thought of you. Rest in eternal peace and love. You truely are an angel of God.
Name: Mary Sue Legeza
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Date: Sat Oct 19 18:55:07 MDT 2002
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I only met Bethann briefly but through all the stories her mother has told me I feel like I have known her a long time. How, in only 17 years, a young lady can touch so many lives in such a positive way is a great tribute to the family she came from. Johnny, Barb, and John my heart aches for your loss. I read a poem the other day and I would like to share it. When I must leave you for a little while, please do not grieve and shed wild tears and hug your sorrow through the years, but start out bravely with a gallant smile, and for my sake and in my name live on and do all things the same. Feed not your lonliness on empty days, but fill each waking hour in useful ways, reach out your hand in comfort and in cheer and I in turn will comfort you and hold you near. We part with our loved ones but not forever if we trust God's promise and doubt it never.
Name: Lindsey Grebner
AIM: PassDAbudd24
E-Mail: LiLgreby24@hotmail.com
Date: Sun Oct 20 17:55:13 MDT 2002
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Bethann... I will never forget all our good times in Computer Programming with Alli, Lindsay, Marina and JOE NOTO... you would always be so cheerful and just made that class so much fun. I wish you could come down to Subway again and get ur chicken sandwich. Everytime I go to work I think that maybe you would come in once again!! U r missed greatly by all and school wont be the same without u!
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Date: Sun Oct 20 21:26:25 MDT 2002
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My thoughts have been with your family since this tragedy. Although I didn't have the opportunity to know Bethann, I feel like I've learned a lot about her and your family. You all should feel comfort in the fact that you shared so much of your feelings with each other. You should have a feeling of peace in that sense. How many of us would probably have 'regrets' because we didn't express our love for one another like we should have. You all seemed to be so open with one another. Let Bethann's memory help you to live again. She would want that for you...because she loved you all so much. Let her see how strong you can be because of her strong spirit. She'll guide you along the way. LIVE for her. LIVE for each other. You need one another now more than ever. We are all praying for you. God Bless You All !
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Date: Mon Oct 21 18:38:01 MDT 2002
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i'm not sure that if i saw her on the street somewhere that she would remember me or that even if somebody mentioned my name to her that she would remember. But i cant remember a while back probably 10 years ago we used to dance together at bonnies... i don't really remember too much about her but i do remember this one picture of her that i have in my dance book and ill never forget it. She had the biggest smile on her face ever. To all of her friends and family and all that miss her, i know what it's like to lose somebody you are so close to.. i am so sorry for this loss you have to suffer.. may god bless you all
Name: Lindsay
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Date: Mon Oct 21 19:13:53 MDT 2002
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Bethann its been 1 month today and I still feel the same as a did a month ago..I miss you so much,you were such a great person...I just dont understand why god took you away at such a young age...there's only one thing I can think of...is that you were an angel always and it was your destiny to be here with us for a short time,but I know your up in heaven smiling down on all of us and watching over us...No matter what I will never forget you...See you when it's my time
Name: Lindsey Briggs
AIM: Binz45
E-Mail: Binz00@hotmail.com
Date: Mon Oct 21 20:09:03 MDT 2002
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Well.. it was a month ago today you departed from this Earth Bethann. You cant even imagine how many lives you have touched, and more people realize it with each day that passes. So many people adore you and think about you every single day. There is no other in this world like you. Nobody with your words of encouragement you would give all the time, your smile so bright and golden, and your hugs so warm. I don't think I will ever meet anyone as silly as you... that would turn my day upside down when I was upset about something. I think thats what bothers me the most. There isn't a soul in this world that was as goofy as you that could make me laugh just at the thought of your grin or one of your funny comments that would make no sense at all. lol. I'd give anything to see you sneak out of Landys class to come and talk to us in Mr. Feicks room again. I miss all of your dramatic stories and your advice you would give me. I hope you realize how many people love u B Zags. You always made everyone feel so good about themselves. You had the best heart a human body could ever own. I don't think there was ever a dull moment when you were with me. There was 24/7 giggling when you were around. I'll never forget a while back forget when I would tell u what to say online to all ur lil boyfriends during your "boycrazy phase".. to just this past school year in aerobics and workin in the office together. Our last time together was international villege, and I hugged you when i dropped u off and u wished me the best of luck at school, and soon u were going to come visit me :( Well I know your here with me everyday. Im just glad we kept in touch over the phone after that too. I am so lucky to have had such an awesome person in my life. I miss you so so so much and I love you girl. Please watch over your family and work your miracles up there.. your truely missed. Love you. Cant wait to see again... your "L. Binz"
Name: Barry Anderson
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Date: Mon Oct 21 20:54:56 MDT 2002
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I saw Bethann a lot less regularly than many of you who have written here. I would see her at family functions or the occasional times when Johnny and/or Barb would stop at our house for something or we would stop at theirs – probably more so when she was a little girl than in her high school years. But on the times that I did see her, she never had anything but a bright smile and a polite hello and bright greeting. I knew her still better because she and Barb and John would go to church with my wife (who is Johnny’s cousin) and my daughter and I would hear news about her and John from them. I now know much more about her life and character from all of you who have written here and from the events of the last few weeks. It’s plain that she brought light into the lives of all of you and left her mark on her world. It’s also plain that her family – mother, father, brother, uncles, aunts, and cousins – had much to do with the way she lived her life. I hope you can all take comfort in that fact – that she was raised well, lived a good life, and was a person of good character and a remarkable young lady. In the short time she was here, she left a lasting impression on everyone she knew.
Name: Erin
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Date: Tue Oct 22 06:26:06 MDT 2002
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Bethann, I've known you for a long time, and we haven't always got a long, but I want you to know how much I miss your smile and your laugh. I know that you are in a better place now , but we all miss you. I'll never forget you;) love always
Name: Gina Marie
AIM: iTaLiAnCuTiE3206
E-Mail: iTaLiAnCuTiE3206@yahoo.com
Date: Tue Oct 22 14:15:38 MDT 2002
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well bethann--i miss you way so much.....it was one month and one day today...but like i said you'll always be my big sister....in way,and i'm not exactly saying good bye.....i'm see ya later girl and i love and miss you more than anything in this whole entire WORLD
Name: Kristin
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Date: Wed Oct 23 00:12:29 MDT 2002
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Bethann, its been just over a month since your passing, and everyday feels just as empty and hard as the next. Your presence here with us had an impact on so many people, and their is an emptiness here without you. Your beautiful smile and passion for life is deeply missed by so many people. Not a single second goes by that you are not thought of by so many. I have so many memories of you as we were growing up together, it hurts that the memories are all that I have left. Over the years we may not have been as close, but I always had a love and respect for you like you were my little sister and would have done anything for you. I will carry your memory forever in my heart. I love and miss you more than I could ever say! You will forever be in my thoughts...Can't wait for the day I see you again.
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Date: Wed Oct 23 11:18:16 MDT 2002
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Name: Christian Hovey
AIM: JCHovey128
E-Mail: fuzzjackson128@yahoo.com
Date: Wed Oct 23 12:20:17 MDT 2002
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Bethann, Its been a little over a month now since youve been gone. There hasnt been a single day that I havent thought about you. Being back in Wilmington last week made me think of you even more. Thank you for the shooting star and the rainbow you gave your brother and the signs youve given to everyone else. We know that you are safe and always looking in. Last week in NC, Jamie played me a cd that had a strong effect on me. The song, "A Friends Blues" just made me think about you alot so I just wanted to write down the verse that I thought reflected your memory. --We came togther like family, like it was our first death, unexpected, so quick, so sudden, the worst yet. Didnt get to know the girl 10 years after her first breath, still we loved her like a sister as there for her first steps. Got the call out of town, so alone I first wept, Deep pain in the same place from where this verse crept. Never slept in that bed again, The memory was too tragic, looked up and screamed "goodbye" Knew you wouldnt be present at the wake, in your casket, now you ask if things changed since you left, not really, We still playing games, B.S.ing, acting silly(see, she dont talk to her and she dont like me) and will we work things out, thats not likely, I mean where will we start, do we mend friendships or let things fall apart. Will we still be in touch, honestly I dont know but you're in my heart forever! ...And this frienship, that I value The most like Kindship The ones we hold close and dear we fear the most of losing but keep true and the memories ruined cause life keeps moving
Name: Megan Kirchhoff
AIM: Baby M 2012
E-Mail: Fabolous_o4@yahoo.com
Date: Wed Oct 23 18:12:50 MDT 2002
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Bethann its been about a month now but everyone is still thinkin about you. Foods Class isnt the same without you, Me, Danielle, Holly, and Shane always talk about how much we miss you in there, and all the funny times we had. "No soap up here" cant forget that one. And me you and Danielle trying to make eggs in there but we couldnt haha. I miss you alot and so does everyone else, watch over us Bethann <3 Megan
Name: Britt
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Date: Wed Oct 23 23:45:46 MDT 2002
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I can remember the phone call like it was yesterday...Jordan called and told me the horrible news...I was in a state of shock...and now I sit here a lil over a month later...Bethann has touched so many lives in a positive way and she will ALWAYS be remembered by so many...I think about you a lot hun and look at this wonderful site just about everyday! Luv you... John...from this terrible experience I have learned so much...my brother is only 9 yrs. old right now...and being away at college it makes me want to be home and spend all the time I possibly can with him...I hope that we can have a bond and special relationship like you and Bethann had...you two seemed like the "Perfect Brother and Sister"...I cannot imagine life with out Nick and my deepest sympathy goes out to you and your family...Bethann loves you all and sends you magical signs to let you know she is ok...she truly is an angel that will ALWAYS look over you hun...stay strong!
Name: Cheryl Bailey
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Date: Thu Oct 24 14:56:42 MDT 2002
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I didn't include my name on the first message sent, but I wanted to let you know how much we all think of you during the day...always asking how you're doing...if you're making it through the day ok...if you're coping any better. I hope that all the wonderful messages from everyone are helping you along this rough road. This website was a great tribute, John. Learning of how so many think of Bethann in such a high regard should really give you a nice feeling. I just wanted you to know we are here for you...and are praying for your family's recovery. God Bless You All ! -Cousin Cheryl-
Name: Betty
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Date: Fri Oct 25 09:58:56 MDT 2002
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dear Bethann, im writing this letter to you letting you know how much i miss you. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. I look and my couch and just remember you sitting there and me being excited because you had come to visit me. You brightened up everything and everyone around you. The first time I met you will always stick in my mind. It was at the prom and you had on that beautiful white dress. You looked like an angel. I introduced myself and then I heard your voice. I'll never forget it. I can still hear it. I not only loved the sound of your voice but also the kind words you always said to me. I love you Bethann. Watch over us. P.S. Thanks for the giant sundae
Name: The Anders
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Date: Fri Oct 25 15:25:37 MDT 2002
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My neighbor, Vera, called today and asked if I had heard about the terrible accident that took your dear one from you. I didn't know that Vera was your cousin, but I told her that I had been praying daily for your family. I now have been touched even more by your loss. All of your family will continue to be in my prayers. May God bless, comfort and strengthen you. May He hold you up and heal your broken hearts. Sincerely, Diane Anders
Name: Jaci
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Date: Fri Oct 25 17:21:32 MDT 2002
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bethann was a sweet teen she always called me her little cuttie. She was so prettty and sweet. She was always smiling.I remember the frist time i met her with Gina,we were driven her home from a basketball game and she was opening her water and it splashed all over us,it was so funny.I will miss her a whole lot keep smiling for us bethann. I will always remember you I lov ya lots Jaci
Name: Beth
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Date: Fri Oct 25 20:43:51 MDT 2002
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Bethann, well its been a little over a month since you were taken from us, and I truly hate life without you.. I feel so alone and so empty without you here next to me like you ALWAYS were. Nothing is or ever will be the same without you here with us to go out, nothing is fun anymore, we just sit here and wonder why this had to happen to you?? You are on my mind every second of the day, I'm always thinking about what you would be doing right then or what we would be talking about. I still have not let myself believe that this is for real and that its not a dream. Every time my phone rings, or someone comes to my house, or I hear someone sign online, I pray that it is you coming back to say that you're here and everything will go back to being perfect again like it used to be. But I know that you are way too perfect to be here on earth still, you were always an angel who was sent here on a mission and now that you've completed that, you belong back in heaven. Every little thing that happens somehow reminds me of you, or something that we have done together. You were the bestest friend that a gurl could ever ask for, you were way more than that, you were a sister to me.. and like Sir said tonite, I can gladly say that my best friend was also an angel cuz thats what you were, and I know now that you are thee most gorgeous angel in heaven. You still are my best friend Bethann, I'm going to keep you with me forever, I just wish that I could be able to hear you talk back or see you or be able to hug you one more time. I miss you more than anything in this world babe, I wish that there was someway that I could get you back because we all need and want you here. I am soo thankful for everything that you have done for me and especially for you showing me what true friendship is. I thank God for all the times we've had over the years, I will remember them as long as I live, thinking about them and how we were always laughing about stupid stuff, like telling Marc he has "pneumacalatosis" a "KTD" lol, these are what's getting me through the pain. All I know is that each passing day is just one day closer to when I get to see you again, and I cannot wait till that day comes. Until then, please watch over me, the 9 other girls, and especially Barb Sir and John I love you Bethann with all of my heart, you'll always be my best friend, my beautiful Angel!
Name: John
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Date: Sat Oct 26 00:06:03 MDT 2002
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Bethann... My head is pounding... I cant sleep.. And i feel sick in my stomach.. Its times like this in the middle of the night that id come to your room and wake you up. Now... I cant, So im left sitting here lonely, looking at the wall, and missing you terribly and thinking about you non stop. I wish so badly that i could turn back the hands of time my sis, Everyday is a struggle now. I wish more then anything that you could still be here, And i could walk down that hallway right now to wake you up to sit and talk with me. Life will never be the same again Bethann, and I am not the same person without you here. I miss you with all my heart and soul Bethann. I love you so much. Love john
Name: Anonymous
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Date: Sun Oct 27 10:36:37 MST 2002
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I wish that I too could add to all of the wonderful memories that Bethann left behind, but I can't because I never took the time to get to know her. That is something that I deeply regret because it looks like I have missed out on knowing one of the sweetest girls you could ever meet. My heart goes out to her family and friends, but be comforted to know that she is with God now.
Name: anonymous
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Date: Sun Oct 27 15:54:19 MST 2002
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....I didn't know Bethann but i wish i had. Listening to all the stories people tell about her she sounds so nice. She was also very pretty. My heart goes out to Bethann's family i've never heard of such a bond between brother & sister they were so close. John you made a nice page in memory of your sister . Hang in there Bud!
Name: Amanda
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Date: Mon Oct 28 08:25:17 MST 2002
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I didn't know Bethann, but so many people from my hometown did. I read what everyone wrote, and it is such a sad loss, someone so young and beautiful. I only hope that her family remains strong and supportive of each other in this hard time, because each and every one of you know that Bethann is smiling down upon you.
Name: David Rostcheck
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Date: Mon Oct 28 19:15:34 MST 2002
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John, Barb and John, I have only learned today of this web page from Fr. George and have decided to sit down and write to you. Let me begin by saying that that you are always in our prayers. How we all anguish that we could find the words to bring comfort to you in this time of your grieving. There are few among us who can fathom your loss. I recently attended a lecture as part of my classes at which Fr. Michael Dahulich spoke on the topic, “Our role in God’s Plan.” At the beginning he related a story from his own life of how years ago he had lost his bride of only 29 days who was 21 years of age. I thought immediately of you and listened intently knowing that this was a man who surely knew the pain that you are feeling. He told us that he ultimately found peace in knowing that it was the quality of her life rather than the quantity of her life in which God had seen it befitting to call her to eternal life in His Kingdom. I believe that this is the case with Bethann and pray that you may find some small measure of comfort in knowing that our Lord has seen the quality of her life and called her also to eternal life in His Kingdom. It is the understanding of our Orthodox Church that those who go blameless in their youth unto the Lord are numbered among the Saints and stand in the presence of Christ who glorified them. Along with the choirs of angels they pray to God for us. I did not know Bethann personally except to see you together in church. But I feel that our community is blessed to have had in our midst one who intercedes for us before Christ our God. I personally was drawn to the words found in John 11:35 which simply say, “ Jesus wept.” It is from the account of the death of Jesus’ friend Lazarus. Our Lord in His fully human nature wept at His friend’s death. I simply can only offer that all of us at your parish community have wept and continue to weep with you. I have no profound words of comfort to offer you. How I long that I did. We do not fully understand God’s divine plan for our salvation. I can only share with you that by the Grace of the Holy Spirit that at my father’s passing He has mercifully called me to return to His Holy Church after I had turned my back on Him for much of my life. Since that time I have prayed this prayer for my family and myself and I continue to pray it for you and all among us who struggle to understand. It is simply that our Lord Jesus Christ will, “Look down upon those of us who mourn and grieve and transform the sorrow of our hearts into the joy and salvation of His resurrection.” On behalf of all the faithful of the Nativity of the Virgin Mary parish I share with you the words of the Holy Apostle Paul to the Philippians: “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” Please know that you are continually in all our prayers and we look forward to you joining us once again soon. Yours in Christ, Sub-deacon David
Name: Krista
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Date: Tue Oct 29 21:00:49 MST 2002
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i miss you, its painful to wake up each day knowing that you arent here physically with us. please watch over us bethann, and barb, sir, and john. never in a million years would i think that my close friend would unfairly be taken from this world and then only 3 weeks later, would my father leave me too, unexpectedly. i love you bethann.
Name: Sue DeBerardinis
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Date: Wed Oct 30 10:40:05 MST 2002
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Dear Bethann. Our family misses you very much. I remember the first time I saw your smiling face. It was the kindergarten classroom - you ran up and gave your mom a big hug and "I love you". What a sweet girl and beautiful mom I thought to myself. Later we were together many times - parties, girl scouts, shopping and just hanging out. You were like a sister to Jill and Leah. You ALWAYS took time to make Leah feel extra special - dressing her up, doing her hair and makeup, teaching her dances and just talking to her. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you and your family. We love you "Our Beautiful Angel Bethann". Love, Suzy
Name: Johnna
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Date: Wed Oct 30 16:33:54 MST 2002
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Honey, there is not a minute that goes by that i do not think of your beautiful smile, your crazy laugh, your energy. I miss you with all of my heart. I miss hearing "ahh.. its O.K. Johnna". I hear that in my mind over and over again. In the Jungle the mighty Jungle the Lion sleeps tonight...In the Jungle the mighty Jungle the Lion sleeps tonight...AHHH...Winga woop a Winga woop a Winga woop a Winga woop.....I Love You and miss you terribly my Sweet God Child
Name: Chrissy
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E-Mail: pixie_dust@electracide.net
Date: Wed Oct 30 20:59:05 MST 2002
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betha.. it*s almost been six weeks. i just keep counting the days, as if it means anything. i just miss you so much.. esspecially now. halloween will always remind me of you. everytime i go to a haunted house or talk about one, i always think of you.. that first time at castle blood with you and jyll, you were so scared, and i just kept laughing. and just yesterday i was talking about old girl scouts stuff with a few people, and i just kept thinking about you. everytime i walk into my room, there*s that little collage i made.. your beautiful face beaming back at me. everytime i go to my locker, there*s yours, covered in pictures and poems. every morning, i put that necklace on that i first put on the day you died, trying to put all of my pain into one tiny little crystal. it seems like you*re everywhere lately.. like, when i see someone from behind, and for a split second think it*s you before i realize it couldn*t be. i just want to be sleeping now, but i just keep thinking.. so, as always, i*m talking to you. hoping you hear, even though you*ve got so many other more important people to watch over. but i know some tiny part of you must be watching over me, as you always made time for me when you were here.. i luv you betha.
Name: John
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Date: Thu Oct 31 16:57:55 MST 2002
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Jacki has a good friend at school named Shannon and I have found comfort in talking to her since she is going through the same thing as I am. Unfortunately her brother passed away a little over a week before Bethann did. She sent me a poem that was read at her Brothers funeral and I wanted to post it here. Hopefully some of you will find comfort in it: Death is nothing at all I have only slipped away into the next room Call me by my old familiar name, Speak to me in the easy way you always used Laugh as we always laughed together Play, smile, think of me, pray for me. Let my name be the household word that it always was. Let it be spoken without effort Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was; There is absolutely unbroken continuity. Why should I be out of your mind because I am out of your sight? I am but waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near just around the corner All is well Nothing is past, nothing is lost. One brief moment and all will be as it was before Only better, infinitely happier And Forever we will be one together with Christ. I love you more then life itself Bethann. No one can ever feel the pain i feel, or know how bad I miss you. I love you so much.
Name: Rosie
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Date: Thu Oct 31 23:14:13 MST 2002
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Bethann, you always made chemistry class interesting and always knew how to throw Mr. Yarosh off topic, which was always a great time. You were such a fun person to be around and I will miss ya girly!
Name: Karen
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Date: Fri Nov 1 11:43:57 MST 2002
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I was reading some poems today and found this one. I thought of Bethann instantly when I read it. You'll Find Me There If ever you have sensed me near, Yet doubted it could be, Thinking it impossible, That rainbow might be me. See, I'm the whisper of the wind, I didn't ever leave, In fact my presence emanates, If you will just believe! That song that resonates your mind Is one I sing for you, Oh Mommy, please, rely on faith, There's so much I can do. At times you loathe the days that rain, In anguish you lament, It seems the sun but dimly shines, The flowers have no scent. Now Daddy, it's okay to cry, I've watched you hold it in, Please know that I adore you so, We'll all be joined again. And as you hold my Mommy's hand, And share this grief you bear, Just picture me, gaze in Her eyes, I swear you'll find me there!
Name: courtney
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Date: Sat Nov 2 09:20:37 MST 2002
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I can't belive your gone.We all miss very much.u r missed and loved very much jus remember the good times 4get all the bad R.I.P yeah u got candace and luke up there with you we all will meet again well i g2g i miss you so much luv ya courtney
Name: Heather
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Date: Sat Nov 2 12:06:37 MST 2002
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Bethann... I miss you more and more with every passing day.There is not a moment that passes I dont think of you. Everything we do is just not the same without you being here like you always were and its never going to be the same without you. You were always here to put a smile on my face and I wish so badly that you still were.I just cannot understand why God took such an amazing, wonderful, caring, and beautiful person away from us! Until the day we meet again please watch over me, the rest of the girls and your family! You will forever be in my heart and never ever forget that I love you soooo much!!! *Hezzy Girl*
Name: Kristina Pryzbylski
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Date: Sat Nov 2 19:22:58 MST 2002
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I will never forget my first sleepover at Bethann's house! I've never felt so happy to be around a bunch of girls who were fun and always had a good time no matter where they went. First we started out with 8 girls in the crew and as the year passed we added 3 more. We did everything together and everyone had to be together where ever we went. I will never forget doing Bethann's hair for when we went out with the girls or the Homecoming dance. She would always ask me to do her hair or make-up, or borrow my clothes. You are part of the 11 girls forever and I will never forget you. I know in my heart you will always be with me in the future and look in on me from time to time. You are our guardian angel. I love you! 10 girls + an angel= 11 friends for life.
Name: Kristina Pryzbylski
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Date: Sat Nov 2 19:29:22 MST 2002
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I will never forget my first sleepover at Bethann's house! I've never felt so happy to be around a bunch of girls who were fun and always had a good time no matter where they went. First we started out with 8 girls in the crew and as the year passed we added 3 more. We did everything together and everyone had to be together where ever we went. I will never forget doing Bethann's hair for when we went out with the girls or the Homecoming dance. She would always ask me to do her hair or make-up, or borrow my clothes. You are part of the 11 girls forever and I will never forget you. I know in my heart you will always be with me in the future and look in on me from time to time. You are our guardian angel. I love you! 10 girls + an angel = 11 friends for life.
Name: Amanda DeWitt
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E-Mail: dewitt_amanda@hotmail.com
Date: Sat Nov 2 20:12:35 MST 2002
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Bethann were do I begin...? You and I were friends since first grade. We were always together weither it was girl scouts or just hanging out at your house. But in fourth grade that all changed when I moved to North Carolina. You threw a birthday/good-bye party for me and you gave me a music box that was engraved,"Best Friends Forever, Bethann." The song it plays is Memories, who would have ever thought that would be the only thing I have left. I'm sooo sorry that we didnt keep better in touch, but I have always considered you to be one of my best friends. I'm just sorry I didn't tell you before. It was so hard to say good-bye to you when I was just moving several states away and you'll never understand how hard it is know that your gone. I'll keep your family in my prayers! Until we meet agian I hope you know that I love you. Amanda
Name: Dana* Ferencz
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Date: Sat Nov 2 23:06:31 MST 2002
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Bethann- It's been over a month since you were taken from us, and I can finally think of what to write in here. I think I was on this site about a billion times before I could actually post something on here. I kept thinking, how could I sum up my memories with you on here? I cant. There were so many and I know you and I will never forget. And I know that you're listening to my prayers to you everynight. I thought things would get easier, but they seem to get worse as the days go by. I miss you so much BZAGS and I love you, but in my heart I know you are doing just fine up there, because you keep sending us signs, since you're our ANGEL now.
Name: Brittany Reisnauet
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Date: Sun Nov 3 15:24:47 MST 2002
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Name: Brittany
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Date: Sun Nov 3 15:26:36 MST 2002
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Bethann we will allways miss you. I did not know you very well but i knew you a lil at that was all that counted. We misse you Bethann
Name: marc
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Date: Sun Nov 3 19:45:58 MST 2002
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Bethann..b-zagz....seems like u been gon foreva im missin u like crazy. Life aitn as good without u here. School is so hard when ur no there 2 walk w/ 2 all my classes I keep seein u but its not really you but i wish it was. We all love u down here and r missin u like crazy. I'll never forget u and how u laffed at everythin i sed and was always happy and smilin. Ill always love u and miss u forever even thot u r in a better place.:(
Name: Vicky & Jack
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Date: Sun Nov 3 21:32:14 MST 2002
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Everyday, we think of Bethann, John, Barb and John; and our hearts ache. We met Bethann through our daughter Jacki. With Bethann's endearing "hello" and engaging personality, we loved her immediately. What a sweet young lady - so happy, energetic, beautiful inside and out - so much of EVERYTHING going for her. Barb and John, you have done a wonderful job as parents, and John, everyone knows you are a great brother. Bethann, we have faith that the Lord has lead you to a special place in heaven. We hold you dear in our hearts and our prayers.
Name: Melissa
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E-Mail: lissa0771@msn.com
Date: Mon Nov 4 10:26:35 MST 2002
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Bethann was a wonderful, caring, beautiful young woman who made this world a brighter place. Her abscence from here seems surreal. I wish I could have gotten to know her better, but even the few times I shared with her are memories I will cherish forever. My heart goes out to John, and all her family and friends. I won't ever forget the last time I saw you, I drove you home from because you didn't have a ride. And all you kept doing was apologizing for how far out of the way it was. You, like everyone has already said about you, always had a smile on you face and could make ANYONE happy. I know you're looking down on us from heaven like so many friends we've lost along the way, and I know eventually we'll all be together ONE SWEET DAY! You are now a gorgeous ANGEL from above Bethann and you're memory will live on forever. <3 Melissa
Name: Jeorgia
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Date: Tue Nov 5 10:02:02 MST 2002
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I didn't kno bethann, but i kno that she was a great girl and that everyone loved her with all their hearts! I feel bad for her family, her brother, and all her friends! i just wish that it didn't happen! An i'm sorry for her brother,c cause i kno that he loved her w/ all his heart and soul! So RIP BETHANN!
Name: Lindsey
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Date: Tue Nov 5 10:06:55 MST 2002
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Bethann, I cant even begin to say how great of a person you were an how much I love an miss you.You truly are one of a kind. You could cheer me up an make my day better by just being yourself. You affected my life an taught me soo much. We had our bad times, i know, and im so sorry for that. But thankfully we got over them and had our good times...the times i will never ever ever forget. Ill never forget that cute lil voice an laugh, and that gorgeous smile. You were way too perfect for this earth an now I know your a beautiful angel in Heaven watching an smiling down on all of us. I cant believe its been over a month, i thought that things would get easier but they just seem to get harder...theres nothing I wouldnt do to get you back. I miss you Bethann! Please tell Candace, Vince, Luke an Matt I said hi an I love an miss them too. I will never ever ever ever forget you Bethann!!..Zags,B*Zags, Zagurasky(it took me so long to say that,that day goin down the hall). Its just not the same without you here, but thank you so much for all the signs letting us know that you are okay. I love an miss you so much hunnie!Love Always,Lindsey
Name: donna tentler
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Date: Tue Nov 5 10:08:07 MST 2002
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john, barb, and john: On Sept. 21,2002 our families lost two beautiful girls. we know the pain your family is going thru day by day. it is almost six weeks since this tragedy and it seems just like yesterday. we know they are in heaven being our angels looking out and protecting each of us. i never met your daughter, but my brother and sister-in-law speak very highly of her. we hope someday our families find some kind of comfort. these girls memories will never go away for families or their friends. our thoughts are with each of you everyday. Candace's Aunt Donna
Name: Amanda DeWitt
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Date: Wed Nov 6 11:39:09 MST 2002
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Well Bethann I'm sitting in science class and I cant stop thinking about you. I wish I had done more and there are sooo many things left unsaid, but I know you are dancing on the clouds in heaven. And I know that you understand why things happened the way they did and I just wanted to remind you that I love you and miss you. Love, Amanda
Name: Jess VanNatta
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E-Mail: Clubchic17@hotmail.com
Date: Wed Nov 6 20:18:18 MST 2002
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I am sorry to say that I did not know Bethann that well. I knew her to see her, but not personally. I did, however, know her brother John. John... I am so sorry for you and your families loss. We were in homeroom for many years... and even though we did not talk... I still feel your pain. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. My mom is doing everything she can to make sure that this doesn't happen again. Please help her, myself, and your friends and families to make sure that this doesn't happen again. I know you are smiling on us Bethann. You are everyone's angel. We will see you again. Tell Candance and Luke we all say hello and that we miss them!
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Date: Thu Nov 7 22:26:36 MST 2002
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As your Church says, May the memory be eternal.......... Your church is cool!
Name: samantha
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E-Mail: SandiSammi@juno.com
Date: Fri Nov 8 19:05:04 MST 2002
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Bethann we will always miss you
Name: Twe
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E-Mail: mat261@psu.edu
Date: Sat Nov 9 02:20:23 MST 2002
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Bethann, I can not believe you are gone. You left us much to soon. I have known you for some time now and we were pretty close. I always loved to see you. You always had something interesting in store for me. I remember helping you find your classes when you first came to the high school. And riding you and John home from school. I will never forget our health class together. No matter how boring it was, I knew I could always turn around and see you smiling, or making a face at me. After, we used to wait on Kristin and Sean when they came from Gym and we would hold up the wall. I will never forget all of our double dates w/ them, and our long talks about them, and how they drove us crazy. You were an amazing person, and you were incredibly special to me. I never would have thought you would leave us so soon. But I know you were chosen for a reason. You are needed more where you are now. So I will say my good bye to you, but I know you are not gone. I can feel you watching out for me, and I can feel the strength you give me in my heart. You were my friend, and always will be. I thank you for what you gave me, and I miss you dearly. May peace be with you, and please never stop smiling, because your smile brightens our lives more now than ever.
Name: jackie
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Date: Sat Nov 9 09:46:33 MST 2002
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bethann, i am thinking of all the wonderful times that we had in bio. and i wish that there were more to come! i hope that u will watch over us and guide us through this painful time. i think that god needed 2 beautiful smiles up there! i hope that one day i will see u again. p.s. ur " drop dead gorgeous" i miss and love you. jackie buhaly
Name: Dane Ruccio
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Date: Sat Nov 9 19:43:18 MST 2002
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Bethann, it's just been a little over a month and things havent changed...everyones thinkin' bout ya and missin ya everyday...we were good friends but i wish we couldve been better friends...the memories i will always have with u are the fun and crazy times from mrs. summers french classes...take care of candace and luke up there...thanx for letting us know you're ok...cant wait til the day we meet again...miss ya bethann!!
Name: Ang
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Date: Sun Nov 10 06:43:57 MST 2002
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Bethann, you were by far one of the most beautiful people inside and out. Your outgoingness made you soo much fun! I can just remember back in middle school with the dances lol we thought we were so cool.. Not one thing about you Bethann with ever be forgotten. You have touched so many people in this world. I know your looking down on us and watching the inpact you've made on everyone..most definatly your family and your closest friends. Luv ya hun
Name: Christy
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Date: Sun Nov 10 16:35:36 MST 2002
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Bethann, I am sitting here tonight, and I cannot stop thinking about you.Sometimes I still can't believe this has all happened.I wish I could see you again and hear your wonderful laugh.How I long to hear your voice again. Today,I bought this beautiful antique frame to put a picture of you in it.It is very unique and sparkles, just like your smile. It has been very hard for everyone since you have been gone, but all the signs you have sent to us have been comforting.I know you were with us in NC.The sky in the evening was a beautiful rainbow...& I remember seeing butterflies everywhere, and Johnna saying that there are never all these butterflies down here. Then we went sailing on the boat,and I said to Johnna and Ashley "look a butterfly!" As we sailed,there was a beautiful butterfly flying next to the boat, as if you were sailing with us. Seeing that and all the other signs lets me know you are okay. I know you are a beautiful angel up in heaven doing many wonderful things.Please watch over us, and keep sending us all your beautiful signs.I love you very much Bethann, and you are always in my heart.Love, Christy Lou Lou
Name: linds
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Date: Mon Nov 11 09:28:09 MST 2002
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I miss u.. i drove past the site and saw everything still there. all the memories ran thru me in a split second. all the joy u brought me is in my soul forever. every tear i shed is for u. every cry longs for your presence. and still the glory of the thought of u over powers those sad moments. i will not let those moments bring me down, but bring me up. ur still here, ur still my friend, ur still bethann. down to earth as ever and more caring than the average human being. ur in my thoughts just about every second of the day. god rest ur soul sweetie, i miss u more wtih every breath i take
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Date: Mon Nov 11 13:33:18 MST 2002
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You are our angel now, may your soul rest in peace.
Name: Heather
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E-Mail: spunky1685@yahoo.com
Date: Mon Nov 11 16:43:05 MST 2002
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Bethann was in my Algebra class and my history class. I was new in E.F my sophmore year and really didn't know anyone, but Bethann was the first to come up to me and say "hi" and helped me when I needed it. We talked about things durring Mr.Raymer's social studies class, and I helped her in Ms. Anderson's Algebra 3 class last year. At the beging of my senior year, I didn't really talk to her anymore because I rarely saw her. On that Friday, I was in the hall and saw her and Seth Simon and took a picture of them together and I spoke to her for the 1st time in months. I asked her what she was doing that night and she told me about the football game and other stuff she wanted to do. The last thing I said to her was "be careful, and don't do anything stupid". I guess I'll never forget those words. I feel as if I could have done more, but I couldn't. I pray for the families and friends of Bethann and Candace and I know that one day we will all be together again. I hope that everyone will now understand that life is short, to stay close to those who love you, always trust in God, and always be kind to people because you never know when they'll be gone for good. I love everyone and to everyone out there, live life to the extent, but be careful. **Heather**
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Date: Thu Nov 14 12:08:23 MST 2002
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I didn't know Beth Ann at all by by looking at this website, I feel Like I do. I can tell she was very loved and loved so many, that she was a sweetheart that made so many people happy. She was VERY BEAUTIFUL and seems like she had a sort of glow on her face all the time. My heart goes out to the family and friends of her, I know people say that with time everything will be okay, but this is something that seems to be getting harder day by day. Everyone please stay strong and be there for each other. Also, remember they are still here with us everyday!
Name: A friend
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Date: Thu Nov 14 12:16:35 MST 2002
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Bethann, You are so very special in everyone's hearts. I can't even begin to express how much everyone misses you, and how much everyone's lives are changed without you here on earth. Life will never be the same for any of us. We miss your beautiful face and your happy smile. However we also know you are watching over us, as Our Angel from Heaven. I know your love will help to give your family and friends the strength we need. We miss you Bethann!
Name: Carrie Skinjorich
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Date: Thu Nov 14 14:36:26 MST 2002
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Bethann, i cant believe that this has happend to u,you were so young and beautiful and happy. when we were young we had some good times.. well as the angel that you are and always have been,watch over your mom,dad,brother,and your friends...
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Date: Thu Nov 14 17:40:18 MST 2002
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I didnt know Bethann, but now I feel like I did. After reading what everyone had to say about her, I realize what an amazing person she had to have been. She has touched the lives of so many and I hope to someday make a difference as she has. We love and miss you Bethann, our Angel!
Name: Anonymous
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Date: Thu Nov 14 21:53:04 MST 2002
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I didn't know Bethann, But after reading all these entries, I realize how special she must have been to everyone. I'm so sorry that her family and friends had to go through such a tragic loss but I can promise each and everyone of you that she's in a better place now. She's probably watching down right now, smiling because she finally knows how many lives shes touched and changed. & It's great to see that even people like me that didnt even know her..truely know how special she must have been. Once again..Im sorry you all had to go through such a tragedy but she'll always be with you, not in body but by spirit. You're all in my heart and in my prayers..God Bless.
Name: Priscilla
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E-Mail: limp_bizkit01@angelfire.com
Date: Fri Nov 15 08:35:58 MST 2002
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Bethann, i wanted to thank you for all the good memories you gave me, like when we worked on that car project in 8th grade physical science. you were the 1st person at school to ask me if i was alright after my accident, i wish i could've asked you the same... see you again some day soon.
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Date: Fri Nov 15 15:29:32 MST 2002
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Iam sorry I didnt know Bethann...But i know how it feels a few years ago my brothers Friend was killed...I hope everything Goes well for the family and friends and may she never be forgotten!
Name: Derek
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Date: Sat Nov 16 10:00:07 MST 2002
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Name: Derek
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E-Mail: dgeisdnice@yahoo.com
Date: Sat Nov 16 10:12:10 MST 2002
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Even to this day it seems like all of this is one big nightmare....i know bethann is now in a better place, a place that is without pain or suffering,but, what about this place. Bethann always made the best of any situation.....there wasnt a single time that i had ever seen Bethann without a smile on her face and a bag of laughs in her back pocket....She was the type of girl who brightened up a room when she walked in....Her laugh made u smile and her smile made u warm....thats,in a nutshell, how i can best describe her. Jon, youve been one of my friends since middle school....all i can say to you is stay strong....i know if Bethann were here right now she would want you to be the best you can absolutely be at all times. You and Bethann had a relationship that most people wont have for their entire lives. Hold on to the memories for eternity, like i know you will.
Name: Danielle
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Date: Sun Nov 17 18:51:47 MST 2002
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`*.Till we meet again.~ even though we must be apart know that when you hear the wisper of the wind it will be me saying hello when you smell the fresh fragrance flowers of spring you will feel my presence and when you see a butterfly you will know i have just passed by and this thoughtful little angel will remind you how very much i care for you
Name: Casey Jarmon
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E-Mail: princess1792003@yahoo.com
Date: Sun Nov 17 21:04:11 MST 2002
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Bethann, I miss you so much! We barely talked during high school but I knew you since we were in kindegarden and I loved hanging out with you. I will never forget when you had that halloween party when we were little and your brother scared us with a chainsaw. We had so much fun! Remember when I had a crush on John when I was in 3rd grade? I love you so much and I wish you didn't have to leave us. I always think of you and I will always love you! I miss you so badly. I wish God can bring you back. When I listen to songs, I cry because it makes me think of you! Why did you have to leave us? It's not fair! Bethann was so beautiful and fun to be around. She could always make you smile just by looking at her big bright smile! She wasn't that kind of person that would talk about anybody. It didn't matter if they weren't popular or not she would still talk to them. She was the kind of person that would make you laugh so hard that you would pee your pants. I loved those days! She was nice to everyone and anyone! She is so beautiful and I don't think she had to leave us. She didn't even drink one beer and look where it took her? IT'S NOT FAIR!! Bethann, always remember that I love you and I'm always thinking about you! And I hope to God, that everybody will learn not to drink and drive and not to speed and to wear their seatbelts! PLEASE!! She is our Angel and now we have to take care of her! She would be saying the same thing right now! Please where your seatbelts! I LOVE YOU BETHANN!!!!! WE MISS YOU TOOOO!!!!!!
Name: MaryAnn
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Date: Mon Nov 18 07:56:41 MST 2002
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Beth Ann was one of the sweetest girls i ever met, all summer long she would come and get ice cream at my work and she just always seemed so happy. Now she gets to be in a perfect place where she will fit in great because she was an angel to everyone who knew her and even those who didnt know her well. She is truely missed by everyone! My sympathy goes out to her family +friends! <3
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Date: Mon Nov 18 10:36:48 MST 2002
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BETHANN, ITS BEEN ALMOST 8 WEEKS SINCE YOU LEFT AND YET I STILL DON'T BELIEVE THAT YOUR NOT WITH US I MISS YOU SO MUCH BUT I KNOW THAT GOD TOOK A BEAUTIFUL AND WONDERFUL PERSON AND MADE YOU HIS SEPCIAL ANGEL TO PROTECT AND WATCH OVER US I MISS YOU, BUT I DON'T WANT TO CRY NAYMORE, I WANT TO CELEBRATE YOU AND HOW HAPPY YOU ALWAYS WERE AND HOW WE WOULD LAUGH ABOUT THE THINGS THAT YOU ALWAYS SAID AND DID THAT WERE SO OUTRAGEOUS SOMETIMES THAT YOUR MOM WOULD CALL ME AND SAY WELL DO YOU WANT TO HEAR ANOTHER BETHANN STORY AND NOW THAT I'M TRING TO UNDERSTAND WHY THIS HAD TO HAPPEN WHEN I THINKOF YOU OR HERE A SONG I START TO SMILE AND REMEMBER HOW YOU SMILED AND LAUGHED AND THINGS AREN'T SO SAD I CAN REMEMBER WHEN I WOULDN'T HAVE SEEN OT TALKED WITH YOU FOR FEW DAYS AND YOU WOULD SAY CEIL WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN AND WE WOULD JUST TALK AND TALK AND I'M GRATEFUL FOR ALL THE TIMES I GOT TO DO THAT WITH YOU YOUR PICTURES ARE ON MY DESK AND EVERYTIME I HEAR MONY-MONY I PICK UP YOUR PICTURE AND SING TO YOU AND TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU THANK YOU FOR ALL THE SPECIAL TIME AND ALL THE GEAT MEMORIES AND I KNOW I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN UNTIL THEN I'LL MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU EVERYDAY LOVE CEIL
Name: michele
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Date: Mon Nov 18 19:53:47 MST 2002
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Bethann, u were the best freind anyone could ask for. We had so many special memories on the way to school. Any time i was down u cheered me up. I will never forget you. All the times we went shopping, got our nails done and went tanning. We had so much fun. I will never forget you, you are always in my heart and prays. I LOVE YOU BETHANN, LOVE MICHELE
Name: Beth
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Date: Tue Nov 19 14:44:54 MST 2002
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Bethann, I was just thinking about how we always told each other "I don't know what I would do without you" and now unfortunately I do know what it's like but I wish more than ever that I didn't. These past 2 months have been the worst ever. I miss you so much.. it just seems like things will never get better. I miss everything about you, all the little things especially.. our talks, sleep overs, calling each other before school, messin with Marc real bad online, playing dress-up, sharing clothes, school in astro and english, your dramatic stories, shopping, going out to eat, your voice and laugh, your hugs, your funny obsessions, Myrtle Beach next summer, but I won't go without you.. There’s way too many memories to count. Chloe told me to think of it not as a lifetime without you but as an eternity together again and its comforting to know that we'll be together again forever one day but I can't stand to think that it could be another 60 years before then without my best friend. I do know though that when I do see you again, it will be one of the best days of my life, I can't wait. Everything that happens reminds me of you, every song I hear, and every place I go somehow relates back to you and makes us miss you more than ever. Things definitely are not the same without you, nothing is as fun as it used to be cuz when you were there you always made things a billion times better. All I can do is thank God for all the memories I have to hold onto cuz every single one of them replays through my mind 24-7. You're my best friend Bethann, and also our Angel. NO ONE will ever compare to you. I would do anything in the world to get you back.. I Love You and I miss you soooooooo much! ;o(
Name: Chelsea
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Date: Tue Nov 19 16:01:35 MST 2002
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Dear Bia, I don't know what to say. I miss you so much and things just are not the same without you here. I still don't think the truth has really set in. I still believe that your not in school because your sick or you threw your back out again from blow drying your hair (lol). I will never forget you, all the things we did, and memories we made. Sleepovers at your house were always the best: lots of good stuff to eat, good gossip and stories, and we were always doing something crazy and fun. You were always there for me Bethann; watching out for me and even my little sister, too. Especially when I came up from 8th grade into the high school. I really didn't know too many people and you invited me to hang out with you and ever since then we were best friends. Your smile, laugh, personality, and kindness will never be forgotten or replaceable. You are with me all the time Bethann, in my heart. I know your safe and happy and watching over me because I got on of your favorites for my birthday. Thanks for the X-Bra!! Love you for Always ~ Cia
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Date: Thu Nov 21 17:10:05 MST 2002
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Bethann You are loved and missed so very much. No one will forget your smile. You were the most beautiful woman and now you are the most beautiful angel. Bethann we will always love you. You will be in our hearts forever.
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Date: Thu Nov 21 17:27:47 MST 2002
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Bethann, I regret not getting the chance to know you better. You have changed everbodys life that you have ever met. Your an angel now...watch over your family and friends and just know that everyone will always be thinking of you and never forget you!!
Name: Kristin
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Date: Thu Nov 21 18:49:41 MST 2002
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*Bethann, its been 2 months today, and I never knew the affect a person could have on someone else. There isn't a moment that passes me by that I don't think about you. You have taught me so many lessons, but the greatest one, is to enjoy life and express happiness. From the many years I've known you, thats what you knew how to do best! Your laugh, your smile is greatly missed by everyone. I will cherish all the memories forever, and in my heart there will always be a place for you. As I pray to you everynight, i know that one sweet day we will all be together again. *to the Zagursky's-my thoughts and prayers are always with you*
Name: Caitlyn
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Date: Fri Nov 22 18:07:20 MST 2002
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Dear Bethann, I don't know where to start except that I miss you very much and I will never forget you. Your smile was the ONE I looked forward to everyday at school. You were such and good friend to my sister as well as myself. Your personality was truly amazing and something I will never forget about you. I loved you like a sister because that is what you were like to me. Always making sure I was ok and putting a smile on my face when I was down. I know you are not gone but still with me and watching over me. I can't wait till I see you again so I can give you a hug just like when we last saw each other. One thing is for sure though, and that is I will always be your Little Caitlyn. Luv ya lots!!! -------<3Caitlyn
Name: Gina
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Date: Sat Nov 23 00:19:37 MST 2002
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Bethann Thursday was two months since you parted from this world. I still can't nor do I want to believe you're gone. I keep waking up every day hoping to see you bounce into school giggling and smiling just as bright as you ever did before. I wish so badly you would come back to us and just be like "Sorry guys that I was away for a while but I'm back now!" There are so many things I wish that I could change. I'm just so sorry Bethann for ever arguing with you. You were such a good person, and now your the best angel! I think about you so often Bethann. I will never forget you. You had made such an impact on me, one that I can't ever forget. God Bless you babe! I can't wait to see you again one day! I know your safe now, there has been many signs of that. I cant forget the 1 nite i was driving home and I glanced out the window up at the moon, and the clouds around it were shaped like an angel. I knew it was you... Please Bethann just keep sending us signs every once in a while, even if its just to say hey! I'll never forget you Bethann. You will forever be our angel. Love you always hunni!
Name: Jill
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Date: Sat Nov 23 09:44:03 MST 2002
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Bethann- It still hurts so much to think about all that has happened. The memories will always remain. It seems like just yesterday we had fun working out, on rides home, listening to Madonna and making Luke mad. The good times are so numerous and so memorable. You were one of my first friends when we started kindergarten, and I miss you so much. My thoughts are with your family every day. You are an unforgettable and irreplacable friend. Love, Jill
Name: Chloe
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Date: Sun Nov 24 13:36:04 MST 2002
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Bethann~ It has been over two months without you here and I have to say life has changed greatly. Not one second of each day passes without you in it. I have been trying to convince myself that this time on earth is short compared to the eternity we will have together someday. I keep thinking about how much fun we all used to have and how much that has changed. I feel like there is a hole that cannot be filled. It has been so tough for all of us but I know you are trying to give us all your strength. The ten of us are going to do it though, Bethann, because we know how much you want us to go on and enjoy life. I vow to you that I will try my best to be happy once more and to cherish every passing day. Whenever I am down and need a word of encouragement, I think of all the things you always told me. I remember one night we were all staying over at your house and you and me went up to your room because you wanted to show me your new ab machine. You told me you would always be there for me, and I know that will never change. Although I know you are not here physically, you have taken the form of everything around us . Every song I hear brings back memories of you and every sunny day and rainbow I see is a reminder that you are doing just fine. I love you Bethann and I miss you everyday, but I know you are our guardian angel.
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Date: Tue Nov 26 13:48:26 MST 2002
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I did not know Bethann, nor do I know her family but I want you to know that your website is obviously helping so many to cope with the loss of their friend, sister, cousin, girlfriend, daughter, neice, etc. My brother's girlfriend lost her sister (she was also a friend of mine) 4 years ago. It was probably one of the hardest things I have ever had to deal with. She had had a child exactly a year before and to me that was a blessing from God. So all of the signs and all of the little things Bethann did are what you must cherish to get you through the rough times. I'm sure just by viewing the website that Bethann is smiling down on you all and watching over you. Never forget the special memories and never take for granted all of the memories to come with other friends and family. God bless you.
Name: Linda
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Date: Tue Nov 26 14:50:31 MST 2002
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Hi, I didn't know Bethann. But I came across this page somehow. Well, Bethann was a very pretty girl. I'm sure she's deeply missed. I just thought that I'd sign this to show my deepest regards. The pages were all done so precious and with care. I have to go now, thanks again...Bless you all! *Linda* -SouthPawBaby00
Name: Linda
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E-Mail: Gunnin3s@hotmail.com
Date: Tue Nov 26 14:53:37 MST 2002
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Hi, I didn't know Bethann. But I came across this page somehow. Well, Bethann was a very pretty girl. I'm sure she's deeply missed. I just thought that I'd sign this to show my deepest regards. The pages were all done so precious and with care. I have to go now, thanks again...Bless you all! *Linda* -SouthPawBaby00
Name: Jacki Peebly
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Date: Wed Nov 27 13:24:26 MST 2002
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My GIRL, Each passing day gets harder without you here. I long to hear your sweet voice and bubbly laugh, to see your gorgeous smile, and to hear your exciting stories. I long to come home from school on the weekends and run up to your room for a big hug...I miss everything about you! No matter where I am or what I'm doing, you are on my mind. It hurts so bad to smile through these tears~ my heart is torn into a million pieces. You've touched my life so deeply~ you mean so much to me Bethann! I am very lucky to have such special memories with you, and I will always hold them dear to my heart! I am thinking back to Thanksgiving last year and how much fun we all had together. I know this holiday is a special tradition for your family and that it will be very hard without you here physically. However, I know you will be with your family in heart and soul on this day just as you are each and every day. When I sit down to pray on Thanksgiving, I will thank God for the time I got to spend with you here on earth and for the eternal life I will eventually have with you. Until that time comes, I will talk to you every day and know that you are listening just as you always have! I know that you are carrying your loved ones through each passing moment~ you have always been so strong. You are everyone's precious guardian angel, and you will always be here in my heart...I will never let you go! I love you with all of my heart Bethann!!! Love Always, JACQ P.S. I will make sure to eat gravy just for you!
Name: Amber Miller
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Date: Wed Nov 27 15:09:54 MST 2002
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I attended Elizabeth Forward until 6th grade. My 6th grade year I got to know Bethann. She had the most unique voice I've ever heard. My boyfriend once met her at a graduation party and when I proceeded to tell him about her he told me he had met her. The first thing he said was "I remember her voice." He then told me she had lost her shoe and was still smiling about it. Bethann did smile a lot. It seemed like she never had anything to frown upon. Though we have not seen each other since 6th grade I could never forget that girl. Her passion for life was so strong. I hope all of her friends and family are doing well thru this holiday season. I still pray for all of you in church to build the strength to keep on going. God knew Bethann was an angel from the beginning. Obviously someone else needed her presense..that someone just wasn't here on earth. Now she can watch over everyone and guide you along your way.
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Date: Wed Nov 27 18:45:11 MST 2002
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Bethann, Im sorry that I didn't get to know you better than I did but I will always be thankful that I got the chance to meet you. No matter what you were doing as soon as you saw me you always gave me a big smile and a hello. Bethann you were so beautiful with such a big heart and now you're a beautiful angel up in heaven. Everybody misses you and can't wait until the day to see you again...until then keep smilin and lookin in on us and especially watching over you family and your close friends they love you more than you could ever imagine Bethann and that won't ever change. Rest In Peace sweetie!! You will ALWAYS be with us and in our hearts
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Date: Thu Nov 28 14:12:46 MST 2002
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Date: Thu Nov 28 14:38:38 MST 2002
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I have sat and stared at all of the pictures and reflections so many times now, that everyone has shared about how you touched each of their lives; always wanting to share my own thoughts, but never really knowing how to put them in words. I'm in awe of what a beautiful young woman you became. And I feel so blessed and thankful that Aunt Joyce brought you by our house to visit this summer so we could see you one last time, even though we didn't know it at the time. I have been searching for a short story I came across once to post here for you, as a hopeful word of peace and comfort to your mom, dad, and John, but I still can't find it anywhere. If I do find it, I'll post it here. It is Thanksgiving day and I was just reminiscing about the first time we were able to share thanksgiving last year with you and your family and what a wonderful experience that was for us. We can't begin to know how difficult it is for everyone in the family to share the holidays together this year without you physically here. But Art and I are thinking of you and your family, and we're praying that your spirit can help everyone find some comfort by bringing everyone together safely to share the holiday in honor of you. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers always. Happy Thanksgiving Bethann!! We miss you! Love Always, Amity, Art, and Spencer
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Date: Thu Nov 28 22:14:09 MST 2002
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Since its Thanksgiving..it made me think of more than ever how thankful I am for all the times I got to spend with you Bethann, they were the best times of my life and I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. I know that I am so lucky to be friends with such a beautiful girl, inside and out, with the most generous heart, always helping people in anyway that you could. I am so thankful that I had, and will forever have you as my best friend..cuz there is no one out there that I would have rather had and no one could be a better friend than you always have been to me. You were with me thru everything, it was always you and me.. when there was no one else around I knew you would always be here making things better than ever. No matter what, you could always make everything that was wrong somehow seem right again, making me realize what a true friend is all about and not to worry about the other people who don't matter. Every time something goes wrong now all I can do is think about how bad I wish you were still right beside me, doing watever you did to make everything okay again :o( I love you so much Bethann, no one will ever replace you, I miss you so much I can't take it... you're Our Beautiful Angel "The Best Friendships Are Made From Best Friends Like You."
Name: Linds
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Date: Fri Nov 29 14:35:43 MST 2002
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Hey Bethann... before I go to visit ya I wanted to remind u of some fun things we shared and I want u to know how much I appreciate and remember each one of them. My first yoo-hoo.. when I told you I never had one u about spazzed and made me chug one. When we went to get our nails done and we ended up picking the same exact design and colors (the ones that change in the sun!) Sure we got made fun of, but who cared :) ! In aerobics when we got in trouble every single day for talking, Mrs. Hearn loved us! Your kick boxing moves were the best, me and u and Billy Blanks lol. Your dance recital, a classic. I loved every minute of it. When u came to my house and my pap told u that u were the prettiest girl he'd ever seen and he called u little Bethann that was a foot taller than me. lol. The night we sat in your living room and talked the night away thinking we would do something later on that night but by the time we looked at the clock it was already 1 am and we sat there for 5 hours doin nothin but talkin lol. The night jamie embarrassed u the first time sean came over and he put those fake teeth in his mouth that looked like chicklets and a goofy hat and u were sooo embarrassed lolol. The day you were there for me in school when we found out some disturbing news how quick u were to hold me and tell me it was alright. Feels so good to talk about these times and there were so many more. I miss you like crazy. You must cross my mind every hour of each day. I would give anything in this world to bring you back to everybody. There is no person in this world like you. I cant wish for that though because you are where you belong and as happy as you always have been and knowing you probably making other people happy as you always made us. You are missed more than you could possibly ever imagine and by so many. You are admired by so many and will never be forgotten, by anyone. You had such an impact on everyone. I just wanted to say hi and tell you how much I miss you and love you. God Bless you Angel
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Date: Fri Nov 29 23:43:44 MST 2002
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I did not know Bethann but I wish I did. She was a very beautiful person and was loved by many. I hope her family and friends know that she is in heaven now where all the angels are protecting her and not to worry. May her,Candance,and Ash all rest in peace. God Bless you all
Name: jolene
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Date: Sun Dec 1 13:18:30 MST 2002
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now, i knew bethann through pictures. i am only 12 and my sister had pictures with bethann in the backround. when i saw them i said hey moo (moo is what i call my sis) who is that she is really pretty. she said i pretty sure that is bethann. she was not the best best of friends with bethann but for some reason i thought she was great. my sis knew Luke Buttler really good and i knew his lilbro when he died i cried alot it was like losing my own bro wnen bethann died even though i id not know her formerlly i missed her and thought what if my sis died i cried alot love love between sisters is love that can never break through hardtimes they will always be there i can love my sister even if you do not have a reall sister you can always have a friend to catch you if you fall as a reall sister does**********
Name: Casey Jarmon
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E-Mail: princess1792003@yahoo.com
Date: Thu Dec 5 08:20:29 MST 2002
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"BETHANN'S FIRST CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN" She sees the countless Christmas trees around the world below, with tiny lights, like Heaven's stars, reflecting on the snow. The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away the tear, For she is spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year. She hear's the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear, but the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up there. She has no words to tell us, the joy their voices bring, for it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing. She knows how much we miss her, she sees the pain inside our hearts, But she is not so far away, we really aren't apart. So be happy for her, dear ones, you know she holds you dear. And to be glad she is spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year. She sent us all a special gift, from her heavenly home above. She sent you each a memory of her undying love. After all, love is a gift more precious than pure gold. It was always most important in the stories Jesus told. Please love and keep each other, as her Father said to do. For she can't count the blessing or love he has for each of you. So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear. Remember, she is spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year! Bethann, I miss you so bad. I think about you everyday and I wish you would come home and be with us for graduation so we can have so much fun on our last year of High School. I hate looking at Beth because she looks so sad it just looking at her face, she is thinking about you! We need you here with us. May God Bless you,Our Angel~!
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Date: Fri Dec 6 09:01:01 MST 2002
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looking back, i saw bethann everyday when i was in high school, but i never spoke to bethann; however, it really sticks out in my mind how one of my friends who adored her would always tell me how i should talk to her because the girl thought we would get along well. i always wondered why she would say that. i figured it was either because she just loved bethann so much and thought everyone should talk to her, or because i reminded her of bethann. after being brought to tears, yet again, by this website, i would truly be honored if it was the latter reason. also, last night, while i laid down in bed, praying for all those who mourn, beautiful rhyming couplets began to flow through my head. i quickly got out my bedsite notebook and jotted them down. i would like to share them on here, i hope they can help or even inspire some of you: *just in an instant* the blink of an eye* our angel was gone* no chance for goodbye* but she still lives on* oh yes, it is true* not like she did* but inside all of you* so pass on her love* to all that you see* make everyone smile* that's how she wanted it to be* for when she left hear* she left big shoes to fill* let's work together* carry out her will* there's also a tune that goes with it, if someone could give me an email address to send it to, i could try to get some people together and generate a song... i feel it's the least i can do.
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Date: Sat Dec 7 00:52:05 MST 2002
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I started going to Elizabeth Forward in 8th grade. It was a hard time for me, but I remember one person in particular that made it easier, that of course was you Bethann. You are the most down to earth and beautiful person i have ever met. You befriended me when nobody else would and i will never forget that! We never became really close friends, but we always talked in school. I can tell just from reading the memories of your closest friends that you have filled so many people's lives with cheer. I know you're watching all of us from heaven.
Name: Lt. Tom Carter - Allegheny County Sheriff's Office
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Date: Sat Dec 7 16:27:29 MST 2002
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There will be a mass of repose for Bethann on Monday, December 9th at 7:00pm. This mass will be held at St. Angela Merici Catholic Church located at 1640 Fawcett Avenue White Oak, PA 15131. This mass in is conjunction with the Feast of the Immaculate Conception. May Bethann be in or hearts and souls at this special time of the year. Lt. Tom Carter
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Date: Tue Dec 10 13:57:33 MST 2002
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i only met bethann once but ill remember her forever, espeically her voice. i was really upset when bethann passed away, even tho i only met her once. i guess it was just so sad for sumone so young to be taken away....and by reading all the entries and lookin at all the pictures i can tell what a great person she was and how she was loved by everyone and she loved everyone. R.I.P. Bethann
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Date: Tue Dec 10 19:03:14 MST 2002
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Bethann, i just wanted to let you know that i miss you so much and not a day goes by that i dont think of you! Youll be in my heart forever and ill always keep the memories with me!Love an miss you tons Bethann!
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Date: Wed Dec 11 15:23:54 MST 2002
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Bethann, For what I have read on your website you are deeply missed! Unfortunatly, I never had the chance to meet you, but from what I have read and the pictures I have seen, it seems like u were a very loving person. You were a very beautiful girl! Never forget that you are truely loved and missed. Someday I hope to meet you! You all have my deepest thoughts and sympathy!
Name: Stephen Andrison
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Date: Thu Dec 12 19:51:35 MST 2002
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R.I.P Bethann you are missed by alot of pepole.I am so sad to hear that you are gone. But you are gone to a better place. see you latter in a different life time. My sympathy go's out to your family
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Date: Thu Dec 12 21:35:39 MST 2002
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I never got the chance (regretably) to get to know Bethann...but I want her to know that she is in my heart and my prayers everyday. As is her family, the Geiser and the Ash family. For 3 people who were just a little more than children to be ripped from this world so violently seems to senseless to me. All I can hope for is that one day we will all be provided with the answers. Until then you will all be in my prayers forever. Peace & Love
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Date: Thu Dec 12 22:28:18 MST 2002
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They are all gone too young and too soon Leaving this earth Too soon too bloom In heaven watching down We're left to cry If only we knew we could have tried to stop them from leaving and taken the keys No drinking, No driving Can't they come back God, PLEASE??? We are left here sad and alone Knowing everyday they are not here to phone Goodbye Bethann,Candace, and Ash I hope we all learned the lesson you had to teach Noone's life...not yours or mine is out of reach You are all in my heart Goodbye and God bless till we meet again I won't think of you any less. Peace & Love
Name: Jordan
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Date: Sat Dec 14 10:05:43 MST 2002
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Bethann, It is December aleady, I cannot believe that you have been gone for nearly 3 months. I did not realize that this would affect me so much. I stopped by to see your grave the other day, I had to leave. I cannot imagine you beneath that cold ground. Everyday I wake up with you on my mind, and you and your family are in my prayers every night before I go to bed. This is such a hard time of year to deal with the loss of loved ones. We should all rejoice though because you get to spend Christmas with Jesus, the reason for the season. Bethann, everyone misses you and loves you so much. You have made such an impact on my life. You are an angel now, a beautiful angel in heaven who is watching over everyone. Bethann, please do me one thing, be with your brother, and mom and dad, and give them the strength to get through the holidays. Give them the peace at heart to get through each day. It wont be long now until we all see you again. On that day I will give you the biggest hug ever. I love you Betha. "not a day goes by that I dont think of you, after all this time, I still miss you its true, somehow you remain lost so deep inside.."
Name: Clint
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Date: Sat Dec 14 15:13:02 MST 2002
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I just want you to know that everyone is thinking of you. We Miss You.
Name: Heather
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Date: Sun Dec 15 12:36:57 MST 2002
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Hi hunni... Its just me, Your Hezzy Girl. I miss you so much Bethann... everything is just not the same without you.I just wish this wasnt real... I wish you werent in school because you dyed your hair and you dont like the color or your not out with all of us because your on vacation.My birthday just wasnt the same without you here.Nothing is the same without you.I know that your still with all of us but I wish that you were here so I could talk to you and hug you. I miss you and love you more than anything Bethann!! *Love* Your Hezzy Girl always
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Date: Sun Dec 15 17:10:18 MST 2002
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I just wanted to share a quote from a song with everyone who may read this. The song is entitled "You're Still Here" by Faith Hill. The line that particularly stands out is : " And I woke up wondering what was real/ Is it what you see and touch, or what you feel?". Although we cannot physically see or touch Bethann, she is still here. If you continue to believe that she is all around us, then she is truly not gone.
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Date: Mon Dec 16 12:38:25 MST 2002
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what i remember from bethann is her smile. always happy no matter what.
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Date: Fri Dec 20 11:02:37 MST 2002
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i didnt know Bethann but i wish i had. She was a very pretty girl & from hearing stories from some of my friends that knew her she was a great person. My deepest sympathy for her family & may God be with you. *Merry Christmas!*
Name: Jarrod Matthews
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Date: Fri Dec 20 22:40:06 MST 2002
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Name: Jarrod Matthews
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Date: Fri Dec 20 23:56:13 MST 2002
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I saw the angel out side your window on my way home today, though it wasn't lit up I could still see it perfectly clear. I made it home in a minute or so and steped out of my car. Immediately my attention was drawn to the sky. I looked up at the bright full moon, it seemed to unleash it's light upon the whole sky. Then it all dawned on me, not only was it nearly the same as the night you departed for a place where true angels like your self soar above our heads and look down upon us, a place that I couldn't heed to Earth, but it was a perfect allegory. By that I mean it was like having you there. It brightened up every thing. It made the night seem so much more comforting and happy. I leaned against my car and gazed at the sky watching the luminated clouds pass over, and the stars come out. I remember your mother saying to me, "Never forget her." and how could I now? I can connect the radiance of a full moon to you, it would be like having you near to me, and who could ignore you, honestly, I don't think you would let that happen, and it's obvious to me you didn't. Thanks Bethann, becuase by chance, in some way only you could pull off. You help me in coping with your loss, by smilling at me. I learned something, the number one fear in America is death. I am afraid of dying, some people can't admit that they are, others can, but that's another issue. Lets say a stray bullet comes through my window and hits me in the temple instantly killing me. How can I sit in fear of something so stupid and accedental? Perhaps the fear is not of dying, because a bullet to the head will instantaneously incapacitate anything, leaving no pain. Maybe its the thought of being alone afterward, or the thoughts of after life in general. With you gone from here so fast, there must be a Heaven, you are far to great to simpily disipate. I used to be afraid that an accident would occur, I'd die, and be all alone in Heaven. This isn't true anymore. I can say I have a friend in Heaven, and her name is Bethann. So long as I'm here, between then and the time I leave Earth, Heaven is where I am headed. I know I'll see you there, and I won't be alone. You help us in so many ways, and we could never repay you. Perhaps you save lives, give someone, such as my self, hope, or bring our comunity closer together. Godbless your family, friends, or anyone who knows you. They are lucky to have met you here on Earth, becuase in summary, you were like a gift from God. When the world is in such peril perhaps you are serving an even greater purpose at this time, some day we will all find out, and in some way, you make it worth waiting for.
Name: jayner80
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Date: Sun Dec 22 00:04:11 MST 2002
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Dear John, I did not know your sister, but i am really sorry for your loss. I was scrolling through my friends web page and saw your name. When I read all of your information I was really touched. I have an older brother and sister and I can't imagine losing them. I am so sorry for your loss.
Name: Gina
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Date: Sun Dec 22 20:44:53 MST 2002
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Bethann, i just can't believe you've been gone for three months already. It still seems like yesterday your beautful face and cheerful smile lit up the hallways at school. Although you are not here with us physically but you are here spiritually. Not only have you touched so many lives while you were here on earth, you still continue to do so while in heaven. It bothers me that people still havent learned from your tragic and unexpected parting but to most it has. Please continue to watch over us and try to keep us from harm. But I already know you are doing that. I know deep down in my heart you and Candace were bothing watching over me at the christmas dance. I wont go into details, but it was you guys that kept watch over me and sent me Nikki Smith to make sure I would get home safely. I know on that tragic night in September you left to go home unaware that anything would happen to you, but you made sure I would not be in that same situation. So thank you for that, I will always remember it and be forever thankful. You are forever our angel. I love you so much Bethann. Thanks for being a guardian angel.
Name: Anne Wessell
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Date: Mon Dec 23 05:13:43 MST 2002
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Our families vacationed together at Wrightsville Beach when Bethann and John were small. What I remember the most about Bethann was a smile that went from ear to ear. She was a beautiful child and our hearts are heavy for her family and her friends. Our thoughts and prayers are with the family this Christmas season. May you find some peace. God Bless You All!
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Date: Mon Dec 23 09:21:11 MST 2002
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Bethann im not very good at telling how i feel and there are really no words to explain it but i cant help but to think god made a mistake. u and candace were the kindest and most beautiful people i have ever known and i dont understand why this had to happen. in 9th grade we stared to hang out but then as time went on we hung out less and less. i will never forget our memories together...Barbie workout video, Babysitters club them song and how u made me sing it to ur mom, putting pillows on the floor and having wrestling matchs, getting ready for the christmas dance at ur house and going to kriks after, just too many to name. i wish we could have hung out more cuz reading this made me relize how much i missed out on the last 2 years. when i heard u were coming out with us to eat after the football game i was so happy cuz i missed hanging out with u, if i only knew that it was going to be the last time i saw u i would have told u how much u meant to me and how u broght so much happiness to my life. im sorry i never got to tell u but i hope u know how much u meant to everyone. i want to say so much more but im sorry this is too hard, watch over ur freinds and family and tell candace i said hi! Love, Michelle
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Date: Mon Dec 23 19:29:26 MST 2002
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BethhAnn u r miss dearly jus like Candace I jus can't even tell u how much u r missed.The Holidays r gonna be real tuff with out u guyz not here.I just cant even imagine the pain ur parents r going threw well BethAnn I love u and Miss u Bunches can't wait till I see ur Beautiful face again R.I.P. BYE BYE BYE LUV YA BUNCHES
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Date: Mon Dec 23 19:37:23 MST 2002
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Hi BethAnn hows it going up in heaven so far.Can u do me a favor tell mah Can Can I said hi and I love her thanks so much BethAnn.I just cant even imagine how the holidayz r gonna be with out u guys here.A new yr with out mah Can Can and mah BethAnn I don't kno if I can take it guyz.Well I hope u guyz have a great first Christmas up in heaven Im sure it will be great with God and ur new friends but please watch over all of us and keep us safe. And have fun with Candace,Luke and all ur new friends but don't 4 get bout us we send u all of our love and we hope u send us all of urs.R.I.P. Luv ya Bunches see ya some day s00n bye bye Miss u soooooooo much<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
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Date: Tue Dec 24 08:41:42 MST 2002
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Dear Bethann, our beautiful angel. It is Christmas eve morning and we are missing you like crazy. We still cannot believe you are not here with us. We are leaving to go to Aunt Joyces to try to make it through the holiday. Bethann please give us the strength we need. We love you and miss you more and more every day. We would give anything to have you back here with us today and always. Everyone in the family misses and loves you, this is so hard. I hope you have a merry Christmas in Heaven. Love always, Mom Dad and John Memory Eternal
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Date: Tue Dec 24 08:44:26 MST 2002
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Christy Nelson gave me this Poem that i wanted to share. "Forever" Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. And make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. Some people stay in our lives awhile, leave foot prints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same.
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Date: Tue Dec 24 09:16:53 MST 2002
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DEAR BETHANN, PLEASE GIVE YOUR FAMILY THE STRENGTH THEY NEED TO GET THROUGH THIS HOLIDAY SEASON. YOUR ARE SO LOVED AND VERY MUCH MISSED BY YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I WISHED I HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO MEET YOU, YOU WERE A VERY BEAUTIFUL YOUNG WOMAN. MEERY CHRISTMAS HONEY AND REST IN PEACE
Name: Kate Hayden
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Date: Tue Dec 24 15:58:23 MST 2002
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Bethann~ we're missin you more than ever n wish u could be down here spendin Christmas with us lol but i know yer happier up there anywayz...Love ya lots hun
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Date: Tue Dec 24 16:38:38 MST 2002
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*Hey Bethann, I didnt know you but I'd like to wish you a Merry Christmas, and please give your parents,family and friends enough strength to make it threw the holidays...I would also like to say everyone makes mistakes thats what life is about were all very deeply sorry that it hadda end up like this, and that "jody" person has no right signin a guest book of a girl he did not know, thats very ignorant to me...dont let it bother you Bethann because we all know that ur an angel RIP hunny, we will all see you up there someday God Bless*
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Date: Tue Dec 24 21:07:06 MST 2002
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Well Bethann, It's Christmas Eve and I'm sitting here thinking about you more than ever. I wish that you were here still but i know that you are in heaven safe and sound. I can't wait till i get to see you again and i cant wait to tell you all about Francis S. Furst. lol! Anyways Hunni Bun I Love You and miss you more than ever...and guess who is gonna be here tomorrow if it doesnt snow to hard....Francis S. Furst....Don't worry I'll let you know bout all the crazy stuff he says tomorrow. I Love You and MERRY CHRISTMAS ANGEL.......by the way, i know you never liked dogs but please take good care of Astro for me...thanks..<3 love you <3
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Date: Tue Dec 24 23:55:03 MST 2002
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Bethann, Its Christimas Eve, this used to be such a wonderdul night for us. We looked forward to Christmas all year. Christmas was always such a magical time for us no matter how old we were. Christmas never lost its glisten for us as the years progressed, we always felt like little kids on Christmas night. There is no words that will be able to express the severity of my pain. As the days progress my pain intensifies so much Bethann. I am so lonely inside. I remember on Christmas night we would sleep in the same bed, and watch "Juice" and we thought that was so funny that we would watch that movie on Christmas eve. I would always wake you up so early to get see all of our prsents. What a great time that was Bethann. I will cherish those memories with me for as long as I remain here. I never thought I would have to spend a Christmas with out you my entire life, let alone having to live my entire life not spending another Christmas with you. I will never again be able to enjoy another Holiday with out you Bethann, you made those days so special. U and I made every holiday special because of how we shared them. I am honestly still in disbelief that you are not here, This is just terrible. I never imagined anything like this could happen in my worst nightmare. My heart longs for you so bad to be here with me again Bethann, I think about you constantly. I want you to be reassured that you dont leave my mind during the day, and I dont sleep at night because I miss you so bad. I cant believe its Christmas and I am here with out you, I really cant. Christmas, or life in general will never be joyful again because you were the light of our lives Bethann. I know your memory will remain strong no matter what, because you had that impact on everyone, but I am going to do my best to contribute to that Bethann. I will do everything i can I promise. I still just cant believe its christmas.. and your not here.. the feeling, I feel so alone, so lost, wishing we were in your bed right now and watchin movies and laughin and waitin to get up in the morning to see all of our presents, Oh how i wish for that moment to be here again so bad Bethann. What I wouldnt give to be in that moment again, If only I could just turn back the hands of time and make things right so you could still be here. I would do anything, I wish that I could. We sure did have a special bond didnt we Bethann, no one can take that away from us. We had something most Bros and sis dont achieve in a life time. I wanted that forever, I wanted to spend our whole lives having Christmas together Bethann, I want that so bad. There is really nothing more I can say besides I love you with all of my heart Bethann, I miss you more then words can ever express, i will think about you forever, Thank you for all the good times Bethann, I promise I have every single thing in my heart, and I will never let go, I just hate that you are not here, I cant take it anymore. I love you so much Love always your big bro and best friend forever - Jawn
Name: Heather
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Date: Wed Dec 25 08:34:37 MST 2002
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Hey hunni! I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you (like always) and missing you sooo much. I hope your having a Merry Christmas in heaven! I love you so much angel and wish so badly that you were still here with all of us!!
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Date: Wed Dec 25 09:38:37 MST 2002
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~*MeRrY ChRiStMaS*~...Happy Holidays Bethann...we all miss you so much :'( I realllly wish you could be here now...I don't even know what else to say, I <3 n* miss you so much sweetie...I hope ur havin a great Christmas with Candace n* all our other angels...I'm glad you all can be together...I miss you bunches!!! luv ya!!!
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Date: Wed Dec 25 10:06:57 MST 2002
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Dear Bethann, Merry Christmas sweety. I miss you and think about you all the time, but i don't think that I have to tell you I'm sure you already know. My dear Bethann I just wanted to let you know that I'll think about you always and that I'll love you forever.
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Date: Wed Dec 25 10:16:38 MST 2002
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Dear Bethann Merry Christmas Angel!! I just wanted to let you know that I miss you so much. I never realized how much you could miss someone until they are gone from your life. Even though I only saw you every once in awhile, I will always remember those times. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I hope you have a wonderful Christmas in Heaven!! Love, Laura
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Date: Wed Dec 25 10:36:50 MST 2002
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Merry Christmas Bethann! I hope your first Christmas in Heaven is wonderful! Everyone misses you so bad. I was just getting to know you and I remember the first time I met you you said HELLO IM BETHANN and shook my hand and I was like is that her real voice? lol. We all miss your smile, laugh, and your wonderful voice. Merry Christmas! Please especially help your parents and brother during this holiday season!
Name: Megan
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Date: Wed Dec 25 13:05:38 MST 2002
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~*~MERRY CHRISTMAS ANGEL~*~, I just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you today. Even tho I just started getting to know you, I wont forget all the memories in class! I miss you! Love <3 Megan
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Date: Wed Dec 25 13:54:59 MST 2002
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*Bethann*... I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas! Theres not a day that goes by that I dont think about you. I love and miss you tons! Please just watch over your family and give them the strength during the holidays. LOVE YOU ANGEL!
Name: Jacki Peebly
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Date: Wed Dec 25 14:43:11 MST 2002
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MY GIRL, It's Christmas Day, yet it doesn't feel like Christmas at all. I am so sad and miss you more than anything in this world. It breaks my heart to see your family in such pain, longing to have you at home with them. I keep thinking of how perfect things would be if you were here with us. Then I imagine how happy you are spending Christmas in heaven with God and all the other angels, and I smile. I can feel you all around us. I know you are there with your family giving them the strength to get through each day. Keep giving them signs for peace and comfort~ let them feel the brush of angel wings that signifies your everlasting presence. I would do anything in the world to have you here, but I know you are spending Christmas in heavenly peace, sweet angel. Our special memories together constantly fill my heart with joy, and I thank you for them. Your mom asked me to light a candle for you when I went to church last night. I lit your candle and said a prayer, and when the service was over, your candle wouldn't blow out. It continued to glow brightly, just like your eternal memory. Merry Christmas, Bethann~ I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART!!! Love, JACQ
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Date: Wed Dec 25 21:36:53 MST 2002
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Merry Christmas Bethann!!! I just wanted to let you know that I think about you often, and I know you are the prettiest ANGEL in heaven looking down over your family and friends. Please give you Mom, Dad, and bro John the strength to get through the holiday season without you. Miss you hun...Merry Christmas!!!
Name: Matt Nelson
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Date: Wed Dec 25 21:42:03 MST 2002
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Bethann, i just wanted to say Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you. There isn't a day that goes by that i don't think about you or all the memeories we spent together growing up. I love and miss u so much. i do anything to bring u back. Please watch over ur family and help them through the holidays and also all ur friends that love and miss you so much. well i am goin to go. love u so much.
Name: Jill
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Date: Wed Dec 25 22:19:33 MST 2002
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Bethann- This was our 1st Christmas without you and your 1st Christmas with God. I bet spending Christmas with God is wonderful. I hope you're having a nice time up there with him. Major Payne was on TV today and I remembered how much you loved that movie. It brought back a lot of good memories. Merry Christmas Bethann. We love you and miss you! Love, Jill
Name: Gina
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Date: Thu Dec 26 17:32:53 MST 2002
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Hey Bethann- As I look outside on the snow I just can't stop thinkin' about you.....We used to do EvErYtHiN' together in the winter and Christmas.....Geez,it just felt a part of me was gone....Love you Bethann,and Merry Christmas....
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Date: Thu Dec 26 21:35:33 MST 2002
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Although I did not know Bethann, I always saw her when she came to visit Miss M. in my Biology class. She was very beautiful and as I hear a wonderful person. I even went to put flowers at the crash site for her and Candace. God Bless You!!!!!
Name: Tonya
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Date: Thu Dec 26 22:40:01 MST 2002
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Bethann, it is the day after Christmas and I have just been thinking about you and your family so much. Christmas is supposed to be the best time of the year, but my heart is just so sad. You are the last thing on my mind before I fall asleep and the first thing on my mind when I wake up. I pray every night and at church, for you to give your family the strength that they need to get through this, and know in my heart that you are trying. On Christmas morning, Rina and I turned on the tv and your favorite movie was on, "magor payne",and we both just look at each other because we knew what it meant. We think and talk about you everyday, but I am sure you already knew that. Merry Christmas Bethann, I am sure Christmas in heaven was beautiful because God only takes the best. Miss you angel, in my heart forever, Love Tonya.
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Date: Thu Dec 26 23:36:00 MST 2002
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Bethann I dont even know where to start. I miss you so incredibly much. I must think about you a hundred times a day. There are atleast 5 things a day I see, hear, or smell that remind me of you. If feels so good to think about u, but still to this day, it just does not seem real to me. I still play things that you have said to me over and over in my head. Everyday I think of something different and it always brings a smile to my face. If I had a dime for everytime you brought a smile to my face or got me to laugh I would so rich, and till counting the smiles u still bring me today. Look at those pictures of you, always smiling, touching or hugging someone. You always made everyone feel so good. You just had that touch I think. I sit here everyday and look at the pictures wondering what your doing. How was your Christmas in Heaven? Better than I could ever imagine I bet. I know you read all of these posts that everyone puts up. I want u to know how much I love you, and I will do it everytime I come here, I want to thank u for being so good me and bringing me so much happiness in my life. You were so encouraging to me with everything I ever did. There will never be another like u buddy, never in a billion years. I pray to u all the time and I know your listening. You have proven it to me already. I know your watching over everybody. I thought about u all night in church on Christmas Eve. I lit my candle and instant memories of you came popping up in my mind. Thank u. I miss u so much, words honestly cant even describe it. My heart aches to see you one more time and touch u once again. I just keep in the back of my mind that you are so pleasant right now and in complete comfort. I LOVE U BETHANN
Name: Aaliyah
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Date: Fri Dec 27 09:43:31 MST 2002
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MeRrY ChRiStMaS BethAnn I'm 2 days late sorry bout that.I was jus 2 busy thinking about u and Candace.U guys r missed dearly.There's not a day I don't think about u 2.I visted the crash site and Candace's grave and ur's it was jus 2 sad I cried and cried all Christmas day.I can jus feel the pain u guys families has 2 be going threw.Well Im gonna go now.Watch over all of us and keep us safe espeically ur family.Can u do me a favor Tell Can Can I said hi and I luv and miss her dearly Thanx Hun. R.I.P. Luv and miss ya see ya someday soon <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 :)
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Date: Tue Dec 31 10:01:02 MST 2002
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Bethann, Well it is New Years Eve and this Christmas break has been sooo hard and sooo different without you. Christmas Eve and Day didn't even feel like Christmas, not even a lil bit.. everyone could tell that there was something missing. I sit here and stare at all the picture frames and Angel things I got for Christmas and look at all the pictures in them and it reminds me of how you and me were together for everything. I just can't believe how much everything has changed. Even though it has been a little over 3 months, it still doesn't seem like this could all possibly be real and that we're going to wake up soon. I still find myself picking up my phone to call you and tell you about something that happened or to see where you are. But then I remember that all along you were right there with us and you already know everything that goes on. I keep on having dreams that you got to come back to be with us and everything is perfect once again like it used to be and still should be now. And when I wake up I always try to fall back asleep so I can keep dreaming about you and the stuff we do together because those dreams are much better than reality. I always sit here and think about what you're probably doing up in Heaven and how your Christmas with God and the other Angels was. But I'm sure it was perfect for you like everything is up there. Theres just so many things that happened lately that all I want is for you to be here to sleepover (and hold hands :o) lol) so we could just lay on my bed and talk for hours about everything like we used to do. I miss that so bad Bethann because you were the first person I turned to for everything and you were the BEST person to talk to about anything and everything, you always knew just the right thing to say to make everything better again. Its all the little things like that that I miss.. like how you always had to be touching us or the look on your face when you looked into a mirror, getting ready together..and wayyy too many more to name. I just want to thank you again for being the bestest friend that anyone could ever be. Our friendship that we shared means the world to me and so do you. No one could ever compare to you or ever replace you, it is completely impossible. Just please watch over everyone tonite and keep everyone safe. I love you so much Bethann and I miss you more than anything in this world. I can't wait till I get to see you again. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Angel.
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Date: Tue Dec 31 15:12:27 MST 2002
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Happy New Years Sweetheart, we love you
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Date: Tue Dec 31 19:45:38 MST 2002
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*TeaRs r Da WorDs My HeaRt UsEs 2 ExpLaiN ThaT eVEn My FakE SmiLes CanT cOVer Up My PaiN & EveN tHo Ur GonE bABy WeLL nEVer B ApaRt CuZ nO mAtA WaT dA DisTanCe,uLL 4EveR b iN mY hEArT* hey bethann, i juss thought id share that quote with you, love ya hun, happy new years I wish you could be spendin it wit ur family and friends...but please watch out for all of us...miss you angel!!!
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Date: Wed Jan 1 09:45:29 MST 2003
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dear Bethann, my beautiful angel. It is New Years Day, how do we start a new year without you. I don't even know where to begin. I miss you so badly my heart is broken. I love you more and more everyday. There is not a second that goes by that I am not thinking of you. You will always be in my heart forever, I will love you and miss you forever.......Please keep sending us signs to let us know that you are okay. Candace's mom told me that you and Candace are riding unicorns on gold paved streets in Heaven. I hope you two are together and are okay. We all love you so much it is very hard for everyone this has affected so many people. Just always know that you were and are still loved by many many people. You will always be with us. always remember "you are so beautiful to me" our song. May your memory be eternal. All my love mom or BARB as you would call me sometimes.
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Date: Thu Jan 2 01:16:24 MST 2003
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Bethann, New years with out you was terrible. There was no reason to celebrate a new year, All i could do was cry and think of the times to come when you are not here. It was so hard for me not to get a phone call from you at 12:01. All of my life we have spent new years together, and when we didnt, We always called each other first out of everyone. I had a horrible emptiness in my stomach as the clock struck twelve and I knew I would not recieve the call from you. This is just awful, and I can't believe you are not here with me. This just is not right, i cant stand this. I miss you so bad my little sis, no one will ever understand my pain or emptiness. We had a bond that filled my heart with such joy, and I will never in my life understand how something like that can be torn apart. I know you are with me Bethann. I love you so much and Miss you more then words can convey. I would do anything to bring you back.. Love always, your big bro and best friend forever - Jawn
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Date: Thu Jan 2 19:28:15 MST 2003
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Bethann...its been so hard for me to sign this..i've looked at this so many times..not knowing what to write. But deep down in my heart I know you know what im thinking. Im sorry we couldnt become better friends, and I will always cherish those quick chats we had during astronomy class. Watch over all your friends and family..Rest in peace angel
Name: Carter
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Date: Thu Jan 2 22:49:55 MST 2003
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Bethann you were one of my very good friends back in middle school....but as we entered high school we grew apart. I just want you to know that I think about you and Can every day. You were always so supportive of me and were a great person. I just wish sometimes that I woulda used our time together more wisely. This New years, i thought of New years in 2000 when you were at my house and it is soo hard for me to believe that you're gone. I can still hear us yelling and banging on pots and pans at midnight. Well i know you are in heaven and happy now. Just know that I will never ever forget you and Candace and that all of you, including Luke, have changed my life forever. Luv you guys forever!!
Name: Jess VanNatta
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Date: Fri Jan 3 00:18:18 MST 2003
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Bethann I know you are watching over your family and friends. They miss you terribly, it must be so hard for them. I read the poem your best friend Beth wrote about the years of friendship you 2 shared and it sounded so much like many times with me and my girls. I don't even know what I'd do if I lost them, it brings tears to my eyes thinking about it. And to know that your friends and family have lost you makes me cry as well, cause you were such a nice girl, so cheerful and happy. My thoughts are always with your family, friends and your brother John. I had seen the way you 2 acted together sometimes in high school and the way he talks about you now I know that you mean the world to him and always will. My thoughts and prayers are always with them. I hope that you had a magical Christmas and New Years in Heaven. Tell Luke, and Candice that we miss them and love them! Watch over us Bethann! We love you!
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Date: Fri Jan 3 01:31:51 MST 2003
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Dear Bethann, I just got done reading Beth's poem she wrote for you, It brought tears to my eyes...I wish this would have never ever happend...I miss you so much, same goes for all of our angels, I dont know what else to say hunni...I would do anything to bring you back...I love you so much and never forget that...*RIP AngeL*
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Date: Fri Jan 3 06:26:24 MST 2003
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Its been a little over 3 months now and each day seems to get harder and harder. Nightmares come from time to time, but I know you are safe with God. What has happened could have happened to anyone, but it shouldn't have happened to you, not now. You should be going to college and getting married, and we should be going shopping together. I keep on thinking that you are going to just pop out around the corner and say I'm here. Seeing your locker decorated in your memory everyday just shoots a pain through me like no other. Every dance or event with the girls is not the same without you. We feel so empty and lost. I cannot imagine what ur parents and Jon are going through.You brought a smile to my face every time I saw you.Your time here on earth was too short but your memory will live on forever in my heart. Some days I think of the good times we had but then I think of the times we could have had even more. I know you are the prettiest angel in heaven. May God bring comfort, peace, and understanding to your family. They will always love you no matter where you are. You are our guardian angel now.I love you Bethann!
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Date: Mon Jan 6 06:52:10 MST 2003
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"Think of all the people that you knew in the past.... That passed on they in heaven found peace atlast. Picture a place that they exsist, together. There has to be a place better than this, in heaven." ~ 2 Pac ~
Name: Kathy Twele
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Date: Tue Jan 7 00:20:38 MST 2003
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Saturday I saw Barb and Big John. It was great to see them out and about. Barb cried, I cried, and we held each other. I can’t feel what they feel. I can only feel my own hurt for Barb and Big John. I hope to never feel their pain. In time they will learn to live with the pain. It will never go away. The heart has been torn. John’s pain, I can feel. It’s always around the corner, hiding. Suddenly it jumps out, rips your heart again, and again. John will live with the pain. I don’t think it goes away. I am selfish and want to know why my children have had to feel so much unexplainable pain. Why so frequently must they see what pain does to others. Why the cat, their grandparents, an uncle they can’t remember, their friends. Can’t ever forget. I have looked at my children, my children’s friends, and the children we have come to know over the years as they attended the funeral services. Their youth, wisped away. Reality sucks. The pain will lessen but they will never forget. Remembering Bethann. Wow. I remember a dancing, laughing, chatterbox, 3 or 4 years old, attending one of John and Matt’s 1st grade gatherings. Bethann was a babydoll. In time she attended school herself. and would followed John and his friends around any chance she could. I would ask what are you doing Bethann? She would look at you with a deep earnest look on her face and say “ I only wanted to say hi to my brother”. And from behind her the other ten little girls would say “ we only wanted to say hi to John”. You had to laugh, only little sisters go out of their way to show off their big brothers. Be good, Always.
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Date: Tue Jan 7 20:12:16 MST 2003
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*Missing someone gets easier everyday, because even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other, it is one day closer to the next time you will.* *We will always luv n* miss you Bethann, you will be in our hearts forever*
Name: To my angel
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Date: Tue Jan 7 20:57:33 MST 2003
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Bethann, I believe in angels,the kind that heaven sends,I'm surrounded by angels,but i call them my friends!,Even tho ur gone, you was always an angel on earth and forever my friend love you and miss you so much Betha
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Date: Wed Jan 8 05:49:12 MST 2003
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Date: Wed Jan 8 06:07:37 MST 2003
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hey angel its just mom. i miss and love you so much i can't evev put it into words. i would do anything to have you back here with us. everyone misses you. it is too quiet here without you. dad and i are so happy john went back to school yesterday.. this is so hard for him you and he had a bond like no other between a brother and a sister i can actually feel his pain I know you will be with him guiding him and loving him for the rest of his life. Guide him so that he gets the education that he deserves to be successful and make you proud of him. there is not a second that goes by that we are thinking about you. we had so many good times, so many memories and i have about a million pictures of your beautiful smiling face. i miss just hanging out with you and talking we were so close but i still talk to you now. nothing will ever be the same but we are praying that you will give us the strength we need to go on until we are with you again. you will always be with me i feel like you are sitting on my shoulder above my heart watching out for all of us. i want you you to especially watch out for your brother-jawn--bethann my beautiful baby girl i love you so much may your memory be eternal! we will never ever forget you how could we you left a lasting impression on everyone you met with your vibrant personality,your inner beauty and your heartwarming smile. always remember "you are so beautiful to me" LOVE FOREVER MOM
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Date: Wed Jan 8 10:45:28 MST 2003
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well i am in school right now and i was going overthe site....love n miss you!!!!
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Date: Thu Jan 9 10:08:28 MST 2003
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I am so sad that I never got the chance to actually meet Bethann, I just can't over how beautiful shw is and how much of a sweetie she must have been. Even though I did not know her she is in my thoughts every single day.Her family & Friends as well. I really wish i got to know and meet Bethann. I read her best friends's poem. It really seems like everyone that knew Bethann had a very special bond with her. I come on this website and candace's everyday, i just can't get over this whole thing. It's kinda weird I didn't know either of these girls, I knew Brian, but I feel like I've known these girls my whole life.
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Date: Thu Jan 9 15:34:26 MST 2003
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Hi Bethann, It's still unbelieveable that your gone, and every single day I keep thinking I'll see you around the halls at school and in Lunch. I think about you everyday. I know your watching over everyone from up in Heaven. Everyone misses and loves you sooo much. I know we never got real close, but I miss you soo much. Love You Always
Name: Nikki
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Date: Thu Jan 9 16:55:29 MST 2003
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Bethann...B Ziggity....I really cannot believe that you are gone. I can say it to myself over and over again but my heart cannot accept it. I remember like it was yesterday getting yelled at by Mrs. Hearn in aerobics. You, Linds, Cassie, Chelsy, and me always getting seperated because we were too loud. Remember all the times in Mrs. Oakley's we shsred and our talks. You were too good to be on Earth. God missed you too much and had to take you back with Him. I know that you are watching every move that we all make and sending us signs...I get them everyday. You definately were an angelic creature and I feel so blessed that God hasallowed me to know you and say that you were one of my good friends. For that I will be FOREVER greatful. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your loved ones everyday. I love you with all my heart every passing moment. God Bless You Bethann!!
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Date: Thu Jan 9 22:30:07 MST 2003
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I never thought the song "away in a manger" would ever have such a sad undertone to me. During Christmas Eve service at my church, we sang that song. The third verse ends "Bless all the dear children in your tender care/ And fit us for heaven to live with You there." i started bawling my eyes out. I just felt so awful for all the families that lost children this year. I came to the cold realization that this was the first Christmas that four families wouldn't have their children. My mom tried to calm me down and tell me that things would be easier with time, but i disagree. Then, I began to think... just this little snippit of the song is a wonderful prayer. This is saying, "God, take care of our angels, and guide us to lead lives good enough that we may once again be reunited with them once again." So everytime you hear Away in a Manger... remember our sweet angels. I would also like to say that I am so impressed by how well the family is taking this... I have been praying for you all all along and will continue to.
Name: Cheryl
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Date: Sun Jan 12 19:04:41 MST 2003
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What an amazing poem by Beth! I wish John all the best as he heads back to school. How proud you should feel, John, that you're staying strong and doing your best to go on. Just wanted to let you know how much you've been on my mind. I cannot imagine how difficult the Holidays were for each of you. You're always be in my thoughts and prayers. /cab
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Date: Sun Jan 12 19:58:40 MST 2003
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Bethann, I was just sitting here thinking about all the things we did together.. and since its Sunday I just think of all the Sunday nights last year I slept over your house so we could get ready together in the morning, wear each others clothes, and I would do your hair, you would do my makeup... it seems like just yesterday you were at my house, I was at yours.. or we were out somewhere having sooo much fun. I miss that sooo much Bethann :o( I just keep hearing your laugh in my mind saying something funny or us acting stupid.. and I can see the exact way you were when you said it, I can see your exact facial expressions and everything.. it makes it so hard to believe that this could actually be true. I STILL can't accept reality and I'm not letting it get through my head that this isn't a nightmare. Everything.. and everyone I see, everything I hear, and everything we do somehow reminds me of you and all the things we have done together. It is so hard to have fun like we used to without you here to go out with us. There are so many times I catch myself wondering where you are, and I go to pick up my phone to tell you about something that happened or to tell you about something I heard... and there are some times that I wake up in the middle of the nite forgetting about everything and I do actually call you. I wish so bad that one of these times you would pick up and tell me that you are back and everything is perfect again. We spend hours talking about what you would be doing, what we would be talking about, and just how much different things would be if you were still here. I miss you like crazy Bethann, I can't wait to see you again, and I won't be completely happy again until that day. I keep telling myself that you are here and you are with us everywhere we go and you will be forever. I love you Angel. I'm so thankful to have you as my Best Friend Forever.
Name: Angie
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Date: Tue Jan 14 21:49:28 MST 2003
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Dearest Bethann, I don't even have to ask because I know that you are doing just fine. Just sending up a prayer to you to keep your family strong. I know that you are doing the best that you can, and they are doing the best that they can too, but a little extra help never hurts. As you know, John is back in school which I think is WONDERFUL and a big step in the right direction for him. He is going to be very successful in his life and you will be right there beside him all the way, helping him to do the right thing. Say an extra prayer for your Mom and Dad, and send your love to them..they can feel it in their hearts. What a beautiful angel outside of your window! I remember when you were little, you always liked my sparkly dresses. Well, I still have them, hanging in my closet, they don't fit anymore that's for sure, but it makes me think of you and how you always liked to see me dressed up fancy to go somewhere. Gina always got a kick out of watching you get all dressed up and sparkly for your big events. I imagine that now you are sparkling up in heaven and shining down on us as a bright star, and when I look up in the sky, I'll smile because I know that you are doing just fine. You are truly loved and missed alot. Love always, Angie
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Date: Wed Jan 15 14:55:01 MST 2003
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Maybe some people just arent ment to be in our lifes forever. Maybe some people are just passing through. Its like some people just come through our lives to bring us something, a gift, a blessing, a lesson we need to learn and thats why they are here...and you'll have that gift forever<3 Bethann, As soon as I saw this quote I thought of you, Candace, Luke and Brian. I did'nt know you that well because I just got up to the highschool last year. But Im sure that you were a blessing and a gift to everyone. Rest In Peace Bethann!
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Date: Wed Jan 15 19:19:16 MST 2003
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I was never given the chance to even meet Bethann. I feel terrible too because I can see how much she had contributed to so many people's lives and how very much she is being missed right now. She is so beautiful and I think that anyone who did know her was truly blessed. I may have never known Bethann personally, but I know her through friends and I keep asking myself and God over and over and over why he had to take someone so beautiful and so precious away from her family and friends. What happened to Bethann could have happened to anyone...it may not be fair, but maybe God has a better plan for her. She is an angel now, looking and watching out for everyone she knows. I have been praying for the Zaguraksy's and all of Bethann's friends...please stay strong, she is still with you and forever will be. And Bethann, I am so sorry I never got to know you...after reading all the stories and poems from your friends and family you seem like such a sweetheart and you are always in my thoughts. Rest In Peace Angel...
Name: Cara Anderson
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Date: Wed Jan 15 22:28:27 MST 2003
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Bethann- I miss you more than ever and I still cannot believe that this happened. I always think that when I go to church that I am going to see you walk in and sit right next to me. You always made things so much fun when we spent time together. You were not only my cousin, but a great friend. I will cherish all of the memories that I have of you from when we were little and playing Barbies until now. Your smile, your voice (unforgettable!!), and your great personality. I know that you are in a much better place now and I find comfort in knowing that you are. Nothing is the same without you here, and you will never be forgotten. You will always be with me in my heart and I think of you every day. You are our Angel now and I know you are looking down on all of us. I feel so privileged to have had you in my life Bethann, and I cannot wait until the day I see you again. Love you and miss you...
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Date: Thu Jan 16 14:27:57 MST 2003
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Bethann~ I didnt know you well, but I miss you so much. I know what a great person you were. You were always so nice to me, and everyone. You always had a smile on your face, and everyone around you was always happy. I will always remember your smile and your laugh, and who could forget that voice! You touched so many people's lives, and I will never forget you! Bethann you are so beautiful, inside and out. I know you're watching out for everyone down here, help your friends and family stay strong. We all miss you so much! Theres not a day that goes by that I dont think about you. I Luv you Angel!
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Date: Thu Jan 16 16:38:10 MST 2003
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~*DREAMS*~ you come to me at nite in my dream, that is the only time u are seen, if it was up to me i'de sleep 4ever, because i love dreamin when were 2gether, it seems so real when u talk to me, n i wonder is it real, can it be? you can talk to me as if u were here, n when you tell me things i have no fear, i can ask u questions n u usually reply, i ask whats it like up there?, can you fly?, i miss u so much n i know you know, i'm so sad n i wish you didn't go, but i can see u at nite in my dreams, n its all too real, or it seems, but until the day i see you friend, i'll meet you in my dreams again n again! Missin ya more than ever Bethann I juss cant believe ur gone but till the day we meet again I will dream bout u and Can In my dreams I jus thought I would put this is ur guest book 2 I jus put it in Cans Well BethAnn I gtg so I'll see u lata in my dreams cuz u and can r the ones that I dream bout and I would sleep 4 eva and dream bout u if I could R.I.P. See ya someday soon watch over all of us and tell can I said hi thanks babe mIss and luv ya u will never be forgotten
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Date: Sat Jan 18 12:56:20 MST 2003
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hi sweetheart.. i was just sitting here thinking about u. my heart crumbles into a million peaces when i think about how much i miss u. i just cant get over it, i really cant. i had a wonderful dream about u, u were happy as could be like always and u screamed my name like u always used to in the halls. it was like a little piece of heaven sent down from u when i heard that voice. it felt so real, i know u did that for me, thank you. i can hear it echo over and over. there are no words to express how much we all miss u. sometimes i cant describe in words what i want to say in these messages i leave for u. but i know you read them. well i just wanted to tell you that i was thinking about u. i love and miss u so much. thanks for being so good to me. i have a very special place in my heart for ya wild woman. watch over your family and friends, your in our thoughts every second of the day... love u bethann - L Binz
Name: Ashley Majernik
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Date: Sat Jan 18 20:29:29 MST 2003
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hi Bethann Since Christmas has come and gone, I've been past your house quite a few times, and every time I go by, I see the angel your family has in your front yard. It's so beautiful, because at night it illuminates the whole street with a warm glow that feels just like your presence. The first time I went by, all I could think about was you. About your smile, about your laugh...all the qualities that drew people to you. My favorite memories of you are when we were younger, riding together on the bus. I can remember all the boys fighting with us for the "backseat" ('cause you were only cool if you got to sit in the backseat). They would tell us to move, and you would just put your hands on your hips, and in your little sixth grade voice you would tell them to go away because WE were sitting there. And if they didn't listen, you would tell your brother. Bethann, I wish I had an explanation to why you were taken from us. But there are no explanations...there are no words that will ever express the way your family and your friends wish they could have one last moment with you. But that's the way God does things and I know many people say this, but He really does take the best. I will always pray for your happiness in Heaven, and I feel blessed to have known you. You truly impacted the lives of everyone that knew you. Bless you Angel
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Date: Sat Jan 18 21:32:39 MST 2003
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Bethann I miss you so bad :( I am back at school now sometimes, You are always on my mind. It is very hard for me to go to class knowing that I will not be able to come back and call you on the phone, or talk to you before I go to bed at night. Its even more difficult driving home and knowing you will not be there to give me a big hug when I walk through the door. Everytime i came home u were always so happy to see me and had the biggest smile and gave me the biggest hug when I came in, Its so hard not having all those things anymore Bethann. The truth is Bethann, I am not Okay, and I will never be Okay, Life is so bitter now. Often I question why this has happened and yet I find no answers, I wish that I would. I guess I wont know until it is my time, and that will be a great day when we are reunited. I hope that you are Okay without me, I know its hard cause we were never supposed to be apart like this. Id do anything to have you back. Tonight I was eating chicken wings and it just made me think of the time I went to pick those wings up from ponderosa for your suprise party, everything reminds of you, and things that we did. Its so hard..I know you are Okay in Heaven, But I miss you terribly. I love you so much Bethann, even though you are not here physically, the bond that we have can never be broken, I promise. Love forever, your best friend forever, your big bro Jawn
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Date: Sun Jan 19 09:38:18 MST 2003
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I wish I could have told you The words I kept inside But now I guess it's just too late So many things remind me of you I hope that you can hear me I miss you This is goodbye One last time And where I go you'll be there with me Forever you'll be right here with me I'll meet you there No matter where life takes me I'll meet you there And even if I need you I'll meet you there ~Simple Plan *When I came across these lyrics it made me think of you and Can Can right away, I put this in her gbook to...words cant explain how much ever one missin you, I love you all*
Name: Lauren Zovko
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Date: Sun Jan 19 23:09:31 MST 2003
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Bethann was one of the sweetest girls i ever met in my life. I could pick out her voice and her smile from a mile away. We had study hall together and thats how we got to know eachother and we would sit and tell eachother our problems and make little jokes... she made me happy when i was sad and happier when I was happy. I'm going to be so lonely in study hall without her. Bethann...I love u and I'll miss u until i see u again.
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Date: Mon Jan 20 14:10:47 MST 2003
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i knew bethann from school and im not liked very well but she didnt know me by name but she was really nice to me she said hi and asked me if i were ok one day i was crying and she comforted me i miss you bethanne i really miss you
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Date: Tue Jan 21 10:18:02 MST 2003
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I sit here and think "this cannot be" why has this precious girl left me. Tears well up in my eyes and another day goes by. I think of you all the time. I will cherish our memories until the day I die. Your time was to short with us. I wish I could change it, but the hands on the clock will not go back, so we have to step forward- but it is you that we lack. I miss you. My heart aches and the only relief is that you are my angel looking down at me. I Love You Bethann
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Date: Tue Jan 21 14:18:16 MST 2003
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i did not know bethann but i knew candace (but had not seen her since first grade, by the way does anyone know her web page?) and my heart goes out to bethann's family. you are all in my prayers
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Date: Tue Jan 21 17:46:40 MST 2003
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Hi Bethann.. today is four months and I cannot believe it. Sometimes when I think about it, it seems like its been an eternity without you, but then other times I sit here and think about some of the things we did together and it makes it seem like just yesterday you were getting dropped off here at my house to get ready and go out somewhere, or I was coming to your house to sleepover or something. I would do anything in the world to go back four months and a day ago and change EVERYTHING but I know that God needs you up there more than we do for some unknown reason that I don't think we could ever understand. Things are so different without you on earth but I know that you really are with us every second of the day, wherever we go, whatever we do. I love you so much Bethann, I just wish we could be laying on my bed, or yours, like always, just talking for hours upon hours. I cannot wait until I get to see you again.. I miss you like crazy Angel ;o( I Love You
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Date: Tue Jan 21 17:49:52 MST 2003
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God send me an angel From the heavens above Send me an angel to heal my broken heart From being in love 'Cause all I do is cry God send me an angel To wipe the tears from my eyes That special Angel was you I jus put this in Can's so I thought I put it in urs I miss you so Much BethAnn But I will wait till i see u and Cans beautiful face Watch over all of us and keep us safe see ya some day soon and Beth can U please tell Can I love and miss her dearly and every one else thanks Bethann alot See ur 2 beautiful faces some day soon R.I.P. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Name: kristin
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Date: Tue Jan 21 22:02:27 MST 2003
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Bethann, it has been 4 months now since we lost you and there is still so much that I want to say to you and ask you. Although I know that my questions will remain unanswered for some time I know that you hear what I'm saying to you in my prayers every night. Even though it has been some time now I can still never seem to tell you everything I want to say. There is such an incredible loss for words that I dont even know where to begin and truely may never be able to find the words to discribe what I am feeling. Its an extreme comfort to everyone to know that you are with your friends and family watching over everyone. Be with Jawn and the rest of your family as he starts back to school. Give him the strength he needs to gain the success he deserves. We couldnt have asked for a more beautiful and perfect angel watching over us. I will forever carry your memory in my heart always. Love and miss you so much !! Love always, kristin
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Date: Wed Jan 22 14:59:09 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann,i would ask you how your doing but i know you are doing just fine up in Heaven. Its hard to belive its been 4 months, i wish so bad there was something i could do to get you back. The memories i have with you will be in my heart forever. I miss you soo much Bethann!!Love you Angel!<3
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Date: Wed Jan 22 22:18:34 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann hope ur doing well...I was juss readin sum of the people who signed ur guestbook...To the person who didnt know Candace's webpage its http://www.candacegeiserourprincess.com RIP Angels...<3<3 XoXo <3<3
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Date: Thu Jan 23 18:20:00 MST 2003
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Bethann, I know I never got to meet you and I regret that so much but after seeing this site many times I feel like I have. All the wonderful things that your friends and family have written about you really bring tears to my eyes and I feel like you have been a part of my life too... I am so sorry you were taken away from your loved ones but you are an Angel now watching over everyone of us. You are so beautiful Bethann, I bet the prettiest one up in Heaven...
Name: Dan Bekavac
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Date: Fri Jan 24 13:29:06 MST 2003
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I knew Bethann through my little sister, Chloe. I also knew her brother John quite well through high school and playing football. If there is one thing that I can add to this site, it's that I know that Bethann can be nothing but happy now. Looking at the people back at home, and how they have dealt with her passing has shown me what true class, strength, and compassion really is. She sees her friends and her family and their love, and she must have a smile. I offer my condolences, the condolences of my friends, and the condolences of my family. I also offer my pride to everyone else who has been affected by this event; the way that you all have handled it has been nothing short of totally admirable and wonderful. This is the first time that I have looked at this site, and it's also the first time I spent any time really thinking hard about Bethann's passing. I'm trying to look for a silver lining of it. Death is the single event of life that affects every person throughout history, harshly, and we all try to find a way to cope with its affects. Despite the fact that I am not around the community as much anymore, I can see the magnitude of love from the people back home, and that sort of love, I feel, is the best way of dealing with an event as horrific as this. If there is anything good that can come of Bethann's passing, it is that. Once again, I offer all of my thoughts and emotions from here, and most of all, I offer my love. Hopefully, it can add to the tremendous amount of love already in place for Bethann, because that is something wonderful. As an aside to John, I haven't had a chance to say anything to you. During football, you were always one of my favorite teammates. Something about you commanded respect and admiration as well as my freindship. I know that Bethann was lucky to have you as a brother. I also know that everyone that you know, in their dealing with this event, is lucky to have you there too.
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Date: Sat Jan 25 19:19:02 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann, its me again im jus sittin here thinkin about ya! I miss you soo much! You are so irreplacable & unforgetable! Thank you so much for all the signs you have sent us letting us know you are ok, especially the rainbow! I just keep asking myself why, but i cant seem to find a answer to my question. You were an Angel all along Bethann, and i cant believe weve never noticed, its soo hard to accept the fact that yer gone, i keep thinking that youre just on vacation and will be back(i wish that was true soo bad),But i can understand why God would want you wiht him in Heaven..and im sure you are a gorgeous Angel!:)I will cherish the memories that i have with you forever! Our conversations we had are always replaying in my mind, id do anything to make things different and to have you back!The dreams ive had with you in them have been so great, but i wish they could be true, it makes me so sad when i wake up and nothing has changed, but at the same time they are comforting and have given me strength. But please continue to give everyone the strength they need!I Love an miss you lots B*ZAGS!!
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Date: Sun Jan 26 16:15:08 MST 2003
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Bethann, I know it's been 4 months since you have left us and I feel horrible this is the first time I have wrote to you. But I did get a chance to say how much you would be missed and goodbye by writing that letter to you when I said my last goodbyes at your funeral =( It was so wierd that when I was writing that letter to you, I felt that I could write forever, and that's so wierd because we were not close at all..but I just had so much I wanted to say to you. I know we were not close at all, we would just say hello or exchange a simple smile when we would see eachother. Your smile was just out of this world, and your voice was just exquisite.. when I think about hearing it, it really does bring a smile to my face. There is definately no one in the whole world who had a similar voice like you-and that's what makes you even more special. It's so sad to read these reflections that everyone has written-I can't help but cry when I read the good times you had with so many people..and the pain that everyone is going through. Especially your brother and family..I wish that you were still here with us and we could spare this pain from everone's hearts. But for some reason, You left us because God has better plans for you up in heaven..and he knew that you would make a gorgeous angel up there. But we all wish this would have never happened and you would still be here with us. I wish I could have got to know you better because you were truly a remarkable, beautiful, and sweet girl..but I do feel priviledged that I was one of many who had the chance to know you. My thoughts and prayers continually go out to your family, as well as the other saddened families and friends. But you're a beautiful Angel now and I know that you're always watching over your family and friends up there. I miss you so much Bethann..I really can't put my feelings into words, but I know you know how I feel. You will always be missed and never forgotten....Rest In Peace beautiful Angel
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Date: Mon Jan 27 16:50:48 MST 2003
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I never got to meet you I just came across your site.As I was reading all the wonderful things that your family and friends have written about you really brought tears to my eyes and I feel like I have knew you..I am so sorry you didnt get to live your life..but now your an angel in heaven and can rest in peace!!
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Date: Tue Jan 28 08:03:44 MST 2003
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I try not to come to this site too often, Bethann. I guess I am a coward at heart because I have pain every day when I think about you and reading the comments from others on this site increases my pain exponetially. I see you every day and your loss seems to get harder every day instead of easier like the books say is suppose to happen. Whoever said "time heals all wounds" didn't know Bethann.
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Date: Tue Jan 28 16:00:41 MST 2003
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I never knew Bethann, but i heard so much about her, she was very beautiful and it hurt the world to lose her. i was very close with Candace and it hurt very much to lose her, i didn't know wat to do with myself, but im sure if u all just look deep inside, you will all see Bethann lies within all of you, and she is watchin over all of us. Bethann, you were a great person, and are missed greatly!!!
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Date: Wed Jan 29 13:26:25 MST 2003
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I didn't know Bethann personally, but from what I can see she was a very beatuiful girl and will be missed so much! I was very close with Candace, both of these girls are very loved and missed forever!
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Date: Wed Jan 29 17:40:49 MST 2003
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to the most precious creature to walk this Earth... may God keep you and bless you angel... every tear is for u, smile for me
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Date: Wed Jan 29 17:41:28 MST 2003
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I didnt really kno BethAnn but I was reall close with Candace both of these girls r great people and are loved and missed dearly R.I.P BethAnn ur forever missed and we will never 4 get u
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Date: Sun Feb 2 14:54:03 MST 2003
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Hi Bethann,John,Barb,and Johnny, I don't really know much to say today but I just wanted to say hello to you all and let you know you were in my thoughts.It's a beautiful day outside, maybe that prompted me to write,I don't know... I'm sorta like Jim and avoid reading and posting all the time, but i wanted to say hey and send a hug ya'lls way.Love,Jason
Name: Amanda Sanner
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Date: Sun Feb 2 19:49:32 MST 2003
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I did not know Bethann... I am a friend of Justins and I saw Bethanns web site on his profile... from what saw of Bethann she is a very Gorgeous woman.. I wish i would of got to know her because from what i read i would of loved a friend like her... God Bless your family... Your a beautiful ANGLE Bethann...
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Date: Mon Feb 3 01:22:04 MST 2003
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I miss you...Life aint the same w/o having you to goof around with and having you give me tha advice you did...I is hard to live everyday knowing that you are not around..I am always thinking about you...even tho I kno you brother is doing a lil better..I see him everyday and I know he misses..he is always thinking about you just like I do..Love ya
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Date: Tue Feb 4 02:24:11 MST 2003
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I was just thinking about Bethann today. It made me happy to see that people are still posting their messages and memories daily...she'll forever be remembered. I love and miss you!
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Date: Tue Feb 4 09:55:12 MST 2003
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I didn't even know Bethann and this is probably the thousandth time I've came to her website. I just can't believe this all happened. I wish we can bring them 3 back and go back to having a normal life. Everything and Everyone is so different, cold and empty. Time does NOT heal all wounds, actaully time is making this situation worse. Someone said. "O these things happen all the time" But not to these kind of people it really upset to hear someone say that. I don't want them to be remembered as a statistic, NO way! Bethann, Brian, and Candace touched SO many peoples lives in their short time here on earth. It's like they knew all along their lives were gonna be short, that's why wherever they went they made 100 new friends, and always had a good time, But 1 night changed everything! I always think well what if they left 1 second later or 1 second earlier. I just wish everyday that they can come back!! I also, wish we caould get answers as to what exactly happen, only them 3 Angels know and they know when they feel the time is right for everyone else to know, they'll tell us! I miss you Angels so much! Keep everyone strong! Love YOU! <3 <3
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Date: Tue Feb 4 14:13:43 MST 2003
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Hi Bethann.. I don't even really know what to say anymore, but I just want you to know that I still think about you ALL the time. There seriously is not a second that goes by that you are not on my mind. This is not getting easier in any way, sometimes I think it's even getting harder as time goes on because reality is setting in. But then when I think about what happened, it still seems completely impossible for this to happen to you, and I still always dream about how happy and perfect things would be again if we could get you back. All I keep thinking to myself is how this is not how things are supposed to be. Everything has changed so much since this happened, we don't like to go out hardly at all anymore because you made everything so much more fun...a lot more was taken from us other than your body. You were the one that made things a million times better when you were around, always found a way to make things fun if we had nothing to do, you could always make us laugh if we were upset, and you just always brightened everything up when you were around. You were the very first person I turned to for everything, the first one I called, the one that I knew would be here forever. I never imagined life without having you here. Still, we spend hours and hours talking about all the things we have done together..and we could never run out of stories because we have countless memories over all the years. We always talked about doing soo many things together during the rest of high school, college, and the rest of our lives, and it kills me when I think about how we can't do them now. I miss you sooo much more each day that goes by and I know that no one I will ever meet in my life could or will ever compare to you, I wouldn't even want them to.. I know I will never have a friend like you again, and I won't be as close to anyone as we were, I don't think it's possible. Your one in a million and I am soo proud to say that you are my best friend. I love you Bethann with all of my heart and I really cannot wait until I get to see you again.
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Date: Thu Feb 6 17:27:19 MST 2003
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B Ziggity.....I really cannot believe that u are gone...I miss you so much it makes me sick to my stomach. Thank you for sending me messages and I will keep praying for youin Heaven. Love u soooooooooooooooo much girlie!!!!!!
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Date: Thu Feb 6 23:45:53 MST 2003
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I did not know Bethann, but I look at this website all the time. She was such a pretty girl and by reading this guestbook she seemed like one of the nicest people you could ever meet. I wish I was one of the lucky people that knew Bethann and had memories with her. I almost feel like i know her, even though I don't. I really wish this would of never happened to her, Candace, or Brian. No teenager should leave this world in such a short time. God Bless all of her friends and family and remember that your beautiful angels are up in heaven smiling down every day. ~*RIP*~
Name: Rachel
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Date: Fri Feb 7 15:40:56 MST 2003
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Hey Bethy Babes...i was thinkin bout u n realized its been so long n i never even wrote to u yet...well here it is. Sumtimes its still hard for me to realize ur gone. i talk to u all the time n i kno u hear me...lol n thanx for litens to me. n all that stuff ive asked u to help me with...I KNO that was u...i cant say thank u enuff..i just wish i could have u hear to tell u how much i love u n miss u...but im guessin that u already kno that...ill never forget all the memories...i hated tena's class so bad but i couldnt wait to go just to laugh with u n team up on him together...we got him pretty good a few times...n dancin with u in aerobics...kennywood trip in tena's class was great...i cant even begin to explain how i miss u...i think of u every single day n i kno ur there with me when i pray to u at night...please keep listenin to me n helpin me out with my stuff...uve missed so many of my soap operas so i still make sure to tell u all of them...Bethann...i will Love u Forever n Always n when the day comes that i will see u again...u better be waitin there to give me a huge hug...love u babes
Name: Christian
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Date: Fri Feb 7 20:10:38 MST 2003
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Bethann, Ive been thinking about you alot lately. I recently started reading the book "The Four Agreements", which you inspired me to want to read. I look at your picture everyday in my room and just wish you were still here. It seems like you and Justin were just at my house the other day. Is hard to believe its been almost 7 months. I hope you are always looking in on your parents and brother and continue giving them the strength they need. We all miss you, Love, Christian
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Date: Sun Feb 9 17:55:33 MST 2003
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Bethann I have been thinking about you so much lately. I guess the harsh reality of it all is gradually settling in. I know the old saying that time heals all things but it only seems to get more difficult as time progresses. We have been making plans for the prom and senior trip and all I can think of in the back of my mind is how much I wish you were still around. I swear it seems as if the light that made all things fun has been extinguished. God could not have possibly taken a better person. You were the one to always make light of everything and we could always count on you for a smile. I just wanted to let you know you are on my mind all the time and I love you more than words could ever define. All I ask is for you to continue to watch over us all, especially your family that needs your blessings so much right now.
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Date: Sun Feb 9 22:45:08 MST 2003
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Don't cry any more tears for me, I am at peace, I'm finally free. Like the eagle in the sky, I am soaring, so please don't cry. I know you love me, I love you too, But my time was over, was finally through. I have ascended to a better place, Which is not confined by time or space. To those that loved me, I did not fall, I only succumbed to a higher call. Do not mourn me, I am with you still. I'll be with you always, from dawn-----until.
Name: Chris P.
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Date: Mon Feb 10 16:12:36 MST 2003
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I miss you so much, Bethann. You were one of the sweetest people I’ve ever met, so happy all the time. I remember you always put me in a better mood when I talked to you in Business Law. I remember talking about our problems and joking about how we’re almost related. You were always so thoughtful, you picked up my yearbook for me from school without me even asking… it’s been nearly five months now, but I think about you every day. It’s so hard to watch your family go through so much pain without you here. You’ve brought so much joy to the lives of so many. We know you’re watching over us and that you’re in a better place now. Love you always.
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Date: Wed Feb 12 18:44:15 MST 2003
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MY GIRL, I'm missing you like crazy~ you are always on my mind. I need you here to talk and laugh with- how it was when things were perfect. You were the one who guaranteed to put a smile on my face. Every day when I was here at school, we'd talk throughout the day on the computer. I can remember just sitting here laughing and smiling the whole time we talked. You always had a good story or something funny that brightened my day~ we talked about everything and I miss that so much. Now I don't like to go on the computer as much because it hurts so bad not to see your screen name signed on- I can't help but still look for it. I always look at pictures of you and show all of my friends who come in my room. Every single person cannot get over how absolutely gorgeous you are. I miss you so much Bethann~ this pain is digging without mercy into my soul. I always wonder what you are doing in heaven. My best guess is that you are making lots of new friends...or laying on the beach soaking up the sun and digging your toes in the sand...or dancing the night away under the stars...or doing you Buns of Steel workout videos...or shopping and setting new trends...one thing I know for sure is that you are smiling. I know that you are in good hands, experiencing sweet bliss. There is a quote I am sure you've heard, and I want you to know that I believe it truly describes you: "Dance like no one is watching, love like you've never been hurt, sing like no one can hear you, live like there's heaven on earth." This fits your personality perfectly because you lived every single day to its fullest. It fills my heart with pride and joy to say you are my very good friend and like a little sister to me~ you always will be...I will never let you go. I know you will continue to guide your mom, dad, and brother with strength and hope to get through each day. I blow you a kiss in heaven every day, sweet angel, and I know you are sending them back. We'll always be together in my heart, until we meet again, and I can't wait for that day...I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART. Love, JACQ
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Date: Thu Feb 13 14:02:22 MST 2003
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Bethann, Hope your first valentines day in heaven is wonderful. Please kno that you are all of our valentines. I miss you so much, it gets to me so bad sometimes. I talked to you in my dreams the other nite, and i swear when i was hugging you, i smelled you. When i asked you if you could hear me when i talked to you in my prayers, you said yes, and ive never been more happy. Bethann please watch over Sir, Barb, and John, and us girls, and every one of your loved ones. Bethann i CAN NOT WAIT untill i see your beautiful face again. There have been more angels entering heaven in EF's students' families, and others, so please watch over them and their families. I love you so much bethann <3ONE SWEET DAY <3 all my heart, Krista
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Date: Fri Feb 14 12:55:13 MST 2003
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Date: Fri Feb 14 13:17:06 MST 2003
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Dear Bethann, it is valentines day and we miss you so much. i still cannot believe you are gone i keep thinking you are going to come home to us and this has just been a bad mistake. everyday gets harder and harder. i miss you and love you so much. dad always brought you flowers and a gift on valentines day but today he had to take your flowers to the cemetary. it is so sad. i have the bear dad brought you last year sitting out in the kitchen. we think of you every second of the day. the pain will never go away, the tears will never stop falling, but the love i feel for you in my heart is here to stay, in fact my love grows stronger each and every day. i will always love you. i know in my heart how much you love me and you know how much i love you. The last words you said to me were " I LOVE YOU" i will cherish those three words for the rest of my life. That helps me get through the days sometimes. i keep thinking what a special relationship we had it was much more than mother and daughter we were best friends. i miss not having you hear to talk to and hang out. i miss your hugs and your kisses and the smell of your hair. i miss everything about you. i would give anything for you to come back to me but i know that isnt possible so i thank God every day for the seventeen years that i did have with you because they were the best you are so special in so many ways everyone thinks so bethann, Like i said before i have called you Angel for years and now you really are an angel,,I think you were an angel the short time you were here because you touched so many peoples lives. always know how much i love you and know that me dad and john are missing you on this valentines day.with all my love mom,may your memory be eternal!
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Date: Sun Feb 16 15:38:53 MST 2003
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its called how not to yeurn for a kiss from an angel on this valentines,, Months that feel like years gone past, ive abaondoned love, and have been left for last, or have been left for lost, cause "we're all lost without you, your a beautiful girl, with a wide open heart, a cherishable smile that! tears us apart." Frames of time, whole portfolios etched into memories, as we look we remember, and cry til our eyes cant see, what we have is in our hearts, your now a twinkle in Heaven's brightest star. You wouldnt have it any other way, bless US, your loves, with the angelique of essence, to wake up each day knowing your in our presence..i need to know baby.." are you close enough to kiss me sometimes, how bout' you lay a soft one on me..it might ease these awaiting times." Seconds, minutes, years, or millenia, nothing will be soon enough to see our gorgeous angel again, "you know Im a runner baby, i hide from the truth, in all honesty baby i cant ever get over you, I need to seek you, from your loving family, but i Dont, Its soo hard for me baby, a constant reminder of what i gave up for nothing..when their needing me the most." "My thoughts have haunted me for my lifetime since, I picture Me in my head with you, and looked back to see an ignorant prince, blind to a princess in our kingdom of love, stupid to think you weren't so awfully true, when i couldnt give you the same in reply, questioning, wondering, pestering...i thought i knew why" This now feuls the hell in my mind, thoughts so hot to burn the flesh, i hope god gives me the strength to be able to see you again, We all love you, please know that.
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Date: Tue Feb 18 13:45:28 MST 2003
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our angel graces heaven, re-writing the books on true happiness, happiness is life, overlooking all other obstacles, being true to yourself is foremost, living life to its fullest potential. "I wish i could teach a lesson, but im the agressor in your fairy tale story, the antagonist, that never agknowledged it...i wish i didnt stand this tall, i still feel like im on my knees, pleading for peace, from this war in my mind. Over time ima break...people will be surprised~that the real me is so much different than the look of my face, my fate graces darkness, I feel like im good at bad. MY potential for wrong is 100 % not a penny less. Teach me how to kick theses indulgences, because i know, you know i cant live like this. You told me how im a diff'rent person now, teased by the devil in his life of pain, if i go now..will i see you again? Shoot i dont think the same, my heads all complex with distraught, im thinkin this, im doin that, i dont even agree with myself, do you beleive that..im sure you do. Im sure you can see that, my whole beleif is now based on you! be my guiding light, show me how to see you again...a testimony to my departed hunny
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Date: Thu Feb 20 17:42:55 MST 2003
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BethAnn...............I have signed this guest book a million times and I jus still cant believe ur gone.My days are jus not the same without u here.I miss not hearing ur sweet voice,Ur beautiful,Smile and that laugh that still goes on in my head.I jus hope that one day I will see both you and Candace again.and we will have a great time again.Well BethAnn I jus wanted 2 say hi and I'll ttyl luv and miss u so so so so so so much If I keep puutting so it would go on and on LOL.Well Im gonna go See ya at the Crossroads<3
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Date: Fri Feb 21 13:43:05 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann! it's been 5 months today and I miss u soo much,i pray every night for all your friends and family and hoping that they are making it ok and everything,your were such a wonderful person and everytime i look at all your pictures i cry so much,i'm so sorry that this had to to happen to you,i'll never forget you and all the times we would talk,i cant wait to see u again some day,god bless u and your family and friends.Love always Lindsay
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Date: Fri Feb 21 14:58:08 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann, its just gloomy day here up at school. Todays marks 5 months. 5 months that have been changed forever for many people. There have been many broken hearts and lives that won't ever be the same. We think about you constantly sweetheart. I swear not a day goes by that your not on my mind atleast once an hour. Things keep popping up that make me stop and think to myself.. yea, thats Bethann coming through. I miss you so much I just get sick over it. I still check this web page numerous times a day just to look at your pictures, and read what other people say and it crushes me to pieces. You know,.. it was so hard to believe this all happened, but I thought reality may begin to sit in by this point, but it really has not, at all. I still think about things I want to tell you, or how I would like to see you when I come home for break. It's just a nightmare and I'm waiting to wake up. This world is different without you, it really is. You are so special. I miss you and everything about you. I miss your charming personality, your dramatic stories, your advice, your giggles, your hugs, your silly im's, the gossip on highschool, just everything! I know I'm not the only one either. Everyones just completely broken over this. I just can't put into words how much I miss you. Your beautiful face is all over my dorm room, I got your name in glow in the dark paint so when I look up above my bed before I go to bed I know your watching me. I'd give anything in this world to bring you back to your family and friends. But I guess you are where God wants you. You truely are an angel, always and forever. I Love You with all of my Heart and cannot wait to see you again. Your L. Binz
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Date: Fri Feb 21 15:27:34 MST 2003
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hey BethAnn how r u??? today makes 5 months and 5 months that have changed my life 4 ever my life will never be the same without you.I love and Miss u and hope 2 see u one day soon luv ya babe R.I.P. U deserve it see ya at the cross roads wen I cross over <3
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hey BethAnn how r u??? today makes 5 months and 5 months that have changed my life 4 ever my life will never be the same without you.I love and Miss u and hope 2 see u one day soon luv ya babe R.I.P. U deserve it see ya at the cross roads wen I cross over <3
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Date: Fri Feb 21 20:09:10 MST 2003
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Hi Bethann. I was just thinking about you alot tonight and decided to write. Our family thinks about you all the time and we miss you so much. The months are going really fast, but the emptiness remains. Thanks for looking over everyone Beautiful Angel. Love you, SuzyQ
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Date: Sat Feb 22 07:40:13 MST 2003
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dear angel, i cant believe 5 months have passed alrerady i feel like i just brought you home from the hospital after i gave birth to you. i feel like i have a huge hole in my heart, like a giant piece of me is missing. I will never understand why this had to happen. we miss you and love you more everyday that goes by. i would give anything to bring you back. i cant even put into words how i feel, just an emptiness. please always now how much you mean to me and how much i miss and love you forever. MISSING YOU, LOVING YOU, AND WANTING YOU BACK, ALWAYS REMEMBER 'you are so beautiful to me'(our song) MOM/BARB
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Date: Wed Feb 26 09:07:39 MST 2003
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Bethann, I find myself looking at this site almost everyday. I cannot believe that God has taken someone so beautiful and precious... but he must have a better plan for you. I didn't even know you, I know someone who did... without even knowing you Bethann, you've made a huge impact on my life. I like to pretend that I did know you... you seem like such a wonderful person... I'm so sorry I never got to meet you, I wish I had. You truly are the most beautiful Angel in Heaven Bethann... Love you lots
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Date: Sat Mar 1 11:34:04 MST 2003
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Bethann, I jus wanted to let you know that I was thinking about you and wishing you could be here. We all can't wait to see you and that smile again. Please keep watching over your family as you have been and rest in peace! We love you
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Date: Sat Mar 1 13:45:53 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann, I just wanted to let you know that I miss you hunni! I think about you every day. We all thought this would get easier as time went on but it hasn't. I kno your smiling up in heaven though! You had the most beautiful smile! You know, I always looked up to you Bethann, I try to be the kind of person you were. You're Perfect Bethann and we all knew you were an ANGEL here on earth, and no matter how hard I try I couldnt be half the person you were, no one can ever be as perfect as you. We miss you so much! Please keep watching over us from Heaven. Love you ANGEL!
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Date: Sun Mar 2 07:28:41 MST 2003
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I never knew Bethann, but i knew people that knew her! I am terribly sorry to hear everything that has happened and all the pain everybody has been through. She seems like she was a wonderful girl and the best friend anybody could ask for~! All of your sotires and peoms touched my heart and made me cry. I hope all of you keep her alive by memories and stories! Thanks for sharing the stories! Love, Jamie
Name: Alex
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Date: Sun Mar 2 09:41:22 MST 2003
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bethann words cant explain the loss we have suffer.We lost such a beatiful person and it saddens me.You were gorgeous and that laugh I loved it.Whenever I heard it I'd smile.I can still hear it though its getting fainter now.Bethann,you were so young and loved by so many.You gave me your cell phone number and told me to call you.I wish I had.I'll think of you everyday and when I cry I'll remember you are a beautiful angel up above in heaven looking down on each one of us that loved you so much.You are forever in my heart and memory.I love and miss you terribly.I'll see you again when it is my time.Love you so much-Alex
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Date: Sun Mar 2 09:48:21 MST 2003
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bethann words cant explain the loss we have suffer.We lost such a beatiful person and it saddens me.You were gorgeous and that laugh I loved it.Whenever I heard it I'd smile.I can still hear it though its getting fainter now.Bethann,you were so young and loved by so many.You gave me your cell phone number and told me to call you.I wish I had.I'll think of you everyday and when I cry I'll remember you are a beautiful angel up above in heaven looking down on each one of us that loved you so much.You are forever in my heart and memory.I love and miss you terribly.I'll see you again when it is my time.Love you so much-Alex
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Date: Sun Mar 2 10:43:06 MST 2003
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Bethann, im missin you more than ever...i miss everything about you! Your laughter and smiles were always contagious.I know you are a beautiful Angel up in Heaven, awlays smiling like you were when you were with us!I miss you so bad Bethann!Love an miss you forever<3
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Date: Mon Mar 3 22:38:24 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann... Just wanted to say Hi. Sitting here, thinking about you. Thinking how fun it would be to go back for another day in Ms. Anderson's class with you, maybe drive her a little nuts again, like we often used to! :) It's always a fun time with you. Like everyone else who cares so much for you, I hope to see you again in Heaven.
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Date: Tue Mar 4 16:47:07 MST 2003
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I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to god today I asked "What makes a mother and I know I heard him say...A mother has a baby This we know is true. But god can you be a mother, when your babys not with you Yes, you can He replied with confidence in his voice. I give many women babies when they leave is not their choice. Some I send for a lifetime, others for a day. Some I send to feel in your womb, but theres no need to stay. I just dont understand god. I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared his throat and then I saw a tear. I wish I could show you what your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile with other children and say... I go to earth to learn my lessons of love and live and fear...my mommy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a mom who had so much love for me. I learned my lesson quickly and mommy set me free. I miss my mommy oh so much but I visit her each day when she goes to sleep on her pillows where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheeks and whisper in her ear Mommy dont be sad Im your baby and Im here So you see dear sweet one your child is okay. Your baby is here in my home and this is where she'll stay. She'll wait for you with me until your lesson on earth is through and on that day that you come home she'll be at the gates for you. So now you see what makes a mother. Its the feeling in your heart. Its the love you had so much of right from the start. Though some on earth may not realize until their time is done, remember all the love you have and know that you are a special mom!
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Date: Wed Mar 5 07:19:21 MST 2003
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Hey hunni. I wanted to say hi since I havent written anything in a while. I miss you so much Bethann...more than words can explain. I had a dream about you last night...it seemed so real, and when I woke up I was so upset because I wanted to go back to sleep and be with you again in my dream. I would give anything to have you back here again with us, its just not the same without you. I love you angel!! Your Hezzy Girl...always
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Date: Tue Mar 11 17:28:48 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann.. just thinkin about ya. I've been talkin to you a lot lately. All I am goin to ask is that you make sure things happen right. I know you will cause you know whats best, nobody else, just you. So this one's up to you... i love you angel
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Date: Thu Mar 13 12:40:43 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann, I had a dream about you last night... It was so real, i can remember everything about it, what you were wearing and how beautiful you looked... I was in my dorm room with some friends and you came through the door... I can't believe how real it felt. I ran up and gave you a big hug and kissed your hand. You didn't want to be asked any questions, you just wanted to let us know that you are ok..... I can't wait to see you again, I miss you.
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Date: Fri Mar 14 13:03:04 MST 2003
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Bethann... I'm sorry that justice was not served yesterday at the inquest. It's not fair that someone as nice and sweet as you had to die and no one is paying for it! I know that your family misses you everyday. We miss you as well, keep watch over all of us!
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Date: Fri Mar 14 13:47:48 MST 2003
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Hi Bethann, I still can't believe its been over 5 months since the last time I've seen you. I thought as time went on it would eventually get easier, but it definetely hasn't, lately it seems like it is getting harder to deal with all of this. I've been having a lot of dreams about you lately, they make me never want to wake up because they are all dreams of when everything was still perfect and we were together every single day constantly laughing and have soo much fun.. it makes it so much harder after I wake up and realize I was dreaming. I still wish that one day we are all going to wake up from this horrible nightmare because it doesn't seem possible that this has happened. And then today I found 2 more cards from you.. one of them you made by yourself and it has a picture of us with heart stickers around it and others stickers that say "best buddies" and "friends forever".. you wrote in it how we will be best friends forever, you are always here for me, and that you love me. I know we will be best friends forever and I know that you will always be with me but its not fair that you have to be so far away and it hurts soo bad that I can't see or hear you anymore :'( And no one can figure out why I had a missed call from you on my cell phone last week.. but I just like to think of it as you saying hi because there really is no other way to explain it. I miss you soo much Bethann it's too hard to deal with... planning the 80's dance for you is soo hard because I know how much you loved 80's music and it sux so bad that it is in memory of you and you can't be there cuz I know how much fun we would have getting ready for it in crazy outfits, making our hair huge, and then dancing to Madonna and all those songs at the dance, so I just try to remember that you will be there with us, in our hearts. Bethann, you will forever be my best friend.. no one could ever come close to comparing to you.. I miss you sooooo much Angel and I love you more than anything in the world.. I can't wait to see you again!! :o(
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Date: Fri Mar 14 20:13:24 MST 2003
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Bethann, its been a while since I have signed this guest book. I have come this section time and time again and have refrained from writing at the last moment. The pain is just to unbearable to show. I have found myself falling deeper and deeper into denial that you are no longer here with me. A lot of times when i am in my bedroom I like to think that you are still right down the hallway. When I am up at school I like to think that you will be at home waiting for me when i get there. The reality of this all is just way too much for me to accept Bethann. I cant possibilty accept my best friend and little sister not being here. How can I cope with something like that? I have reached the point where I struggle to even look at your pictures. Every single thing that occurs during the day reminds me of you in some way, and its hard for me to keep myself together. Thats why I like to believe in my head that this never happened, becauseI just cant believe it. Life is just getting really really rough for me Bethann and I even have a hard time talking to you now, I used to do it easily, but lately it is so hard for me to talk to you because I want you to be here to answer me so bad. I remember the last time that i spent with you, I was laying in your bed and you came over and laid your head on my chest and we just laughed and talked like we always did, I would give anything to be back in that moment. I cant even spend 2 minutes in your bedroom anymore because the pain is so severe. The visions of the morning you passed away haunt my memory. I replay it all so clearly in my head daily. I can rememeber every moment, and the pain has not lessed but intensified as the days have progressed. I will never be able to live a happy life Bethann, but I ask you to just help me get by, because I struggle. No one sees it, because I keep it all in, I like to keep it between me and you, You are the only one that can help me now sis. I love you so much Bethann, i know in my heart you are always with me, I need you to be. Love always and forever - your big bro and best friend Jawn
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Date: Sun Mar 16 20:33:22 MST 2003
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O Lord, we pray for our departed Bethann and Candace. We believe, Lord, that whoever believes in you shall never die. Our loves one are now with You in a special place You have prepared for them. We thank you for the years they were with us. Now, they cannot come to us, but we will go them. The seperatation is only temporary. We look forward to the day when we shall be reunited in your kingdom. We loved them, but you love them infinitely more. We relinquish them to your greater love and care. May they rest safe in your gentle bosom, safe in Your gentle arms. Grant us, the survivors, the strength each day to endure and overcome the pain of grief. It is a pain we cannot escape but with your help we shall pass through it and come away with greater empathy, understanding and sympathy. Amen
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Date: Thu Mar 20 13:52:06 MST 2003
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When someone you love becomes a memory,that memory becomes a treasure! Bethann our treasures are many. We love you and dearly miss you. You are forever in my heart.
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Date: Fri Mar 21 19:57:43 MST 2003
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Bethann, We miss you more than you will ever know. The depth of our sorrow is so great. You are a beautiful, caring, and gorgeous person and we will never forget how you touched our lives in so many wonderful ways. Please keep touching our lives angel.
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Date: Fri Mar 21 20:47:41 MST 2003
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Bethann, it has been six months since God called you back to heaven. I still find myself in complete disbelief over the past half year. Although it has been a seemingly long time, time has passed in such a strange manner. It seems as if we are just going through the motions, never really feeling. I'm sorry if this doesn't make much sense, but it's like happy isn't the happy it used to be. I have this emptiness witin me that just cannot be filled. Bethann was the kind of person you'd miss if you hadn't seen her for a few days. Not seeing her smiling face my whole life is something so hard to swallow. Bethann is the type of friend you would want to spend the rest of your life remaining close to. I wanted her to be at my wedding. Most of all I just miss your friendship Bethann. Deep down in the depths of my heart and my soul, I miss you, a longing that is forever going to be with me. Not a minute goes by without you in it, yet it is these memories that keep me going. All my love forever and always~Chlo
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Date: Sat Mar 22 07:09:10 MST 2003
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Bethann, its been 6 months since everything happened and it went sooo fast, but yet it seems like its been forever since i've seen you last. All I can think about is how much we were together, especially over summer. There was hardly any nites when you weren't sleeping here or I slept at your house, and we were together the whole entire day too. I'd do anything to have things back the way they used to be. I just want to know why this had to happen. Everyone says that over time, it will get easier, but it hasn't at all. So much has changed since you left, a part of all of us left too. You were definitely the one that we always wanted there, and if you weren't with us for only one nite, things weren't as fun without you. Everyone knows that God could not have taken a better person from us. It is so hard to go out without you, nothing is fun anymore. I always sit here and imagine what we would be doing if you were still here. Theres not a passing second that I'm not thinking about you, wondering what your doing in heaven, looking at all of our pictures, or going through all of our old stuff. I love you sooo much Bethann, you're my best friend forever, and now our gorgeous Angel...I'm missing you more than ever right now. I would give up anything in the world to have you back here with your family and us.
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Date: Sat Mar 22 13:32:23 MST 2003
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Bethann-I can't believe this really happened. It's 6 months and I still don't want to accept the fact that you are so far away.So many people miss you. I know you are in a better place but it's so hard not seeing your goregous face in the halls. rip...please watch over all of us espeically your family
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Date: Sat Mar 22 14:05:06 MST 2003
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Bethann...I can't believe it's been 6 months since you left us, and became a beautiful angel in heaven. As I write this, I can feel you looking down upon me and somehow letting me know that you are ok and still have that beautiful smile on your face. Eventhough we weren't as close as we used to be, I will NEVER forget our talks on IM or the phone, or hanging out at Jordan's house. You were a caring, beautiful, young woman who now has become that angel that watches over all of us, somehow letting us know you are ok...Miss you girl...Luv Britt
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Date: Sat Mar 22 16:07:26 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann, just wanted to say I'm thinking of you right now, as I have been everyday since you went to see God. I still can't help but feel disbelief whenever I see your pictures. Like so many other people, I miss you so much Bethann. We all want that one more hug and beautiful smile from you. While that time will come, we must live our lives to make you proud. My thoughts are with you and your family... Missing you, "Fike" :)
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Date: Sat Mar 22 17:09:56 MST 2003
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God looked around his Garden and found an empty place. He then looked down upon his earth and saw your loving face. He put his arms around you and lifted you to rest. His Garden must be beautiful, he always takes the best. He knew that you were suffering, he knew you were in pain. And knew that you would never get well on earth again. He saw your path was difficult, he closed your tired eyes, He whispered to you "Peace be Thine" and gave you wings to fly. When we saw you sleeping so calm and free of pain, We would not wish you back to earth to suffer once again. You've left us precious memories, your love will be our guide, You live on through your family, you're always by our side. It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone. For part of us went with you on the day God called you home
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Date: Sat Mar 22 22:31:24 MST 2003
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I really didn't know Bethann too well. All I know is that she always knew how to make anyone smile or laugh! She always had a smile on her face no matter what! Bethann was such a down to earth and beautiful girl, and I admire her for that! It's been 6 months and 2 days since you, Ash, and Candace have left us! I know you 3 are watching over us. I miss you all like crazy, and not one day goes by when I don't think about you guys! Please tell Ash and Candace I said hello and I miss them dearly too! See you again one day! R.I.P.
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Date: Sun Mar 23 08:26:33 MST 2003
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hey bethann i am missing you so much i love you more and more every day but you know that. We had a beautiful memorial service for you yesterday. I cannot believe six months have gone by. A lot of your friends came and a lot of family. Father George gave a very nice service,you are so missed by so many people. We all love you so much.All of your friends were up in your room looking ar pictures and stuff it was sad but i am glad that they care about you. you really had a nice group of friends bethann they are the best. sean didn't show so i don't know what is up with that. tpday is johns 20th birthday please be with him today so he can make it through the day he loves you so much it is so hard with you not being here with us, you should be here it is just not fair. We feel so cheated. i hope you are happy in heaven and that God is taking good care of you.,that was supposed to be my job, but i am sure you are okay but you are missed so bad, it has been six months and i still cannot accept this. i would give anything yo have you hear with me. oh, miss maz came i thought that was so nice she really liked you bethann, she said tou are probably shaking things up-up there. well please be with your brother today i think it is going to hard for him today. you always give us signs and i thank you for that. i will cherish every memory i have of you forever that is what gets me thru also thinking about your beautiful smile and your love for all of us. WE MISS YOU WE LOVE YOU ALWAYS MAY YOUR MEMORY BE ETERNAL.WITH ALL MY LOVE MOM
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Date: Sun Mar 23 21:39:08 MST 2003
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MY GIRL, I haven't seen the sun shine since you left us. It's been way too long, and I feel lost without you. I got a dreadful feeling when I was on my way home from school for your six month service; I so badly just wanted to SEE you, HUG you, and tell you I LOVE you. If I could hug you one more time, I promise I would never let you go. I know that you were right there with us at your memorial service yesterday. It was very hard, but it was also comforting to hear Father George's words~ Although you see the pain we are going through, you are overcome with love and joy because you are with God and you know things that we cannot even begin to understand. I truly believe this, but it doesn't make me miss you any less~ each day still gets harder and harder. I am not the same person now that you are gone because a big part of me is gone too. So many people love and miss you Bethann~ you are so special, and I know I will never meet anyone like you again in my life. I know that you are by your brother's side today on his birthday~ he needs you to be. I clearly remember the day you told Jawn that it was impossible for any brother and sister to be as close as the two of you are. It breaks my heart each time I think of this, but it is so true. The bond you have with him, your mom and dad, and the rest of your family and friends will never be broken because no one could ever forget you. Your voice and laugh run through my mind constantly, along with all of our treasured memories together. I can feel you smiling angel, and I know you'll never stop...I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART. Love, JACQ
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Date: Tue Mar 25 00:14:06 MST 2003
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Your life that once was, lives on in my thoughts,<BR> TO cause me to wonder what time would have brought.<BR> If your time had continued and you had lived, <BR> The path that I walk now would not have been.<BR> Changes are made by one moment in time,<BR> The path that was lost, I never will find.<BR> Words that you spoke, just one day before,<BR> Are remembered forever, since you speak no more.<BR> Promises made, that you cannot keep,<BR> Continue to haunt the dreams of my sleep.<BR> Your presence is here and will always be,<BR> Cherished forever, in my memory.<BR> <BR> <BR> If tears could build a stiarway<BR> And memories a lane<BR> I'd walk right up to Heaven<BR> And bring you home again<BR>
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Date: Wed Mar 26 17:17:40 MST 2003
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I send this out 2 all The Loves One we all Lost. That are in cemetaries That never got to see their dreams,everything I touch you touch,For every step I take you take every breath I Breathe You breathe, Every Dollar I make you make.I'd told you we'd make it to the sunshine one day.You just got there a Little 2 quicker. Hey Angel How are you? I hope just fine Just got done putting this lil poem in Cans Guest Book too well I'll let u go Bye Bye Bethann. I love U so Much Gurl My Days are just not the same without you and Candace here.Tell My Can Can I said Hello Thank u so Much Bethann. R.I.P. Angel I hope 2 see u at the sunshine One day Soon I look foward 2 it every day But for Now I'll enjoy the Rest of My Life Till I see One of My Two Guradian Angels again and we will be together FOREVER <3 I love U Baby Doll and Miss u so very much.
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Date: Mon Mar 31 01:53:15 MST 2003
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For a reading in a Civil War Era class i'm in, we had to read a "A Women's Civil War: A Diary With Reminiscences of the War". one of the passages left me awestruck: "Sept. 21st- morning, noon, and night i think if her; every object reminds me of her, and at every turn as i go about the house, i am thinking i shall meet her smiling face. and Oh! the struggle against distrust and unbelief...and i know that He can restore my precious handful of dust as beautiful and substantial as before, only adorned with a deviner beauty. He has promised and He will do it. as He has called out of the dust this rose with all its beauty and fragrance, so can He clothe with beauty those that are His." someone once told me, "it's not that the pain fades with time, it just gets somewhat easier to deal with." i often find myself thinking about all those affected by this tragedy. you are forever in my prayers.
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Date: Mon Mar 31 08:17:21 MST 2003
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Hi Bethann. People say that time heals everything. They lied. It has been over 6 months since you and Brian and Candace have been by God's side and the pain in my heart has not faded one bit- it has only gotten stronger. When I wake up in the morning you are on my mind. All throughout the day you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bethann. I know that you already know all of this but I want for you to see it. I miss you so much, BZIGGITY!!! Your memorial service was very nice. Your friends are very loyal to you and your mom and dad and family. My heart breaks evenmore everytime I see you mom, dad, or John. I just keep thinking that I am going to see you at the mall or somewhere like I always did. Still to this day, 6 months and 10 days later, I cannot accept the fact that you are gone forever. I can say it over and over again in my head and I go back to that gloomy Saturday morning but I still cannot accept it. When I saw you in my dream, you said nothing to me, only smiled and followed me around. I woke up from that beautiful thought only to find myself in hysterical tears. I know that you cannot feel my pain and I am so happy that you can't because it's sickening. I love and miss you so much, Bethann! Take care of us and thanks for being there on Friday. LOVE YOU FOR ETERNITY!!:) Life Is Eternal and Love Is Immortal, And Death Is A Gateway, an Entrance and Portal Into A Life that No Man Can Envision, For God Has A Greater Perspective and Vision. If You Meet God In The Morning And Ask For Guidance When You Pray, You Will Never In Your Lifetime, Face Another Hopeless Day.
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Date: Thu Apr 3 05:31:46 MST 2003
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dear Bethann, I just wanted to let you know that i was thinking of you i think of you constantly. I love you and miss you so much. You are the sparkplug of ou family. You always will be, we will always remember everything you did to brighten our lives. We all miss you so badly but I know you are okay in Heaven. Please always remember how much i love you. May your memory be eternal.Love Mom/Barb
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Date: Mon Apr 7 00:57:31 MST 2003
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If God would give you back, I would never ask of him another thing.
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Date: Mon Apr 7 10:44:26 MST 2003
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Well Bethann Even though I did not know you, I feel like I sorta do now. I would give anything to bring you angels back. I think anyone would. I just think everyday I wish this never happen,I cannot get over how quick it happen and how fast time is going now, almost 6 months already since I last talked to my Angel. I don't think it's getting any easier with time for anybody you were all to great. I swear I think about what every second of the day. I don't quite understand how someone can be gone SO quickly. I really don't understand! I think maybe if help would have arrived a second or two earlier, you would all be here. I know it's not right to think like that but I really feel that way. Every second in life makes a difference! Bethann, only you, Brian and Candace know exactly what happen that nite, I just wish everyone would quit tring to blame people, I understand to blame someone, somehow makes it seem better,but all in all it doesnt do anything, Since there seems to be nobody to blame for this we all sit in disbelief, why do we even have a justice system? When as long as you have money you are free. Well all the money in the world can't bring you all back,I really wish it could!
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Date: Wed Apr 9 16:18:41 MST 2003
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Do u have any idea what people would give to see u one last time? Do you have any idea what you mean to people, or how much we all think about you every single day? There's a hole down here in everyone’s heart Bethann, its not replaceable. nobody can fix it, nobody can take away the feeling. I believe most of us have never felt such a devastating pain like this before, most don’t really know how to cope. It’s a feeling anybody would pray to never experience. Its like no other hurt in this world. It’s a stabbing pain, ripping a heart into a billion pieces. I sit here and scramble the pieces around trying to get them back into place, how they used to be, but I cant. I want to get it back together, but it seems to be impossible. I want to go back to the way it was here on this Earth, when you graced everyone you knew with your presence. You loved everyone and everyone loved you, and if they didn’t, it was all out of envy. There was not a bad bone in your body. You treated everyone so graciously, kindhearted, and loving. You brought numerous smiles to faces every single day. You have a heart of gold and always will. To hug you was to hug an angel. You gave the feeling of warmth and love. Your charming personality touched people. Your laugh gave hope that a good day was ahead. Your smile lit up a room full of gloominess. Ears perked up to the sound of that sweet little voice. Heads would turn to see this beautiful young lady, there she was, our beautiful Bethann. Smiling from ear to ear, giggling, and enjoying the day as it passed. What I’d give to go back to high school and see you skipping down the halls making everyone wonder what it was that you had, that we didn’t, that just made you so happy all the time! Boy we envied you. There was nothing that could bring you down. You were too strong. You loved your friends, your family, you loved Jesus, and most of all you loved life. You’re so inspirational, and there will never be another like you. I think about you so much. So many things pass me each day that remind me of you. I just wish so bad this never happened. I have a very hard time accepting that its true, I just cant imagine the day I ever will be able to though. So often do I want to come home and tell you everything that I’ve experienced this year at school and to hear about you. You were always full of stories. Bethann, I just miss you so much that it makes me sick to my stomach. As long as I know you’re happy though I will make it through this. I love you more than I could ever put into words, and I cant wait to see you again..
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Date: Fri Apr 11 00:37:14 MST 2003
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the above entry was beautiful , very much so like Bethann.. she was a true golden hearted person.. we love and miss u angel
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Date: Fri Apr 11 05:06:08 MST 2003
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dear bethann, hi i miss you so much but i am sure you know that. everyone posts such womderful things about you bethann you were truly blessed with very caring friends. everyone misses you your friends and your family. another holiday is coming, easter, then we have graduation, senior trip, i forgot the prom, then it will be your birthday 6-13.then in july it should have been vacation time for the family and for you to go with beth it would have been 5 years this year that you and beth vacationed together, she misses you terribly, we all do. everyday is a struggle, i just try to take it a day at a time because that is all i can handle right now i am trying to be strong for dad and john but i am not doing too well i just want you to come home so we can be a family again. what lindsay briggs wrote was so true every word. i love you and miss you so much my life will never be the same. but i am going to do my best to keep your dad and john somewhat happy and keep johns life a little normal he has his whole future ahead of him and i am going to make sure he is okay i know you would want me to do that and i am sure that you will be helping me every day. thank you for the signs. i blow you kiss up to Heaven every morning when i go outside i hope you are catching them! i love you and miss you more each day. You are the best daughter i could have asked for and i feel very blessed to have been with you for 17 years. I know that you are with God now and you are still working your magic like you did here on earth. However that does not stop the pain of you not being here. I wiil cherish every moment i had with you always. i love you so much. you are so beautiful to me. love mom/barb MAY YOUR MEMORY BE ETERNAL!
Name: Brittany McGavitt
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Date: Sun Apr 13 17:04:37 MST 2003
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Bethann hey sweetie i never met you or talked to you before but your have reflected so many people at my school and i have to say your truly were a angel on earth and still are i keep you in my heart and pray every day i never really knew how much 1 person could effect so many until some 1 i truly loved we in serious condition and was rushed to the hospitial for his life luckly he is doing fine today and i hope you are watching over every 1 and i really hope that some day we will be able to meet LOVE you!!!!!!
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Date: Sun Apr 13 18:11:09 MST 2003
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Bethann, my angel, my life hasn't been the same since you left this world. There is a part of me that fills empty, and the pain, it not only hasnt gone away, but has grown stronger with the passing days. You entered into a dream of mine two nights ago, saying a few precious words, i will remember all my life. I woke up crying, screaming inside why this has to be, and wishing so bad this would of never happened. I would do anything just to see your beautiful and smiling face, and hug you like always once again. I know you are dong fine up there, but everyone down here is not, and you know that. I believe that is why God has given you the powers and the name of an Angel to send these incredible signs to your family and friends, saying you are okay. Even though i know you are okay, it still breaks my heart into pieces. To understand that you are not with us anymore, gives me this feeling, i never knew exsisted in me, that hurts so deep. Knowing i have to wait until we meet again to see your face, makes me cry everytime i think about it. Bethann, guide us through these hard times, help us to understand as best as we can. You graciously walked around earth loving everyone in your sight. I know you are doing the same in Heaven, but you should be here with us to do that. Bethann, teach us how to be more like you. So loving, caring, and happy. You left an imprint of happiness on the souls of each person who only knew you for just a second, would know they have inside them. My words cant explain how much I Love and Miss You Angel...until the sweet day we meet again...
Name: Chloe
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Date: Tue Apr 15 18:28:27 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann. I was thinking about you a lot today since it was such a beautiful day out. It brought back a lot of memories of summers past and all the good times we all shared together. I will cherish those times forever and will never forget all of the wonderful days spent with you. You always made whatever we did a memorable experience and the sun seemed to shine a little brighter when you were around. Thank you for the memories you have given us and for the strength you give each day. I love you and miss you more and more.
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Date: Wed Apr 16 21:23:48 MST 2003
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Dearest Bethann, Just a little note to let you know that I am thinking of you now... and always. I am looking out at the stars and saying a prayer for you and your family. I'll love you always baby.
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Date: Thu Apr 17 23:35:55 MDT 2003
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I'm just writing to let you know I still pray and think of you and your family every day. I will never forget about you, Brian and Candace. Your memories will always be eternal to me. I hope your in heaven smiling down...
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Date: Sat Apr 19 08:39:50 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann.. I'm just sitting here thinking about what we were doing last year on the day before Easter. I can remember we were together all day then at nite, me you Justin Chlo Allison and everyone else all went out to Bill's and then later on Allison hit that bunny. Then you stayed with me a couple nites through the week and during the next weekend we went down to Maryland. I remember us laughing and talking the whole way down there in the back of "Big Blue" with Sir. I can't believe how much things have changed. Me and Brandon were just talking last nite about how much us 3 used to be together, and how much fun we always had. Everything was perfect then, and all I want is for it to be like that again. It's almost impossible to understand, but for some reason that we don't know yet, God needs you more. I know that you already know this, but you are on my mind every single second of the day. I still talk to you all the time, and I know that you can hear me, but I would give up everything if I could still hear you. ;( I MISS YOU SO MUCH BETHANN AND I LOVE YOU FOREVER. I can't wait for the day I get to see you again. *YBFFAE* ~Beth
Name: You will always be in my heart
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Date: Sat Apr 19 08:57:56 MDT 2003
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i miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one i want to share it with. i miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the one who understands me so well. i miss you when i laugh and cry, because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow, and my tears disappear. i miss you all the time, but i miss you most when i lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life... Bethann I put this in Can's guestbook to.So I thought I'd put it in urs. I miss you so very much.Well Babe Just wanted to put this in here. I love and Miss you so very much. R.I.P. Baby Doll See ya someday soon and I cant wait!!! <3
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Date: Sun Apr 20 13:43:41 MDT 2003
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dear bethann, hey it is mom. it is easter sunday and we are all missing you like crazy. We did not do baskets this year, we did not go out to brunch. Everything has changed. we are at aunt joyce's house. I can't believe you are not here with us my mind will not let me accept the fact that you are gone. it all happened so suddenly it just wont sink in. i keep thinking that you are going to come home one day that would be the happiest day of my life. i miss you so badly , the pain is unbearable. I know you are in Heaven with God that is the only thing that helps me get by, knowing that we will be reunited with you one day. I have to hold on to that thought. I remember last year you said you wanted an Easter basket big enough to sit in next year because you would be graduating high school and we probably wouldn't do baskets after that. Dad and I joked about that many times throughout the year and we fully intended to get you a basket big enough to sit it and fill with all kind of stuff. You would have loved it, but instead we had to take flowers to the cememtary. I just don't understand any of this. i miss you and love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!My heart is broken, I hope you are happy. MAY YOUR MEMORY BE ETERNAL lOVE MOM, REMEMBER "you are so beautiful to me" I LOVE YOU----I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!
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Date: Sun Apr 20 13:43:42 MDT 2003
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dear bethann, hey it is mom. it is easter sunday and we are all missing you like crazy. We did not do baskets this year, we did not go out to brunch. Everything has changed. we are at aunt joyce's house. I can't believe you are not here with us my mind will not let me accept the fact that you are gone. it all happened so suddenly it just wont sink in. i keep thinking that you are going to come home one day that would be the happiest day of my life. i miss you so badly , the pain is unbearable. I know you are in Heaven with God that is the only thing that helps me get by, knowing that we will be reunited with you one day. I have to hold on to that thought. I remember last year you said you wanted an Easter basket big enough to sit in next year because you would be graduating high school and we probably wouldn't do baskets after that. Dad and I joked about that many times throughout the year and we fully intended to get you a basket big enough to sit it and fill with all kind of stuff. You would have loved it, but instead we had to take flowers to the cememtary. I just don't understand any of this. i miss you and love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!My heart is broken, I hope you are happy. MAY YOUR MEMORY BE ETERNAL lOVE MOM, REMEMBER "you are so beautiful to me" I LOVE YOU----I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!
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Date: Sun Apr 20 22:17:30 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann.. i kno im a couple minutes late but I just wanted to wish you a Happy Easter. Been thinkin about u tons, especially today. Tomorrow is 7 months,- unbelievable. I miss you so much and i LOVE you
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Date: Mon Apr 21 07:41:47 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann...7 months ago on this very morning I woke up to the most horrifying news of my life. I still cannot accept the fact that you are gone. I just cannot. I went to your grave yesterday and saw all the beautiful flowers that people have put there for you. I know that you are happy at all times and I wish that you could make me realize that I should be happy for you, too. Thank you so much for sending signs to let me know that you are still around. I remember when it was October 21 and I could not believe that one month had already passed. It is now April 21 and I cannot believe that 7 months have passed since everything happened. It's like it happened this morning, everything is so clear. I will try to be happy for you, Bethann, I promise. I love you more than words can describe and I'm missing you more and more every passing moment. Every morning that I awake is a day closer I am to seeing you again...I look forward to the mornings. Love you for eternity!!
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Date: Mon Apr 21 13:34:42 MDT 2003
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MY GIRL, I miss you more than ever. I have been thinking about you and talking to you so much. Yesterday was so sad, just like every holiday is now. It makes me think about how you should be home with your family. I know you had a wonderful Easter in heaven though. Now that spring is here and summer is on its way, I am getting so anxious and scared because I don't want the seasons to change again without you. It doesn't feel right at all. No matter how warm the weather is and how bright the sun is, I feel a heavy weight on my heart that I dread will never be lifted. Now that I'm getting new clothes for summer, it makes me so sad because I know that we would be so excited to share all of our new clothes with each other. It hurts too much and it hits too hard...the only thing left to do is be strong for you and smile for you. I sit here and think about special memories with you, and I realize that every moment with you echoes with laughter and happiness. I smile when I think back to you and Jawn picking on me all of the time and thinking it was so hilarious- you two would gang up on me and laugh so hard while I just sat there. Every time I came over, we spent hours together, and we had so much fun no matter what we did. It was classic when you imitated Major Payne- you sounded just like him, and I think you knew every single word to that movie! How about your giggle fits at the dinner table?- they were great...no one knew why you were laughing but you were just giggling away! The Ab Belt- we had to do our "sessions" every day! Remember when I said I wasn't scared of the basement, so you, Jawn, and Sean locked me in there for 10 minutes. Then I made you come with me and we sat at the bottom of the stairs and hugged each other because we were so scared! It was my favorite thing when you were telling stories and you used that raspy voice when you quoted someone. I would laugh so hard~ you had me doing it within a week! We used to say we were going to start a diet together, but we would both be eating junk food within an hour. We always talked about how we wanted to live together in a big house when we got older. I miss hearing your voice call me, "Jacqqq!" with that big smile...I just miss you so bad Bethann. I still feel like I am in a dream. We shared such a special friendship~ I can't even describe how much you mean to me. We were there for each other no matter what. I hope you know that I would do anything for you- then, now, and forever. I can't wait to see you again, angel...I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART. Love, JACQ
Name: Jawn, Jamie, Justin
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Date: Mon Apr 21 15:19:42 MDT 2003
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Bethann, yesterday was such a terrible day for all of us. Easter was always such a special time for the whole family especially me you jamie and justin. We always made that day so special and it was so hard to accept you not being there with us. The pain that we all felt was undescribable. All of the easter egg and easter basket hunts, brunch with the family, having so much fun, all of that is gone now. You always seemed to get the most money every year from the easter eggs. Remember last year it took you forever to find your basket. We didnt even acknowledge that it was easter yesterday, because its impossible to ever have another happy easter again with out you. We miss you so bad Bethann and the pain gets worse as the days progress. None of us can understand why this happened to you out of all of us, it dosent make sense. We think of you constantly Bethann and pray that you are happy up there. I know you had to miss us yesterday, we missed you so much. We love you so much Bethann and look forward very much to the day that all of us can be together again and share all of those good times again. Please watch over all of us and keep letting us know you are okay. Life will never be the same :( Love Jawn, Jamie and Justin
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Date: Thu Apr 24 13:54:34 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I am sitting here thinking of you on this beautiful day, remembering all the times our families spent growing up...The memories always bring a smile to my face, but the sadness that you are not here with us will not go away. So much has happened since you have left us and i am not sure what to make of all this. I can't understand why any of this has happened, but i know someday I will. I think of you constantly and I am always wondering what you are doing in heaven...I am sure you are spreading your beautiful smile to each and every angel! I am planting a garden of flowers and lily's in your memory, for everytime I look at them reminds me of all the beautiful things you have brought to so many lives. I miss and love you very much.
Name: Cheryl
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Date: Thu Apr 24 22:14:17 MDT 2003
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I still can't believe this happened, either, as many have said. Tributes to Bethann will never end! Everyone loved her. I have Bethann's pictures next to my phone and look at them all the time. She was a beautiful girl. I wish I had the opportunity to know her. I think about you guys ALL THE TIME...as my kids will attest because I talk to them about all that happened. I hope she continues sending you signs of her peace. I'll continue to keep you in my prayers. Love, Cheryl
Name: Jordan
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Date: Thu Apr 24 23:24:03 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethaz, I surely do miss you a ton. I was just reading your guestbook and I cannot even see what I am reading because my eyes are blurred with tears. Betha You are the first thought on my mind in the morning and the last thought before I go to sleep. I pray to you each day asking you to watch over everyone, especially Jawn and your mom and dad. They need you so much Bethann, especially now. This was supposed to be your time to move on and get out into the world, but you are experiencing something undescribable in heaven. Not only can you see the amazing things going on here on Earth, but you are with your family and your friends each and every day. You are going to be at graduation watching everyone, and you are so fortunate because you don't have to experience endless phone calls from your friends who are experiencing the next phases of their lives, you don't have to be on the other end of the phone listening to a friend cry because she is homesick, or is having guy trouble, or cannot handle the demands of college, Bethann, you get to be there with every friend, you get to actually watch over everyone, you get to see for yourself EVERYTHING that they are experiencing firsthand. Please Bethann, watch over all of them as they take the next step, the most fearful step of their lives, because I know for sure that you helped me get through my first year of college, you have guided me through so many dilemmas this year, and without you as my angel, I never would have done it. Bethann, please do me a favor, please give Pap and Aunt Nell a hug for me up there, tell them that I love them and miss them so much. Bethaz, please hug your mom and dad and Jawnerz every morning and night and help them to feel at ease knowing that you are fine and happy and also to get through each and every day, and also help them to actually become excited and anticipating the next time they will see you...because it seems as though your life has flashed before their eyes, but in no time, they will be with you once again...but until that time, help them to do what they have to do here on this earth each day. Please, they need you! Your friends need you, I need you. I tell Jared about you all the time Bethann, he was there with me that horrible morning... he held me as I broke down... he thinks you are so beautiful i show him your pictures and I talk about you all the time... You are truly the most beautiful angel in heaven. I know it!You used to always help me with our problems.. haha.. you are the best! Words cannot describe how much I love you and miss you..."not a day goes by that I don't think of you after all this time you're still with me it's true." Betha, the day I see you will be one of the happiest of my life, I will squeeze you so hard..." Every now and then soft as breath upon my skin, I feel you come back again, oh I believe. I KNOW THAT THERE ARE ANGELS WATCHING OVER ME, I BELIEVE, OH I BELIEVE." Love you Bethaz, sooo much forever! JORDAN
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Date: Sat Apr 26 08:52:24 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann... well tonite is the 80's dance. I am excited about it but at the same time, I'm a little bit nervous because you are the one who loved the 80's music the most so you should be there. We have worked so hard to make it all turn out good. It seems like just yesterday, you were here with us talking about how fun it would be to have a dance like this for a fundraiser, and it hurts so bad that now we are doing it in memory of you and Candace. We tried our best to make it exactly the way you would want it. It is going to be really hard with you not being there to dance and sing and get ready with us, but I hope that you know that you are here in our hearts, forever. I love you so much Bethann, and I would give anything for you to be here in person, especially tonite because we would have soo much fun doing our hair, getting dressed, doing our makeup and all that stuff. I miss you sooo bad babe, it's too much to deal with. ;( I can't wait for the day I get to see you again! YBFFAE ~Beth
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Date: Sun Apr 27 18:01:43 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann. I just read what your mom wrote about you wanting an Easter basket big enough to sit in. It left such a silly, yet beautiful picture in my mind. I think about you all the time and miss you so much. Angel, please keep watching over us. Love, Suzie
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Date: Mon Apr 28 20:06:21 MDT 2003
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I dont know any of you. I fell upon this page by accident. I started to look around and realized that something terrible happened to a pretty wonderful person. I sat and read each reflection and memory of people I knew nothing about. I now feel like I know Bethann at least a little. My prayers go out to you. I lost a 24 year old sister 6 years ago. I still hurt and likey will for ever. The first year is the hardest. Keep the faith and trust that she is still amongst you all. She sounded like a beautiful daughter, sister, friend, cousin and human being. I prayed for each of you with each reflection I read. God Bless you all ... Sincerly ... no one you know but someone who cared enough to say hello ...
Name: chrissy
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Date: Wed Apr 30 18:20:25 MDT 2003
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bethann.. i*ve been writing to you in other ways and talking to you a lot lately, but i realized tonite that it*s been a while since you*ve written to me here. i*ve been thinking about you so much, as i have been for the past 7 months, esspecially now since i*m going through such a rough time with friendships. it*s been so hard without you around, and without anybody to really share my memories and thoughts with since we ran in such different social circles. but the other nite when i had that dream about you and the stars, and then i woke up and came into the computer room and that star was somehow lying on the floor next to me, it made me feel so incredibly good, that perhaps it *was* a sign that you were still watching out for me and letting me know you were there. it reminded me of the nite of one of our 8th grade sleepovers and i had that nightmare, and i didn*t even have to say anything, you were just there for me unlike anybody else. i*m so glad that i was lucky enough to know you for 12 years of my life, and that i was granted the privilage of being your friend, even though over time we weren*t as close. i miss you betha, but i know you*re still around, watching out for those who know you and love you, and you always will be.
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Date: Wed Apr 30 18:21:26 MDT 2003
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bethann.. i*ve been writing to you in other ways and talking to you a lot lately, but i realized tonite that it*s been a while since I*ve written to you here. i*ve been thinking about you so much, as i have been for the past 7 months, esspecially now since i*m going through such a rough time with friendships. it*s been so hard without you around, and without anybody to really share my memories and thoughts with since we ran in such different social circles. but the other nite when i had that dream about you and the stars, and then i woke up and came into the computer room and that star was somehow lying on the floor next to me, it made me feel so incredibly good, that perhaps it *was* a sign that you were still watching out for me and letting me know you were there. it reminded me of the nite of one of our 8th grade sleepovers and i had that nightmare, and i didn*t even have to say anything, you were just there for me unlike anybody else. i*m so glad that i was lucky enough to know you for 12 years of my life, and that i was granted the privilage of being your friend, even though over time we weren*t as close. i miss you betha, but i know you*re still around, watching out for those who know you and love you, and you always will be.
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Date: Thu May 1 21:12:29 MDT 2003
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Beathann, It is hard to believe that you left this earth only a few months ago. Each day feels like a year without your presence here. You made my lunches so much fun with your stories and your voice, especially that laugh of yours. That is what I hold so dear to my heart. The way you were able to light up a room with your happiness and smile. You always had the best sleepovers I have been to. We shared so many stories and gossip we heard in school. You made me feel like I was always part the crew. Every moment I feel like when the world isn't such a great place because your gone, I just remember all of the memories you have given me. My favorite ones are the day we went to the baseball game and kings, and after our junior prom. The way of just being yourself was what I admired most of you and your determination to have all 11 of us together. You always felt that no one should be left out. But know you are the one who is not here and you have taken that journey to heaven, and I could only hope for the time when I can see your gorgeous face again and share in the memories of our lives together. I know you are watching me everyday and sharing in my moments in life, especially shopping, and I can still hear your voice asking me to do your hair and make-up. I would give anything to do that again, but you really never needed anything done because you were so beautiful and I can bet anything that you are the most beautiful angel in heaven. Please be with us 10 always cuz I know we feel that you are. We love you, Our Friend, Our Angel.
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Date: Sat May 3 19:04:12 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I was going through some old stuff and I found a card from you. It must have been from when you were in kindergarden because the writing was that of a childs. It was to me your Godmother on my birthday. It said I love you , Love Your Godchild Bethann. It also said I Miss You all in capital letters. Oh Bethann, I MISS YOU so much! The void that this has left in our lives is so immense and it will never be filled. I would give anything to call you on the phone right now and hear that voice of yours---or hear you scream at the top of your lungs for Barb to pick- up the phone. I miss you so much Baby. I feel you near sometimes. Please always watch over me and everyone else. I cannot put into writing everything I feel---but I know that if I have you, beautiful Angel watching over me it is more than I could ever ask for, except to have you back on earth with us. I know that you will not be back here physically. However, I will see you again in Heaven and until then you are in my mind as lovely as you can be. Please keep listening to my whispers. I Love You so much Bethann. My sweet sweet Godchild from Heaven.
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Date: Sun May 4 12:49:49 MDT 2003
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dear Bethann, hey angel how are doing up in Heaven? I can't believe it is another month already. Time seems to be going by too fast. Everything seems to be one big blur to me. Nothing makes sense anymore without you. I just wanted to check in. I love and miss you so much it still seems unbelievable that you are gone. father george blessed your grave today it is a tradition of the orthodox church to bless graves the following sunday after easter. please keep sending signs they really do help Bethann, my sweet angel. I will always love you with all my heart. MAY YOUR MEMORY BE ETERNAL!!!!!!! LOVE MOm
Name: Shaila "you dont know me"
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Date: Sun May 4 19:56:46 MDT 2003
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bethann..you dont know me and i honestly dont know you but i came upon the link to this web page thru your brothers profile...and it is beautiful...i can see by all the entries that you very much loved and you are missed greatly..i know its extremyly hard to lose someone dear to you because just recently "April 27,2003" i lost my best friend in a car acciedent prom night and ive been struggeling each and everyday, but thank god i have your brother as a friend to tell me itll be ok. hes almost the only person that knows the pain im going through. but i want you to know that you are in my prayers and i hope your living a happy life and serving god as the best angel up there. sweet dreams.
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Date: Tue May 6 19:16:39 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann. I just got back from Florida yesterday and I must say I thought about you constantly while I was away. It helped to see the ocean again, yet it brought back so many happy memories. I found myself crying when I was seemingly in paradise. But I know that the paradise you now live in is incomprehensible to us on earth. I know you are up in heaven getting the best tan imaginable just like you always wanted!! Things just aren't the same without you here Beef. I miss you so much, I can't even describe it. It's been over 7 months now, but still the pain remains. I will remember you for the wonderful person you were and always will be for the rest of my life. Your strong spirit and beautiful smile will live on forever. I love you angel.
Name: Justin
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Date: Thu May 8 21:27:51 MDT 2003
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Bethann, summer time is coming around and it doesnt feel the same without you. I remember just last year when you came to my house for a week and how fun it was for both of us. You came out with all my friends and we even went to the fair together. We also had a great time at the beach with so many memories that I will charish for life. You made my life so much brighter in every way and I miss so much. I love you Bethann.
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Date: Sun May 11 07:37:53 MDT 2003
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Date: Sun May 11 09:38:55 MDT 2003
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dear angel, hey how are you. it is mothers day today and we are all sad because you are not here with us. although you are not here physically you are in my heart and my thoughts always. i am truly blessed to have such a wonderful daughter, son and husband. you will always be with us bethann. it is so hard but we are trying to do our best, we will always remember you and love you always. i will always be your mother and johns mother, nothing can change that. everyone in the entire family misses you bethann, things just aren't right without you it is too quiet. we are going to plant a flower garden in your memory it is going to be beautiful just like you! I WILL LOVE YOU ALWAYS!!!!!! MAY YOUR MEMORY BE ETERNAL LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER MOM
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Date: Wed May 14 08:49:44 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann, I was writing you a post on mothers day evening when My computer froze up and I didnt finish it. I was writing to tell you that i had got mom some flowers on mothers day from all us. It was too hard for me to get her a card, remember every year we would always compete to see whos card she would like more, that was always a lot of fun. Remember we would always go buy her gifts together. Similar to being alone in that situation, I feel like I am alone all the time with out you Bethann, You are everything to me and I still cant believe that I have to live the rest of my life with out you here. I think about you constantly everyday and Everyone misses you terribly. I just wanted to let you know how bad I miss you and how much I love you, Sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night.. I feel like your in the room, I hope that you are. I love you sis Love always - your big bro and best friend Jawn
Name: angie
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Date: Wed May 14 21:14:24 MDT 2003
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dearest Bethann.... just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you...and smiling. Summer is coming and I was just thinking of the time that I bought you a tiny chaise lounge to put next to mine so that we could "catch some rays" together in the yard. I also thought about the time that we took you, your brother and your cousins to Mingo Park...Justin was only 3 years old and we let him drive the car! thinking back, that was a silly thing to do..but we had fun. hope that you are having fun in heaven..love always..Angie
Name: angie
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Date: Thu May 15 07:02:19 MDT 2003
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Good Morning Bethann! After last nights post, I stayed awake for awhile and thought of the funny things you and John did when you were little. That day that we went to Mingo, with my boyfriend of the time Bob, it was a laugh a minute. After driving around in the parking lot with Justin on Bob's lap, we parked the car and let you guys play in the water and mud. Little dirtballs! And on top of that, you guys had sticky ice cream... Then, for some reason we started talking politics...a pretty interesting subject for 3-6 year olds! We had a big debate over who was going to be president..Dukakis or Bush. Bob was getting so mad because you kids were all against him and yelling and being silly. Then when we got home, Bob wanted to play with John's remote control car and they were both fighting over who's turn it was! We still laugh at that...a 5 year old and a 28 year old not sharing toys. Then when I dated a guy named Tom, you guys called him Tommy Salami... he didn't last long either. Good thing that you guys didn't get a hold of George too much, to scare him off too! He always thought that we were loud and crazy when we got together...but we were. I always enjoyed my time over at your house with you and your family...it was always fun and everyone did nothing but tell stories and laugh, and laugh, and laugh some more. We miss your laughter Bethann...but you have given us many memories to cherish. Remember when the crayola bunny came to visit your yard one Easter when you were little? I do!! What a smile on your face that day! I hope that you continue to smile and to make others smile as well. Your signs and your memories are special to all, and comforting as well. You are always in our hearts and in our minds and you will be forever our angel.... Love you.
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Date: Thu May 15 15:42:37 MDT 2003
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Now you're gone, I wonder why, You left me hear, I think about it on, and on, and on, and on, and on, and on again. I know you're never coming back, I hope that you can hear me, I'm waiting to hear from you.. Until i do, You're gone away, I'm left alone, A part of me is gone, And I'm not moving on, So wait for me, I know the day will come.. I'll meet you there, No matter where life takes me to, I'll meet you there, And even if I need you here, I'll meet you there. I wish I could have told you, The things I kept inside, But now I guess its just too late. So many things remind me of you, I hope that you can hear me, I miss you, This is goodbye, One last time.. You're gone away, I'm left alone, A part of me is gone, And I'm not moving on, So wait for me, I know the day will come.. I'll meet you there, No matter where life takes me to, I'll meet you there, And even if I need you here, I'll meet you there, No matter where life takes me to, I'll meet you there, And even if I need you here, I'll meet you there. I'll meet you there.... And where I go you'll be there with me, Forever you'll be right here with me.. I'll meet you there, No matter where life takes me to, I'll meet you there, And even if I need you here, I'll meet you there, No matter where life takes me.. I'll meet you there, And even if I need you.. I'll meet you there... I'll meet you there... I'll meet you there.. Hey Bethann, I put those Simple Plan lyrics in here because they are so true. Everyone here loves you and misses you so much. Please watch over your family. RIP hunnie!!!
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Date: Thu May 15 19:53:14 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann. Well, I just got back from the beach 2 days ago, and it was nice to get away, but all I could think about was all the wonderful times we shared together at the beach. It made me happy to think about them, but at the same time, it hurts soo bad because all I want is for you to be back so we can make more memories. I still pray to God every single day that he will give you back.. I know that it is impossible and could never happen but there is a first time for everything and I can't help but wish for it to come true. I didn't go to Myrtle Beach, I don't really think I could go back there for a while, but in the last 5 years, I have only been to the beach like 1 time that I wasn't with you so it was really hard. All day while I was laying out, I pictured you laying next to me because I know that was one of your favorite things to do. And I thought about how we would hold hands or all our talks and stupid stuff like that, that we would do while we were laying there. I imagined the conversations that I thought we would be having and I could hear your voice and your laugh so clear. I miss that so much. One morning, I took a really long walk just to think about everything and I sat there and stared out into the ocean while all our memories ran through my head. We definitely had millions of them, but it just makes it seem so much more impossible that all of this could actually be true. It is now almost 8 months later, and it hasn't set in yet that it isn't a nightmare, it is reality. Then with prom being tomorrow, that will be another hard day. I remember how gorgeous you looked last year, you stood out from everyone else. I am really happy though because I am wearing some of your jewelry, it makes me feel closer to you. And I know that you will be there with us but all I want is to be able to get pictures with each other, and for you to be in our limo, and for all us girls to dance together at prom. You def. had the best dance moves we have ever seen!! I know that you will be with us tomorrow, like you are every single day, but it just isn't the same, and it's not how it should be. I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU SOO INCREDIBLY MUCH BETHANN, I can't wait to see you again. Please be with your family and all of us tomorrow especially because it will be so hard without you! Love always, *YBFFAE* ~Beth
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Date: Fri May 16 16:43:31 MDT 2003
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hey angel it is mom, today is the prom and you are not here. it is just not right you should be here. i wonder what color dress you would have picked. you would have looked beautiful in any color. beth is wearing the jewlry you wore last year, i was glad for that. you are really lucky to have such a wonderful best friend bethann. i have the video from last prom that i taped but i still cannot watch it, it is too painful. i wish so much that you were here with us. aunt claire put a dozen pink roses at the cemetary they are so pretty. we just stand there and cry we miss you so much. grandma came here to spend the day with me she misses you so much. we all love and miss you so much. please be happy. love mom forever
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Date: Fri May 16 23:22:02 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann... we missed seeing you at the promenade. I know everyone there was thinking about u at some point. When I saw all of your girlfriends, my heart just broke into a million pieces. I kept thinking .. she should be here with them. Its just not fair. I saw Beth tonight, I got to talk to her for a while. She's trying so hard to be strong and pull herself back together. She wore your jewelry, and she looked absolutely beautiful. I know you were with her tonight, and all of your bestfriends. Your friends are being so strong, I know you must be with them, or else they could not get through this. We talked about last year at prom, when you were dancing the night away doing all of your funny dance moves. You deffinitely had the most unique moves on the floor,... very "Bethann" like moves. :) I think everyone knows what I'm talking about, all you have to do is watch the prom video. I swear you stood out from everyone there. You looked so elegant, like a real princess. I pulled out my pictures from last years prom too. I just cant get over what has happened. It feels like we were smiling for those pictures just yesturday. You used to tell me I looked like your little kid in them because I was so much shorter than you. I can remember on commencement taking our picture together and you telling me how proud you were of me. Its so strange, I can sit here and stare at this picture, and my mind continues to reject reality. I still ask the question why over and over. It will never ever make sense to me. I know I say it every time I come here, but I'll say it over and over. You are so special... so caring and warm hearted. You had a special gift, and that was to really touch people. Anytime I come to this page and write to you, I can't even believe I am doing this. We all miss you so much. Every little thing about you. This is a hard time of the year, especially for your family. Be with them and try your best to comfort them. You have been on my mind all night tonight. I just wanted to tell you I love you...
Name: Allyson C.
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Date: Sat May 17 20:30:46 MDT 2003
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Dear Bethann, I have been thinking about you alot recently. I still can't believe that you are gone. Ryan always tells me that you were the cutest girl that he has ever met. Everyone misses you so much Bethann. Please watch over your family and friends and always remember that they love you. I will never forget you sweetie. Love always, Allyson
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Date: Sat May 17 21:35:03 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann...It's a long lost neighbor! I've been on your sight sooo many times, start reading what everyone else wrote, and for some reason find myself speechless...Reality still does not seem real. I blind myself with the thought that you are on vacation...i think because it dulls the hurt..Gina misses you...She had some parties and I know she missed having your input with "Fashion"...Remember last year she had this big party at he girl's scout camp and you 2 had plans to straighten her hair?... I didn't know that was the plan.. Time ran out because you had to leave, and you dropped her off with half her hair done...This year she had the same party and this is where I received a sign you were OK and were looking after mom...After I dropped Gina off, for some reason I found myself driving up Broadlawn...I usually avoid that road...anyhow, my mind was racing 1,000 miles a minute, with all these thoughts and emotions, wondering if you're doing ok, if your family has strength to hold on, then i looked up in the sky and there it was... a Cross! I chill went through my body and tears filled my eyes..as it still does when I tell this story....It was a cloudy day and the sun was shining through the cloud looking as if it was coming from heaven...I immediately called Angie and she saw it too, though she didn' see the rays of sun...I wished I had a camera to share this with everyone...I don't know how I drove because I was mesmorized at the sky...When I got to the end of the road, I noticed another line was crossed on a slant...at the time I didn't realize it but it was the orthodox cross...I drew it the next day and Gina said that looks like their cross...That will stay with me forever...as well as many memories our families have shared throughout the years...Those memories will let you live forever in our minds and hearts..Love You...
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Date: Mon May 19 20:33:10 MDT 2003
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Bethann I didn't know you personally, but I would have liked too. I was very close with Candace. You two were both the prettiest girls, and now angels there will ever be. I look up to both you and Candace. I can't say how sorry I am that this had to happen to such great girls, who didn't deserve this at all. R.I.P angel! you will be forever missed by everyone
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Date: Wed May 21 09:46:19 MDT 2003
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I had to go to a memorial service for a work friend of mine in Philadelphia Monday. I really liked this guy but I found myself thinking of you throughout the service. One thing the Rabbi said kept gnawing at me: "it's not the number of days in the life, it's the amount of life in the days that count." You win Bethann. I love you.
Name: Mandi
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Date: Wed May 21 10:37:33 MDT 2003
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"Would you know my name if I saw you in heaven? Would it be the same if I saw you in heaven? I must be strong and carry on, 'cause I know I don't belong here in heaven." I use that song alot to get me through the rough times when I think about the close friend I lost recently. I did not know Bethann, but some of her friends. This site is amazing, and I wish there was one I could go to for everyone I have lost, it really seems like this site is doing good for alot of people. You are all one big support group, and by the looks of it you are all amazingly strong people. Keep the faith that Bethann is still with you everyday and you will live to see brighter days.
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Date: Wed May 21 21:37:23 MDT 2003
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8 months and still, not 1 day, have u not been on my mind atleast once an hour. I LOVE U.
Name: Claribel
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Date: Wed May 21 23:25:17 MDT 2003
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I didn't know Bethann,but it is great to see from other people how great of a person she is. My brother who is 23 is in the hospital in critical condition and doctors say that he might not make it due to an accident that he suffered yesterday. A friend told me about Bethann and gave me this website. It has really inspired me and everyone that knew Bethann has been touched by an angel. Bethann, if you can read this please give my brother a hand if your close to his soul wherever he may be or will go, I love you nestitor and i'll pray for him just like i'll pray fo Bethann for as long as i live.
Name: Jacki
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Date: Thu May 22 18:55:39 MDT 2003
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MY GIRL, You are always on my mind. Being home for the summer makes the reality of this even harsher, and I don't even know what to do with myself. I got to see you every day last summer, and my heart is breaking because I would do anything just to see you for a moment now. Life has changed so much since you've been gone. I don't understand anything...it's just one big blur. This is my worst nightmare, and I still cannot accept it. I never will. Everyone thinks about you a lot angel...I hear them talk about you and how special you are. I also see the pain in their eyes when they talk about how much they miss you. There is only one in this world like you. Your presence naturally brought countless smiles to everyone around you. I can honestly say that you are one of the few people that never parted with their inner child. You always had that happiness within your heart, and I felt that happiness come out within me every time I was with you. You inspire me in so many ways...I remember your encouraging words and hold them so dear to my heart. You really grew up to be a bright young lady, Bethann, and I am so proud of you. You always had so many kind words to say about everyone, and everyone speaks so kindly of you...and every word is so true. I will always think of you as my little sister and great friend. My heart cries out for you, and always will until the day we meet again. I think of and pray for you and your family throughout each day, and I know you are giving them the strength and comfort they need to get by, especially now. You are the sweetest and most gorgeous angel in the heavens above. I miss your breathtaking smile, but it is so clear in my mind and always will be. I will never let you go...you are right here in my heart, mind and soul. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART. Love always, JACQ
Name: Megan
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Date: Thu May 22 20:40:55 MDT 2003
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hey, a couple days ago i walked into ms newans room when they was cleaning up and everyone was doing the dishes and drying them off, it reminded me of the time we had to do dishes and we wouldnt even wash them just stick them back in there all dirty hahaha but anyways hope you doing aight up there..i gotta go tho <3 megan
Name: mom
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Date: Sun Jun 1 07:39:24 MDT 2003
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hey bethann, it is june 1,2003. another month and you are not here with us. we have graduation, your 18th birthday, and fathers day to deal with this month. please help us get thru bethann we need your strength. i wish you were here, i love you and miss you more than anything. you are so beautiful to me, love forever and ever mom
Name: Dana*
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Date: Sun Jun 1 11:50:38 MDT 2003
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Bethann- It is almost graduation and I wish that you were here with your friends, although I know you will be looking them over and smiling down. Everyone misses you more than you can imagine... and in this month, I will pray that God sends strength to your family. I love you & miss you so much!! ~Dana*
Name: Chlo
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Date: Sun Jun 1 12:58:34 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann. Sorry I haven't written in a while but things have been so busy lately. But this doesn't mean I don't still think about you every second of every day. Graduation is this coming Friday and your 18th on the 13th. It is going to be so hard. We all want you here with us to celebrate these happy times. But no one can concentrate on the happiness of these occasions since we can't see you smile. The emptiness we all feel is so bad right now. Please watch over your family that needs your blessings now. And look out for us Bethann just like you always did. I love you so much. ~Chlo
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Date: Tue Jun 3 08:26:16 MDT 2003
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I'D LIKE TO EXTEND MY SINCERE CONGRADULATIONS TO THE CLASS OF 2003.ALL OF YOU HAD TO GO THROUGH SOME PRETTY ROUGH TIMES SINCE THE TRAGIC LOSS OF OUR ANGELS BETHANN AND CANDICE. ITS UNFAIR THAT THIS HAPPEND. MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS WILL BE WITH BOTH OF THESE FAMILIES ON FRIDAY NIGHT. AND TO THE CLASS OF 2003 PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, DO NOT DRINK AND DRIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Name: Rach
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Date: Tue Jun 3 17:52:15 MDT 2003
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heeeyyy bethann! its been so long n i dont even kno what to say. i think about u everyday, but usually i just smile n look up at the sky n i just kno ur there watchin me, then ill just go on n try not to think so much cuz it hurts too bad...well today it rained like all day n i thought of u n i came on ur site n started reading...i havent read this for so long...n ive been cryin for probly the last half hour now...i miss u so much...its like all of a sudden it has hit me for the first time all over again that ur not here...graduation is friday n i would have luved to see u walk the platform n get that diploma that u deserve so much n then come find u afterwards n get a pic with u...i kno ull still be there tho...n ill be thee thinkin bout u....i miss u so much, n sumtimes it hurts so bad...but im gonna keep smilin n lookin up to the sky cuz i kno thats would u would want me to do instead of cry lol... i love bethann!
Name: Allison
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Date: Wed Jun 4 08:04:31 MDT 2003
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Bethann.. Sorry that I haven't written to you in awhile. I had a dream last night which you were in. I have been thinking about you a lot lately, especially with graduation and your birthday coming up. I miss your smile and laugh that could brighten up anyone's day. Please be with your family and give them the strength. And Bethann.. please continue to watch over us. I love and miss you tons Angel!
Name: Krista
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Date: Wed Jun 4 08:24:11 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I have been thinking of you nonstop lately and I have come to realize that I havent written to you on here in a long time. Mexico was beautiful but on the second day, I looked into the endless blue ocean and saw a rainbow stretching across the ocean. By then my mind raced with the thoughts of you and your gorgeous smile but later that day while I was snorkeling, a rainbow formed around the sun. Bethann there is no doubt in my mind you were with me on that day (that was my dads anniversary with my stepmother) because it was a very hard day, but isnt every day. If that could not be enough reassurance that you are well and watching over, that very next day, some guys by the pool had gotten my attention and pointed to the heavens. Again, that rainbow around the sun was there. Bethann, I told those guys the signifigance of that rainbow and every rainbow that I see, and it made them cry. Now whenever they say they see a rainbow, they are callin it a "Bethann." I carry your picture everywhere and showed it to as many people as I could, just so they can see what a gorgeous friend I have that is also my angel. That time in Mexico was spent a lot of the time alone because all I could think of was you and my father. Monday at graduation practice was so hard, I kept looking for you. The banqet was even harder that nite because you are supposed to be there and winning most attractive and best personality. Bethann, I know you were with us that nite and always but sometimes it seems so unreal that physically you are not with us. I keep thinking I will wake up from this nightmare and that this didnt happen to me. I want you to come back more than anything, but I know that is not a reality. I wish you were with us at prom and dancing with us, but again you were there, as our angel. Many changes have happened amongst our group of girls, and let me tell you it is the hardest thing. Bethann sometimes it is just so overwhelming that I break down. I know you see us struggling thru our daily routines because we dont have our Bethann anymore but please watch over all of you loved ones and keep guiding us to that brighter tomorrow when the gates of heaven are opened and you are there greeting us with open arms. This summer will be so difficult, maybe more than ever because we were together more and us girls basically did everything together. God Bless sweet angel, I LOVE YOU...
Name: angie p.
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Date: Wed Jun 4 21:39:37 MDT 2003
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beautiful pictures! my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. the next few weeks will be rough for all, but with hope and prayers, some of the pain can be eased...eased, but not erased. johnny, barb and john...my love, my heart, and my prayers go out to you.
Name: Brandon
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Date: Thu Jun 5 01:21:23 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I cant believe its been more than 8 months since you left! I miss you so much and everytime I think of you I dont believe that your really gone its just not possible for something liek this to happen. Lately there have been so many times when I see a person that I dont even know and they dont even look anything like you but the first time I look at them its you and I have to look twice and once i realize its not you i get so sad. Your birthday is next week and I am supposed to work that night but i dont know how Ill be able to because Ill be thinking about you the whole time and how much fun me you and Jer had last year because everyone else went to the Incubus concert and didnt bother to ask us. lol. I love you and miss you so much and I know one day soon Ill get to see you again. Love~ Brandon
Name: Aunt Joyce
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Date: Thu Jun 5 19:40:57 MDT 2003
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Dear Bethann, Your voice still echoes, Your life still inspires, Your light still shines...and always will. I am so thankful you were and always will be a part of our lives. You live on in so many hearts...including mine. Bethann we miss you so much. This is all so hard. Remember how much we love you and miss you. I LOVE YOU
Name: ANGIE (P) GRANT
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Date: Fri Jun 6 12:57:02 MDT 2003
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BARB & FAMILY TODAY IS JUNE 6TH,GRADUATION DAY. I KNOW THAT TODAY WILL BE A HARD DAY FOR ALL OF YOU. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I AM PRAYING FOR ALL OF YOU TO HELP YOU GET THROUGH IT. GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU. THE SENIOR PICTURES OF BETHANN ARE GEORGOUS. LOVE YA ANGIE
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Date: Fri Jun 6 13:12:53 MDT 2003
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hey B, today is supposed to be u n candace's big day...but ya kno what? it still is...im gonna be sittin in the bleachers wishing that u are there n even tho i cant see u i kno u really will be there. im gonna pretend that i see u takin that walk across the stage in front of everyone to get ur diploma with that big smile streached across ur face. i got to have my day last year n it was the happiest day ever. i wish u could have had the same, but i kno on my day luke was there with us smiling down so i kno both u and candace will be doing the same thing for ur class of 2003. they really miss u n love u so much. n so do i...its not the same without u here...well bethann...have fun watchin everyone at graduation tonight n walk with those that need u beside them especially ur family...LOVE U ALWAYS & FOREVER!
Name: mom
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Date: Fri Jun 6 14:37:52 MDT 2003
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dear bethann, today is graduation day. i would give anything to see your smiling and walking across the stage to get your diploma. Nothing is right since you left us. I cannot accept the fact that you are gone and i never will. i keep thinking you are going to come home to us one day. i miss you and love you more than you will ever know. you are so beautiful to me LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER MOM
Name: mom
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Date: Fri Jun 6 14:52:52 MDT 2003
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dear bethann, please don't ever forget our song "you are so beautiful to me" one day we will sing it to each other again. i love you my heart is broken. love mom
Name: angie p.
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Date: Mon Jun 9 21:26:49 MDT 2003
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bethann you were greatly missed at the graduation ceremonies. i thought of you and how happy and proud you and your family would have been. you keep on working those little signs for everyone to let us know that you are near. you probably had a part in the weather too on friday because it was cold on thursday and rainy on saturday, but sandwiched in between those 2 days was a warm and sunny day for your friends to graduate..always thinking of others first. waht a nice gift to your class. i wish that you could be here with us, i know that you are here in spirit and that is the best that we can do. take care of your family, give them happy thoughts and make them smile as the remember you.
Name: Sue DeBerardinis
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Date: Wed Jun 11 10:53:52 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann. I'm just writing to let you know how much you and your family have been in my thoughts the past few days. Please keep watching over all of us. Miss you and love you. Suzie
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Date: Wed Jun 11 21:22:15 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I was thinking about ya so I just wanted to let you know. I think about you everyday but I'm sure you already knew that. I know your doing just fine and you must be sooo happy. I'm sorry Bethann that I didn't get to know you better! I will regret it for the rest of my life. I'm sooo sorry this happened to you Bethann. But you have taught me such a lesson and have changed my life forever. You were so beautiful and so sweet. Everyone misses you so much. Thanks for the great weather on graduation! I know that you and Can had a hand in that. I'm sorry that you couldnt be there to be with your friends But I know that you were watching and I positive that you were in every single persons heart and mind in that stadium. Well BethanN I'm gonna go now but I will write again to you soon. Keep watching over your family they need you and help them to smile again. I love you Bethann! Rest In Peace angel
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Date: Thu Jun 12 22:07:22 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann! This is the first time i've writen in here, sorry it's taken so long. It all still seems like a horrible nightmare. Today would have been your 18th Birthday, I drove past the site tonight, I couldn't stop though. As I drove by all I could think about was you and how beautiful you were. I hope your having a wonderful 18th birthday up in Heaven. Please watch over your family and your dear friends. They need you all the time! Miss you like crazy, Happy Birthday! Love ya
Name: Ashley
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Date: Thu Jun 12 22:38:45 MDT 2003
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Hey Hunni Bun! It's 12:26 A.M. I just wanted to say Happy 18th Birthday Sweetheart! I miss you soo much and there isn't a second that goes by that I don't think about you. Graduation was just last week and even though you weren't there physically you were still with me the whole time. I prayed and asked you to help us have a nice day and we got it...It was beautiful! Thank You hun! I hope you and Candace are enjoying yourselves up there. I also hope that you have a great birthday!I can't wait until the day comes that I can see your Gorgeous face again and hear your goofy laugh along with that sparkling smile! I love and miss you soo much and your memory with always be with me. You will FOREVER be in my heart and you will FOREVER and ALWAYS be my BEST FRIEND! Happy Birthday my Hunni Bun Benan! I Love You!
Name: dane
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Date: Thu Jun 12 23:14:55 MDT 2003
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hey bethann...sorry i haven't written to you in awhile...it's so hard and words can't even express anything...i just wanted to wish you a happy 18th birthday. i know you're havin a blast up there like you always do. everyone missed you greatly at graduation on friday, thank you for the wonderful weather tho. well bethann i gotta get goin...miss you and thinkin about u everyday...cant wait to see ya again...dane
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Date: Fri Jun 13 00:46:47 MDT 2003
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MY GIRL, Happy Birthday, sweet angel. I never thought that I would have to send your birthday wish like this. Today is going to be a very hard day, especially for your family, but I know that you’re taking special care of them. I remember the surprise party that your family and Beth planned for you two years ago. You loved it. Your family is so close and they love you so much~ they would do anything to see you smile. You appreciated everything in life because you’re such a kind and warm person… the type of person I just always wanted to hug. Thank you for bringing me so much happiness. I would do anything to go back one year ago today. I remember the exact look on your face when Jawn and I gave you the Ab Belt~ you were so excited that you jumped up and down and put it on right away. I am so sorry that I couldn’t go out to dinner for your birthday last year...I felt really bad then and I still do now. I miss your energy so very much Bethann. I miss your bright smile and bubbly, never ending laughter. I miss your warm hugs, adorable voice, and funny jokes. I miss your crazy stories, amazing friendship...everything. I MISS YOU...more than anything. I can’t imagine how much fun you will be having on your special day in heaven. I think about you constantly and carry you in my heart wherever I go. I know that you are happy with God. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART. Love, JACQ
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Date: Fri Jun 13 00:56:01 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann.. well today is your 18th birthday and I can't believe it came so fast. I wish so bad that tonite we could be going out having fun celebrating you turning 18. But I know that you are having your best birthday yet in heaven, and you are also with us as we celebrate down here. All I have been thinking about this week is the past years what we have done on your birthday. I remember when you turned 14, Barb took me and you to the wave pool with your brother and Dave Nolder. I remember wearing our matching American Eagle halters, and you got that irredescent stuff for your birthday. We were obsessed with it. All along we thought it was eye shadow, so we wore it everywhere, and we never understood why people made fun of us all the time because of how bad it creased on our eyelids.. then a long time later, I think it was even a couple years later, you finally turned it over and realized that it was some kind of high-lighter for your cheeks and thats why it looked so stupid on our eyes.. even though we thought we looked real good.. haha. Then when you turned 15, me you and Barb went to lunch at Olive Garden and thats when I gave you our best friends charm. I even remember you wearing the xoxo black halter that you got with the studs around it.. because one of them fell off and when you realized it was gone, you would have thought that it was the end of the world soo we had to go exchange it at the mall right after lunch. Then when you turned 16, I was supposed to go to lunch again with you, but my sister went into labor with Cassie so I couldn't. But a few days later your brother and Barb took all of us girls down to Sandcastle. Thats when our big group started. We had so much fun there, I remember Kristina chasing Todd then all of a sudden she wiped out and fell right on her butt, and she still hasn't lived that down. That night, you had everyone back to your house, along with Jer and Jon and everyone else. I can still see and hear Jer singing 'I wanna be bad' in your basement, and after that nite, we were all together almost every single night for the rest of the summer. That was definitely the funnest summer so far. I will never forget all the sleepovers at my dads house while he was working midnight (the 3 of us in one bed.. and figuring everything out later on), the candlelit dinner, 4th of July and soo much more. Then when you turned 17, we had the surprise party for you. I will never forget how bad you were crying at my house that day because you thought you had to go home because of a bad report card. I can still hear you yelling at Barb when we got to your house because she read your report card wrong and you thought we drove all the way back there for nothing. Then she told you to go downstairs and there was everyone waiting for you. That was also the start to a really fun and memorable summer. No matter what we did, even if it was just sitting at someones house, you especially somehow made it a fun night. There were soo many things that happened last summer and throughout the years that I definitely would not have wanted to experience with anyone else other than you. You were alwayss sleeping here or me at your house, we hardly ever slept at different houses, it was like we lived together and I miss that sooo incredibly much. The funnest times of my life were spent at the sleepovers at your house, here, or going out to find something to get into, as long as we were together. The best weekend ever was the one right before our senior year started when me you and Chloe were driving around McKeesport looking for that place, and the nights at your house. Or there was the day that we were at my cousin's graduation party in Baldwin and we wanted to leave early so we did and I wasn't sure if I knew where I was going so I asked you what you thought we should do and all you kept saying was "I think we should just keep going straight, going straight never hurts anything".......30 minutes later we were in the middle of Squirell Hill or somewhere and somehow ended up on Mt. Washington for at least 2 hours stopping at every house to try to find our way back to 51, and going forward down the steepest hill I have ever seen, while the car somehow was in reverse and we had no idea why it was going so slow and making such a weird sound, lol. Now it is your 18th birthday, and there is nothing I wouldn't give to be able to make more memories like the ones we have already shared. Last week was graduation, and I kept looking for you just to appear in your seat, it was soo hard there without you. The roses on your seat were beautiful, although they still dohn't compare to what should be there. Its also kind of weird because the 2nd Rugrats movie comes out today and I would give anything to go see that with you, we could've worn our Rugrats t-shirts from when we went to see them live. Ohh Bethann, I can't even describe how I feel, and how much things have changed during this year. It is now close to 9 months since everything happened and it hasn't yet gotten easier, and honestly I don't know if it ever will. What I do know though, is that you are and will forever be one of thee most important people in my life, and I am so thankful that we have shared soo many wonderful memories together. There is no other person in the world that I would want to go through everything that we have been through other than you. You have been, and will always be my bestest friend in the whole entire world. Words will never be able to express the pain I, and everyone else has without you here. I never thought it was possible to miss someone even half as much as I miss you. This summer is going to be so hard without you. You are on my mind every single second of the day Bethann, and I still can't help but have a glimmer of hope that you might come home one day. I look at other people and I feel jealous when I see them with their best friend because I think about what could have been and all the great times we should still be sharing every day. It isn't fair what happened, and I will never understand why it happened , but I cannot wait to see you again. I LOVE YOU SOOOO INCREDIBLY MUCH BETHANN, I HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN ANGEL!! Love Always, ybffae ~Beth
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Date: Fri Jun 13 06:08:44 MDT 2003
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Bethann, We miss you so much. It is your Birthday today. We wish you were here to spend it with us. We love you so much Bethann. Please watch over us. You are forever in our hearts. Happy Birthday Beautiful Angel. We love You!!!
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Date: Fri Jun 13 06:33:19 MDT 2003
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'HAPPY BIRTHDAY BETHANN' Im sure your birthday is going to be wonderful in heaven, and I know that candace is probably having a blast planning it. Barb, I will say a prayer for you and your family to be strong and help you get thru this difficult day. I am sitting here crying for your family knowing that just around the corner it will my difficult day. Remember the good times today, and look up because I know she is looking down on you and blowing you kisses just like you blow her kisses that she catches every morning. It has been such a hard year and our families have struggled tremendously but I know our rewards are going to be great and that is the only thing that keeps me going knowing that I will be able to hug, kiss and laugh with candace again, and you will one day do the same that is a promise to us. So you may cry today but you will be happy again one day.... dora
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Date: Fri Jun 13 06:57:28 MDT 2003
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL, I'M SORRY I HAVEN'T WIRTTEN FOR A WHIL EBUT ITS JUST SO HARD TODAYS YOUR 18TH BIRTHDAY AND I'M JUST REMEMBERING LAST YEAR WHEN YOUR MOM AND I TOOK YOU TO OLIVE GARDEN FOR A LITTLE SURPRISE PARTY, YOU WERE SO MAD WHEN THEY SANG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BUT I KNOW YOU REALLY LOVED IT. NOW EVERY TIME I LOOK AT THE PICTURE OF US TOGETHER AND YOU GIVING ME A KISS I NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD BE LAST TIME I WOULD KISS YOU FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY I KNOW YOUR ALWAYS HERE WITH US AND THAT DOES HELP SOMETHIMES, BUT I JUST MISS YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS I KNOW THAT YOU'LL HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY IN HEAVEN YOU HAD A WONDERFUL TIME WHEREVER YOU WERE I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH LOVE YOU ALWAYS, AUNT CLAIRE
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Date: Fri Jun 13 07:05:01 MDT 2003
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Happy Birthday Bethann !! I never had the opportunity to meet you...I am several years older than you. I do know that I wish I did! Your pictures and the reflections from your friends show that your ARE and incredible person. Well I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday. Keep watching over your family and friends they miss you so much. You were too perfect to stay here that is why God chose you :-) ~ Amy
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Date: Fri Jun 13 07:59:29 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I want to wish you a wonderful happy 18th birthday, and hope that your first birthday in heaven is great. we all miss, need, and love you so much, please continue to look over us and hear all of our prayers. i kno you are celebrating in heaven with candace but please be with us when we are celebrating here on earth. there are not enough words possible to describe how wrong it is to be sitting here, celebrating your birthday in a sorrowful way. bethann no one can begin to understand why you were taken away from your family and friends but we must remember what Jesus taught us and pray, and have faith, and love, and have hope, and BELIEVE. GOD BLESS YOU BETHANN AND MAY YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL FIRST BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN. HAPPY 18TH. ALL MY LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER, krista
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Date: Fri Jun 13 08:51:41 MDT 2003
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Dear Bethann, you may not remember me but I will always remember you. We took dance together when we were younger but you didn't go to the same place I did for long. I wish we would have gotten to know each other better. I just wanted to wish you a Happy 18th Birthday. I'm sorry you are not here to spend it with those who love you but I know that everyone has you in their hearts today as they do everyday. I miss you Bethann!
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Date: Fri Jun 13 09:06:21 MDT 2003
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Bethann... It's your 18th birthday today and you aren't here. We wish so bad that you could be here but we know that isn't possible even tho you are with us in heart. I hope you have a great birthday in heaven. I know you will because you always made the best of things. Bethann.... please continue to watch over your family and us. Give them the strength they need. Happy 18th Birthday Angel* Love and Miss you tons.. Love, Allison
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Date: Fri Jun 13 09:32:00 MDT 2003
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Bethann, although I didn't know you very long time but when ever we would talk you would act as if were good friends. I remember the first time I met you I asked everyone if that's really how you talked and they all just laughed at me and said "yea that's Bethann." You were beautiful in every way. I was envious of you every day, the way you dressed even if it was bumby you always looked gorgeous your hair always seemed to fall right into place. The last time I saw you was at the TJ game and you sat next to me for a few minuets, I still remember every thing about that night. What you had on how your hair looked and our conversation about makeup. And of course you complemented me liek you did everyone you were so friendly to everyone, you had a gift to make anyone feel better about themselves. As I look back I wish that I would have gotten to say good-bye to you and got to hear your voice one last time, but that night still lingers in my mind. Happy 18th Birthday I hope your having a blast in heaven, I'm sure you are touching many more lives as you did while you were here. I love you and think about you every day.
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Date: Fri Jun 13 10:01:33 MDT 2003
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hi bethann i hope you have a good 18th b-day! its the first b-day you will have in heaven miss you always and for ever
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Date: Fri Jun 13 10:16:08 MDT 2003
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Happy Birthday Bethann!! I wish so bad that you were here with your friends, especially Beth because she misses you so bad. Send them a sign today to know that you are with them.. and also your family. Please give them the strength they need to get through this day. Everyone misses you so much and we love you! Happy 18th Birthday Bethann!
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Date: Fri Jun 13 10:49:53 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I did not know you at all, although I really wish that I would have met you. I just wanted to wish you a Happy 18th Birthday! You are in a better place than all of us. I hope one day we can meet. Watch over your family and friends they all miss and love you very much! Happy 18th Birthday Angel! Show us a rainbow today!
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Date: Fri Jun 13 11:58:58 MDT 2003
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HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY BETHANN. I WISH YOU COULD BE HERE W/YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS CELEBRATING. GOD ONLY TAKES THE BEST. PLEASE LOOK OVER YOUR MOM, DAD, JON, AND ALL THE OTHER PEOPLE WHO LOVED, CARED, AND MISS YOU SO MUCH. REST IN PEACE ANGEL. TO THE FAMILY OF BETHANN, MY PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS ARE WITH ALL OF YOU TODAY.
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Date: Fri Jun 13 13:33:30 MDT 2003
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Bethann, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I know you are having THE most wonderful party up in Heaven! I read the entry Beth posted and it made me realize how precious friendship is... the memories you two shared made me laugh and cry at the same time. Reminds me a lot of my best friend and how much she means to me.. I don't know what I would do if I lost her. Well Bethann, this is your day.. and I hope it's great! Please watch over Beth and your other friends and family though..every day is so hard for them, especially today. You're having an Angel's 18th Birthday in Heaven right now!! Hope it's great Bethann! We love you!!
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Date: Fri Jun 13 14:53:15 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann Im Ryan Abels Cousin and I was talking to Angie his girlfriend and she has an away message up saying Happy Birhtday Bethann.So I just wanted to wish u a Happy Birthday and hope u have a great one up in Heaven.Tell Candace I said Hello. Alwayz N Forever Kaetlin
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Date: Fri Jun 13 15:18:25 MDT 2003
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Bethann this is the first time i signed ur site...but i visit it everyday. I just wanted to wish you a happy 18th b-day and tell you how much everyone misses you. I remember after the TJ game me you candace and some of our other friends went out for my b-day. You and candace were so nice to me the whole night and you tried to make my b-day as special as possible. That was the last time i saw you guys and i never got to thank you and candace for spending that nite with me. I know you and candace are having a great day up there although ur family and friends are having one of the hardest days. Please help them through it. Have fun and i miss you
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Date: Fri Jun 13 15:41:47 MDT 2003
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Happy Birthday Bethann.. you and I never had a chance to meet but i hear wonderful things about you all the time.. please be with your brother today
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Date: Fri Jun 13 15:47:11 MDT 2003
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Happy 18th B*Day Bethann! Miss Ya!!
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Date: Fri Jun 13 17:01:13 MDT 2003
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dear bethann, i know you are having a great birthday in heaven, because you always had the best time no matter what. all of your friends came down today, you are so lucky to have such nice friends. angie brought 18 baloons over and we let them go, i hope you saw them up there. i love you and miss you so much. i am so thankful for the 17 years that i had with you. i will cherish every memery.happy birthday angel, love mom
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Date: Fri Jun 13 19:48:14 MDT 2003
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Happy Birthday Angel!! I'm sorry I haven't writen to you in awhile, but I wanted to let you know that not a day goes by that I don't think of you and your smiling face. Just the other day me and Jacki went to Frosty Cone and we started thinking about the time that all 3 of us went there and you ordered that giant sundae for my mom with extra whipped cream and nuts. It brought a smile to my face when I thought about how much fun we had that day. Bethann, you touched so many people's lives, including my own, and are missed so incredibly much. I'm sure you are having a wonderful birthday in heaven, and I hope you make yourself the biggest sundae ever!! I love you and miss you lots...Laura
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Date: Fri Jun 13 19:48:40 MDT 2003
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Happy 18th Birthday Bethann....I know you are having a great birthday in heaven...You are greatly missed by everyone and I think about you everyday. I put a little angel pin on my purse and everytime I look at it I immediately think of you and what a wonderful place you are at now...I have so many great memories and I will cherish them forever and they will never fade. You made a difference in so many people's lives and I am so happy for the time that you were here with us. So Happy Birthday Angel and I miss you and love you!!
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Date: Fri Jun 13 21:22:40 MDT 2003
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dear bethann, happy birthday sweetie. i think about you so often and miss you more than ever. Celebrate with the angels today. I'll never forget you. Watch over your family and friends. I love you sweetie
Name: Kristin
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Date: Fri Jun 13 21:46:05 MDT 2003
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Dear Bethann, our sweet angel, happy 18th birthday. i know your up in heaven having an incredible day filled with joy we couldn't even imagine. I know one sweet day we will all be able to celebrate your birthday together again, but until that day grant us the strength we need to proceed, and to understand why. you were a genuine angel here on earth, and God knew that, and this is why you are spending your 18th birthday with him this year. I am truely blessed to have so many memories of you, and everything i do, i am reminded of them. We all love and miss you so much bethann, watch over your family and friends. Happy Birthday! Love your Kruth*
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Date: Fri Jun 13 22:10:04 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann, today is ur 18th. It doesn't feel right wishing you a happy birthday this way. The good news though, is that I know for a fact you are having a wonderful birthday and are more happy than any of us could ever be. Knowing you, you're up there bouncing around, having a great time, doing all of the things you like, and making everybody else happy. These last 9 months have been insane. It still all feels very unbelievable and untrue. Beth and I were saying the other day, it's almost like there's still that little bit of hope that you're gonna come back. Thats because our minds can't comprehend reality, and they certainly don't want to. I can't help but to feel like this was all a big mistake, and it wasn't supposed to happen. Something had to of went out of plan, but I have my faith to remind me this was all in God's plan. It just drives me crazy to not know why. As long as I know your happy though, thats all that counts. Well, we all miss you so much BZags. You are on my mind constantly I swear. I was out at the cemetary today, SOOO many people love and adore you. I saw so many beautiful things for you. We all and miss you so much, there are no words that can even describe it. I hope you are having a wonderful birthday. Be with your family & friends .. every step of the way. I LOVE YOU BETHANN
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Date: Fri Jun 13 23:16:52 MDT 2003
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Bethann, Its 1 o clock in the morning and today I was supposed to be spending your 18th Birthday with you. Today was a very hard day but a lot of people came down to show how much they missed you and I thought that was nice. I miss you so much, and I still really can't believe you are not here with me, so I really dont even know what to write. I just miss you terribly Bethann, I want you to know you have a lot of people who miss you really bad. I love you so much sis, I just really miss you and still cant believe this happened. Love always and forever your big bro and best friend - JAWN
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Date: Sat Jun 14 00:57:06 MDT 2003
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Bethann ....yesterday was your 18th birthday and I never thought I would be wishing you a Happy Birthday while laying flowers on your grave. My heart just breaks into pieces when I think about you. Seeing all the beautiful flowers people have given you shows just how much you were loved and adored by so many people. Your laugh, smile, that one of a kind voice, incredible personality, and your absolute love of life are all things that I will keep with me always. I cannot wait to see you again, and because you are there, Heaven is now such a more perfect and beautiful place. I will forever miss and love you with all of my heart ...continue to be with your mom, dad, and jawn and keep them strong. I love and miss you terribly ~~kristin
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Date: Sat Jun 14 10:05:48 MDT 2003
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Bethann I just wanted to say that I hope you had a wonderful 18th birthday. It was very hard to get through yesterday but the good memories made it a lot easier. I know that Candace was up there helping you to celebrate. I wish so bad that you were here with us still. You have a wonderful family that loves and misses you very much. Watch over them. I love you!
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Date: Sat Jun 14 12:09:46 MDT 2003
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Hope you had the greatest birthday ever in heaven!!Please help your family and friends everyone misses you horribly.
Name: Rachel
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Date: Sun Jun 15 15:21:25 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann, i miss you. I wanted to tell you Happy Birthday! It was on Friday but i just couldnt bring myself to go on this site that day, but i thought about u every second that entire day. I really do miss you. Your face just keeps flashing through my mind, and your always smiling. I was reading this book that has answers to a bunch of "life's questions" lol. sounds dumb but there were a few that made me think of you. What is true beauty? The beauty that transcends time is the beauty of spirit. Beauty is charm, depth, wit, and warmth-all focused on the other person. Others feel it when they've been around it. These are the beautiful people of the world-and the happiest. True beauty is never open to interprettion by onlookers. Bethann you were truely a beautiful person inside and out and its obvious that you were the happiest. There was one more question. Why do young children suffer and die? The answer was- Children are often the greatest teachers in any society. Through their pain, they teach us patience. Through their helplessness, they teach us dependence and unselfishness. Through their acceptance, they teach us trust. Through their dying, they teach us grace and love. At best, adults label death "natural" and at it's worse, bad. Childrean hold no such prejudices. Heaven is the early reward for our greatest teachers. Bethann you have taught myself and so many other people so many things. We have all learned so much from you and i hope that your reward for that is everything you've always wanted...i Love you and i miss you..thinkin about you everyday...Love forever and ALWAYS* Rach
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Date: Sun Jun 15 22:20:07 MDT 2003
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john sir... you were and always will be a wonderful father. Bethann loves u and is with u today, tomorrow and forever.. God Bless you
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Date: Mon Jun 16 10:44:34 MDT 2003
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Happy belated birthday sweetie.Love, Jason
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Date: Tue Jun 17 19:18:14 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann...I wanted to wish you a happy birthday in heaven...I have been away, so I could not write you, but I was thinking of you all day on Friday...as I do everyday. I saw the most beautiful rainbow as I was golfing on Thursday, and because of its beauty, I know you were responsible for it. It was breathtaking, and I could not take my eyes off of it. I was sad when it went away. I hope you had the best birthday in heaven! We miss you so much, and want nothing more than to see you again. I love you bethann, your beauty, smile, and laughter are truly missed and will never be forgotten.
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Date: Thu Jun 19 20:55:45 MDT 2003
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Hello I didnt kno Bethann But I jus wanted to say how beautiful her senior pictures were and how beautiful she is.I kno she is happy up in heaven and forever her sprits will live on in every one's hearts. God Bless you sweetie.I can*t wait till tha day I meet you.
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Date: Thu Jun 19 21:37:26 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I just wanted to say hi! Everyone down here misses you like crazy. Especially Beth Please keep watch over her and let her know your there with her each and everyday. I never would have thought that someone that I knew so little of could change my life in such a way that you have or that I could possibly miss you this much. But I do Bethann you were a great person always greeting me with a big smile and asking how I was. You never passed without saying hi! Im sorry I didnt get to know you better. Its a regret that I will always have no matter what. But I guess I will have tons of time to do that when we all get to meet again in heaven. I hope that you and Can are having fun together and please keep watch over your familys. Just know that we all think about you everyday and you will ALWAYS be remember...ALL OF YOU! WE LOVE YOU BETHANN and please tell the other angels that we Love and miss them too!
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Date: Sat Jun 21 10:21:53 MDT 2003
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I can't believe you have been gone for 9 months Bethann!! I miss you more and more everyday and today I wish had never woken up because I woke up form a dream about you and it was the most real dream I have had about you yet. I don't know why but we were at some teachers wedding but the only kids there were me, you, Beth, and Seth. You were sitting next to me and I had my arm around you and you were leaning your head on my shoulder and I could feel you like you were really there. When no one was looking you whispered in my ear that you loved me and I told you I loved you too and we were having the best time, having a food fight and you were just doing what you always do and turn something boring into something really fun. After I woke up I tried for an hour to fall back asleep so I could see you again but it didn't work and now I'm sitting here thinking about it. I'll remember that dream and what you said to me forever. I miss you so much Bethann and I love you more than anything in this world. I hope I see you again soon in a dream as real as the one I had this morning. Love you Angel.
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Date: Sat Jun 21 14:05:40 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann...I don't know you but you were so beautiful. I visited Candaces Website and you and Candace seem like you 2 were the sweetest girls ever. I cried reading all your poems and hearing what everyone had to say about you. Everyone misses all 4 of you angels so much. I know yinz are all looking down and sending us sings saying that you are all doing just fine and happy in heaven together. Hopefully someday i will be able to meet you and Candace when its my turn. You have touched my life Bethann, and i didnt even know you. I pray for your family and friends every single day because i cant imagine the pain they feel. Keep watching over Angel.. Although i never met you i still Miss and Love you..<3
Name: Tabby (Krista's cousin)
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Date: Sat Jun 21 21:38:28 MDT 2003
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Although I have only met Bethann a few times I knew how special she was to her friends. I know that they all miss her so much. And I know how her brother feels now because I was as close to my brother as the the two of them were. My brother recently committed suicide so I know how difficult it is for her brother right now. And the letter he wrote to Bethann explains exactly how my brother and I always were. We were inseperable and we could tell each other anything, but I must have missed something he said somewhere because I couldn't help him. My thoughts and prayers are with your family always.
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Date: Tue Jun 24 09:40:03 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann! I have been thinking about you and Candace a lot lately. It’s just so terrible that this happened. I remember every time you saw me, you would say hi, even though we didn’t really know each other. You were such a nice person. I also have been praying for both your parents and Candace's lately. I pray that you guys and God give them the strength they need. I was listening to the radio the other day and someone called in and said they saw a beautiful rainbow and that you could see both ends of it. I immediately thought of you two. One end was probably you and the other end Candace. I know that you both are very happy in heaven. Could you please do me a favor and kiss my angel on the nose for me? Thanx Bethann... RIP Angel!
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Date: Tue Jun 24 10:07:44 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann. Just wanted to say thank you for showing up in my dreams the past two nights. I have been talking and praying to you a lot lately. I look at these dreams as a sign that you are walking beside me. In each of them you kept pulling me along saying you just wanted to be with me and for me to come with you. It was really comforting because that is just what I needed to hear. I need you Bethann. We all do down here. A lot of us are going through things that need your guidance. Please continue to watch after everyone, and especially your family that loves you dearly. I can't say this enough, things just aren't the same. Summer isn't as fun and senior year was more or less a blur after you left. We love you Bethann and will continue to keep your spirit alive forever and always, everywhere and in all ways.
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Date: Wed Jun 25 20:45:46 MDT 2003
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Dearest Bethann, I feel that I know you through your family who misses you so much.I'm trying to help them--help me to find a way.
Name: Krista
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Date: Sat Jun 28 13:52:49 MDT 2003
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Hi angel, I was just sitting here and wanted to say hi. i miss you very much, i cant begin to explain. i wish you were here with us going to these graduation parties and gettin ready for senior trip. i wish you were hear with us to have girl talks and sleepovers. life this long without you seems near impossible and i truly can not tell you how we can be going on without you. i know you see the troubles we are in without you here and the pain in our eyes, but please give us the strength and continue to be with us. bethann you are so gorgeous and a wonderful friend, your memory keeps me alive. god bless sweet angel, i love you with all my heart. friends forever, krista
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Date: Sun Jun 29 07:36:59 MDT 2003
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dear angel, i love and miss you so much. i miss every thing about you. i love everything about you. i wish you could come home to us. love mom
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Date: Sun Jun 29 15:04:02 MDT 2003
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Hello Bethann...I have never met you but i Just wanted to say you were a beautiful person. I just wrote to Candace and told her that the first time i saw both of your picture's there was something special about you and her that i still can't get over. It's as if you were truly angels on earth. I also told candace that i know why god wanted you two because you were just so special here on the earth and god needed yinz to make heaven more wonderful than it is. I can not stop crying just thinking of you 2 girls and the hurt everyone feels. There is one guarantee and it is that everyone that loves you will get to be with you again forever. I wanted to thank you for touching my life in a way no one has before. I know you are watching over your friends and family and helping them through this difficult time...I hope to meet you and Candace when its my turn to fly to heaven.
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Date: Mon Jun 30 01:46:33 MDT 2003
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I did not have the pleasure of meeting Bethann. I visit the site often and i feel as if I knew her personally. Its truly a tragedy. Im sorry to all of her friends and family members. I keep you all in my prayers. God Bless.
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Date: Thu Jul 3 23:09:14 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann. Right now, there is nothing more I would rather do than to be able to just talk to you, even if it was just for 5 minutes. I know you see what is going on down here and I just want to ask you to please watch over my mom. You are the first person I wanted to call today and it is driving me insane that I can't do it. You always knew the right things to say to make things better and I wish so bad that you could be with me so I could give you a big hug. I know that you are already watching over her, but just please continue to do so. I love you so much Bethann, I would do anything in the world to have you back here... especially at times like these. Thank you for being the bestest friend a girl could ask for and even though you may not be here physically, I know that you are still with me in my heart and in my mind...just knowing that gives me strength and also gives me hope. I miss you so much Angel. I love you! YBFFAE ~Beth
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Date: Sat Jul 5 20:42:43 MDT 2003
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just wanted to tell u happy 4th even tho im a day late. i bet the view from heaven was awesome, i love u
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Date: Sat Jul 5 23:30:34 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann, it's Krista's cousin again. Just wanted to wish you a belated 18th birthday. I hope you enjoyed your special day. And to your parents and your brother, I think about you all daily and pray for you as well. If anyone of you needs to talk and cry on a shoulder I am more than happy to let you cry on me. I know that you are starting to heal your pain, but you will never be able to accept what has happened. There is a book that I received from a close family friend entitled: "Holding on to Hope". It's based on how a mother lost her child at a younger age than Bethann and Candace. She relates her story to the book of Job when he lost everything he had. Reading this book has helped to comfort me some and let me see that there is still hope for the future. I recently had a lot of weight put on my shoulders from my family because of the loss of my brother and the fact that my mother is very sick. Life never seems to get easier. Just know that God never gives you more than he feels you can handle. Although it may be very difficult we have to go on with our lives, but we should never forget the good times that you spend with your loved ones. Tell John if he ever needs to talk that I am here and let him know that I feel all of his pain. My brother and I were so close. He even woke me every morning at 7am just to say HI. I miss those things about him but there is something good that came from him, his children-3 boys. Knowing how John and Bethann spent so much time together make me think of all the time I spent with my brother. It makes me cry everyday that he isn't here. I am still waiting for he to come home and say it was a joke, but like John I know that will never happen again.All my prayers and thoughts are with you everyday. Please make sure to talk to me if you ever need anyone. Bethann, keep watching over your family closely, and say hi to my brother Curt for me. He was a great person and I'm sure he would make a good friend to you in heaven. I know that I don't know any of you to well, just thru what I hear from Krista, but I love each of you for all of your courage and strength. May you be happy in knowing that you have a beautiful angel in heaven. God takes the ones that he needs to help him, and eventually we will all meet again, up in heaven. A friend forever, Tabby
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Date: Mon Jul 7 15:28:57 MDT 2003
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MY GIRL, As time moves on, it seems more and more unreal that you are not here with us. The 4th of July was a sad but memorable day...I thought of you constantly. Last year, you layed between Jawn and I and we watched the fireworks together, laughing and having a good time. As I was thinking of this on Friday, an overwhelming sadness came over me because I wanted nothing more than to be with you right then and there. Then I looked up in the sky and saw the most beautiful and brightest rainbow I have ever seen in my life. My heart started beating real fast and I just smiled because it gave me such a rush of happiness. I know that you're okay and that you hear us when we talk to you. There is so much that I want to talk to you about and ask your advice on, but I know you will make sure things happen right. I can't thank you enough for being such a good friend to me~ it means so much to me that I have these memories to hold in my heart. I never knew it was possible to miss someone this much. I pray every night that you will visit me in my dreams. I know that you are with your family and friends each day and that you are taking special care of Beth right now when she needs you so much. I can't wait to see you Bethann. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART. Love, JACQ
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Date: Wed Jul 9 21:45:24 MDT 2003
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I just got done reading this poem...and it made me think of you and the life you lead..... The Dash Between The Dates I read of a man who stood to speak At the funeral of a friend He referred to the dates on her tombstone From the beginning....to the end. He noted the first came her date of birth And spoke the following date with tears. But he said what mattered most of all Was the dash between those years. For the dash represents all the time That she spent alive on earth... And now only those who loved her Know what that little line is worth. For it matters not how much we own; The cars..the house...the cash... What matters is how we live and love And how we spend our dash. So think about this long and hard Are there things you'ld like to change? For you never know how much time is left That can still be rearranged. Remember that this special dash may only last awhile Thank You my friend for sharing yours ....and he ended with a SMILE!!
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Date: Sat Jul 12 20:06:20 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann...Its been too long and im lost with out you, what am i gonna do, said i been needing you wanting you...I miss you..It just aint the same without you. You could always brighten up a room with your gorgeous smile and that unforgettable laugh of yours. You could make anyone feel better and the were the sweetest girl in the world. I think about you all the time and i know you hear me talk to you and i know its you wiping my tears...Can you tell Can i miss her and love her..thanks bethann...I love you and miss you Angels with all of my heart<333
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Date: Sun Jul 13 01:37:30 MDT 2003
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My dad, Mickey, works with Beth's dad. Beth, that poem you had written to Bethann was so incredibly sad. I cried through the end of it. I didn't kno Bethann, I dont kno many people that go to EF. I try to imagine losing one of my best friends and I couldn't imagine the pain that i would go thru and just thinking of some1 else losing their best friend, just brings tears down my cheeks. -Just shows ya..Dont take things for granted, Dont always expect for people to be there when u wake up...Never hesitate to tell some1 how you feel about them or how they've touched ur life. Beth- I respect you so much for the strength that you have, and the courage to continue on in your life. May God Bless all of you..You're in my prayers.
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Date: Mon Jul 14 07:10:31 MDT 2003
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BZiggity...Hey girl! I just wanted to tell you that I miss you so much. I'm sory that I haven't written to you in a while. The last two months have been hard on everyone. I have a picture of you, Binz, and me from graduation last year and I look at it in disbelief. I keep thinking to myself that you are on vacation or something like that. Haha, a vacation for the past 10 months? Everything is a blur still, Bethann. I cannot accept that you are gone. I know for a fact that you are happy, but I wish that I could comprehend your happiness. I go back to that horrible morning and replay it all the time. Thank you for all the beautiful memories that you gave to me while you were here, on Earth. Thank you for all the signs that you send to everyone that loves you, letting us all know that you are still around and checking up on all of us. I told your brother about the Angel Ladies. Thank you so much for talking with me!! Who is the person with the letter K? I am still clueless on that one. Like I told you before, you are very welcome for the letter. I love you so incredibly much, Bethann!! You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday. I hope that you liked the gifts for your birthday. Your flowers were beautiful at the cemetary. I have to tell you...Binz and I are going to Myrtle Beach on the 25th. You better be there with us!!! I am looking forward to it!! Keep looking after all of us, Bethann!! ***I love you so much Sweetheart!!*** P.S.---Tell him I said hello and Happy Birthday and that I love him
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Date: Fri Jul 18 08:56:37 MDT 2003
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Bethann- Hey girl. I haven't wrote on here for awhile. Your pictures are BEAUTIFUL. I miss you so much. I wanted to go up and see you but I don't know where your grave is or Candace's or Brian's. I'll look for it today when I get my nails done. It's so sd to know that my friend since kingtergarden has passed away. But now that your Heaven, it's a better place for a better person like you! I love you and I miss you! I look at al the pems that everyone wrote and your brother's is so sad. Plase help him be strong and your mom and dad and everyone else. We love you and miss you so badly. Happy B-lated Birthday! I know you had fun. Tell Candace, Luke, and Brian that I miss them to and that I said hi for me! Thinking about you!
Name: Miss you Bethann
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Date: Sat Jul 19 09:28:00 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann...I havent wrote to you in a while so i thought i would. I have been thinking of you alot but i do everyday. I miss you soo much. I guess im being selfish by wanting you back but i know your happy in heaven. Its hard to believe that 10 months ago you flew to heaven. The day you went away was the most hardest day of my life. Everyday since also has been the hardest days of my life also. That day replays in my mind over and over but i try not to think of it cause it is too painful. You were such a beautiful person inside and out. I truly believe you were disguised as an angel here on earth. You left footprints in peoples heart and they will never ever forgot you. You have touched and inspired more peoples lives than most people can do in one lifetime. You left a space in my heart no one ever can fill. I love you and miss you and Can't wait to see your beautiful face in heaven.... I Love you Sweetie!
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Date: Mon Jul 21 11:12:01 MDT 2003
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BZiggity... Hello again! I just wanted to recognize that it has been 10 months since you passed. I love you Sweetheart!!!!
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Date: Mon Jul 21 13:10:00 MDT 2003
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hey angel i havent wrote for along time i just wanted too! i miss you everyday more and more! i was at my grams the other day and me and ash were out side and we were lookin at the funeral home were you were layed out and we started to talk about you and i started crying i miss you so much everyone does i know your watching over all of us, i miss you bethann i love you angel, all my love ,ash
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Date: Mon Jul 21 13:48:50 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann, its been 10 months today n i just wanted to say that im still missin u just like it was yesterday. i will love u for the rest of my life. c ya later my angel
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Date: Tue Jul 22 14:17:01 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann. I haven't written to you in a while. I have been thinking of you a lot lately since Allison and I will be leaving for Myrtle Beach this Thursday. Last summer was so much fun with you there. I'll never forget our crazy night down on the strip or your summer love C.J.! You have given us enough memories to last a lifetime Bethann. We all love and miss you greatly but know that you are always watching over us. I love you so much.
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Date: Wed Jul 23 10:03:05 MDT 2003
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just know i still think of u..miss u so much bethann!!
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Date: Thu Jul 24 13:43:28 MDT 2003
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dear bethann, i love you and miss you so much. i still cannot believe this has happened i dont think i ever will. it is definitely not getting any easier, some days are worse than others, but no days are good. i love you with all my heart and soul. i keep thinking you are going to come home. i wish you would. MAY YOUR MEMORY BE ETERNAL!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOM
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Date: Fri Jul 25 16:12:20 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann...I never knew it was possible to miss someone so much like i miss you. You were such a beautiful person and were so kind. I know your making heaven a better place. I hope you and Can are having fun and watching over us and helping all of us get through the days. I miss you so much that words cant even explain...I hope i see you in heaven real soon...I love you so much Bethann<3
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Date: Fri Jul 25 22:22:39 MDT 2003
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Bethann...*Our Angel* We All miss you so much! You were such a great person for this world to lose I just wish I would have had the chance to know you better than I did. But I did know you and I always looked up to you and I still do. You loved life it was just so obvious. I never saw you unhappy and you were so energetic. But I know your in a much better place where you can watch over everyone and make thier lives better...until I see you again...Rest In Peace...I LOVE YOU
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Date: Tue Jul 29 01:41:35 MDT 2003
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Dear Bethann, How can everything have changed so much? I don't know what's real anymore except hurt. Everyone's lives are so intertwined and everything is so complex, and so far apart...and it should be be so much simpler. We should be able to hold on to each other, and some happiness. And yet it seems so elusive. There is so much sadness in all of our lives. Why can't people accept each other for who they are? So much has changed since you left us. I wish so very much that God hadn't taken you from us. Words can not express how much that wish is.... It is so hard for everyone. Barb, Johnny, & John have the most difficult pain of all. But life will never be the same for any one of us. Life can be too short, and we all need to appreciate and treasure what we have while we have it. We all miss you so much. Your beautiful smile...your happy greeting of "Hi....." The loss hurts beyond understanding. I saw the most beautiful rainbow of my life a couple of weeks ago, and I felt sure you sent it to say everything would someday be ok. I am trying to remember "If God brings you to it~he will bring you through it" but it is so hard to understand........ Lord, please help us all who loved her to deal with all of this loss, we need your blessing, we need your love, and most of all we need your intevention to help us love one another. Lord, I love you and need you, come into my heart today. For without you I can do nothing.
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Date: Tue Jul 29 13:30:04 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann...I miss you so much i cant even put it into words. Last Night i stayed awake and just cryed myself to sleep because i miss you and Can so much. I layed there and thought about everything. About how i still feel like this aint real, I just somehow can't accept that you are gone. Times like these i feel so lonely. My heart is torn and it can never be repaired. You were gorgeous and you were so kind to everyone. I thought about what you are doing right now in heaven, and you are probally making everyone laugh right now. I thought how could this happen to 2 wonderful girls. I just dont understand it and wish that i could. Some how i gotta understand that god needed you and that you are happy in heaven but we just miss you, miss everything about you. Your smile, your voice, your kindness, your energy, your love for life, your love for everyone you knew...We just miss you and Love you soo much. I know you are taking care of everyone you love and everyone that loves you. Till we meet in heaven i will continue on missing you...I love you Bethann<333
Name: Chris
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Date: Wed Jul 30 19:57:51 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I never had the blessing of meeting you, but you meant the world to a girl who means the world to me. She misses you greatly, and I can see it in her eyes everytime I'm with her. You are her angel, and I really wish I had met you. Watch over her and all her friends Bethann, but keep a close eye on her for me, she's got a lot going on right now and could use an angel's help. Someday I'll get to meet you, but for now, watch over these girls. "Live while you live, love while you live, then be done with it"
Name: ANGIE (P) GRANT
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Date: Thu Jul 31 07:44:16 MDT 2003
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BARB AFTER SPEAKING TO YOU YESTERDAY, I HAD TO WRITE. I HOPE YOUR DAY IS BETTER TODAY. I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY. WHEN I DRIVE PAST YOUR HOUSE DAILY, I SEE THAT ANGEL OUTSIDE AND I CAN'T HELP BUT SAY A LITTLE PRAY FOR YOU GUYS. FRANKI AND I ARE GOING TO STOP BY AND VISIT WITH YOU SOON. TAKE CARE ANGIE
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Date: Thu Jul 31 22:23:39 MDT 2003
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Bethann, Everyone misses you so much. It amazes me by how many lives you have touched...I mean you touched the lives of people who have never even met you. You were such a blessing to this world. You brought nothing but happiness to those who crossed your path in your short time here. It frustrates me so bad Bethann with why you had to leave. You are the kind of person that needs to be in this world to make it a better place but I've come to realize that maybe it was that you were too good of a person to be here. God knew early on that you deserved better and he needed you with him to help and watch over all of us down here. Bethann I'm going through some hard times right now...there are moments coming up in my life that I'm not at all ready to face and things that have me so confused that I just try to ignore them. Bethann if its not too much trouble could u please watch over me and stay with me during the moments that I dont want to face and help me to overcome my fears. If there was anything I learned from this it was that life is too short to waste. You must live each moment to the fullest, never regret the past because you cant change it, work your hardest and most importantly never pass up the chance to tell someone how much they mean to you. Bethann I can't wait to see you again. Watch over and guide us all...I love you!:)
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Date: Sun Aug 3 00:01:44 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann, I just thought I would write something on here. Lately I been thinking about all of our younger years growin up, we really had some great times. People always say how close are family is, well we are all each other ever had, and now i cant believe you are not here. Its very hard for all of us. I am very lonely. Often at night I will sit in my bedroom and envision you coming through my door just like the good old days. I wish i could just walk down to your room and hang out with you right now. Everything about this is not fair. Everyone says Heaven is so wonderful, but everything here was so wonderful until you went away too. I love you Bethann, and miss you so much, I will never understand why this has happened, I hope that you miss me like I miss you, this is really hard. I love you, your big bro and best friend forever jawn
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Date: Mon Aug 4 23:45:21 MDT 2003
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MY GIRL, I just got back from vacation a week ago, and I just want you to know that you were on my mind the entire time. Thank you so much for the rainbow and the other signs in Florida. It was around this same time last year that we came back from Wrightsville Beach…the best vacation ever. I have so many great memories that remind me of why this vacation was one I will never forget…chicken fighting in the ocean~ you and your dad were the champs, and Ashley was always the first to go down, haha…laying out every day together, determined to get as tan as we could, and going for walks on the beach…body surfing for hours, and everyone playing football on the beach…the awesome place we stayed in and how it was ten times better since you and Ashley decided to stay in my room with me…all of us sitting on the deck every night and just spending time together, watching the shapes of the clouds change and coming up with some pretty crazy ideas of what we thought they looked like…when the guys buried Justin in the sand up to his neck and the seagulls attacked his head...driving down the road with Justin playing “Heaven is a Place on Earth” every day on that loudspeaker system that echoed through the streets…jumping off the dock at the bay…how you wore that bright white zinc on your lips when they got burnt…keeping the Trolley Stop and the ice cream shop in business~ I never ate hot dogs until you guys made me try a surfer dog…your **** crisis, and how we shared our bathing suits and clothes every day~ our room was a mess covered with clothes we tried on before going out, and you always went downstairs and did your fashion shows for everyone:)…the way you looked in the mirror when you were putting your makeup on and how I always scrunched your hair for you and we were always the last to be ready…the guy that was a professional on that dancing machine game and we stopped to dance with him on it~ we weren’t very good but it was hilarious…walking down to the sand dunes, and looking for shells (and my shark tooth) on Shell Island…go-cart racing, and how you found it extremely funny when Jamie lied to the laser tag worker about why I was late, haha…you also found it very funny when we left that banquet restaurant and I fell flat on my face and Jamie ran over and took a picture of me~ well, everyone found that funny…girl talks up in our room…and then, how you left us a day early to go on vacation with Beth, and on the car ride home without you, your mom said she already missed you~ that was after one day without you, and it has now been over ten months without you and everyone just misses you so incredibly much. We all need your strength Bethann~ so many people adore you. The memories that I have are ones that I will cherish for the rest of my days~ I can actually say that the week we all spent together at the beach was perfect. I miss you so much angel…I wish you were here. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART. Love, JACQ
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Date: Thu Aug 7 14:44:49 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I'm sitting here remembering the old summer days...swimming in the pool, playing in the yard, cookouts, birthday parties, pool volleyball...I can see you in all these memories laughing, smiling, and having a blast...How i wish i could hear your voice again, and here that wonderful laugh of yours...I miss you so much and will always treasure these memories with all my heart.
Name: angie p.
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Date: Thu Aug 7 18:20:38 MDT 2003
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I was just looking at your senior pictures again and they are just amazing...what a beauty! I get choked up sometimes when I think of you and all of the things that we will be missing. but you don't miss a trick...I truly believe that you are with us all of the time, laughing with us, crying with us, and watching over us. I was reading an article about the angel lady and one of the questions was...why weren't the angels with all of those people on 9/11. Her response was that they were with those people and that they were old angels..all of those people who died on that day are the new generation of angels and they were needed. They were destined to help all of us on earth to get thru lifes struggles and day to day trials and tribulations. You must truly be busy with us because we all need help, we all are just about to make a mistake, we are all just about to stumble and fall, and when we don't, we should think of you as being the reason that we don't... you are helping us and guiding us in your silent way...sometimes there are signs, most often not.. that we can feel or see. The signs are silent, they sometimes go by without notice, but every day and every time that we should have done something or almost did something that may not have had a good result, I'd like to think that you had a hand in the intervention of a mistake, or a wrong turn in life. and on that note, I thank you. love always..angie
Name: angie p.
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Date: Thu Aug 7 18:20:42 MDT 2003
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I was just looking at your senior pictures again and they are just amazing...what a beauty! I get choked up sometimes when I think of you and all of the things that we will be missing. but you don't miss a trick...I truly believe that you are with us all of the time, laughing with us, crying with us, and watching over us. I was reading an article about the angel lady and one of the questions was...why weren't the angels with all of those people on 9/11. Her response was that they were with those people and that they were old angels..all of those people who died on that day are the new generation of angels and they were needed. They were destined to help all of us on earth to get thru lifes struggles and day to day trials and tribulations. You must truly be busy with us because we all need help, we all are just about to make a mistake, we are all just about to stumble and fall, and when we don't, we should think of you as being the reason that we don't... you are helping us and guiding us in your silent way...sometimes there are signs, most often not.. that we can feel or see. The signs are silent, they sometimes go by without notice, but every day and every time that we should have done something or almost did something that may not have had a good result, I'd like to think that you had a hand in the intervention of a mistake, or a wrong turn in life. and on that note, I thank you. love always..angie
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Date: Sun Aug 10 02:39:15 MDT 2003
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I didnt go to school with bethann but i met her a few times....alot of gurlz from EF hated me and my friends, but not bethann, she made an effort to get to know us without judement. i used to veiw this page everyday, half the time tears would flow from my eyes as i read about how wonderful bethann was, and how many people she has touched. i wish i would have had the chance to get to know her better, she seems so perfect. i know her soul lives on and gives everyone, friends, family, and expecially beth the strength to go on. i look at beth sometimes and just think how strog she must be, but i know its her angel from above who keeps her going.......... RIP ANGEL! see u when i get there
Name: Erin
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Date: Mon Aug 11 13:09:40 MDT 2003
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Bethann...Sweety,This is the first time ive ever writen in your guestbook, but im alwaz thinking about you and looking on here.Yer senior pics are soo beautiful.I miss you bethann.This year was the first year that we ever really hung out and im soo happy and thankful for that,i wish that you were still here and that we could have been even closer.I dont understand this i dont think anyone does,How two great and perfect girls could jus be taken away from us.Ill cherish my memories with you ALWAYS. well I just wanted to say hi sweety and that i miss you soo very very much .. UNTIL WE MEET LOVE YOU ANGEL
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Date: Mon Aug 11 19:37:03 MDT 2003
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Bethann, you have been on my mind so much lately, and every passing day is one day closer to 1 year without you. it just doesnt possible or real that i have graduated, entering college, and have grown so much without you beside me growing and graduating and entering college. i think about the memories we have made and all of the good times together, i just wish i could have had so many more memories with you. i have been seeing rainbows all summmer and that truly assures me that you are looking down upon on me from heaven. bethann you have touched so many in so many ways, i cant even believe i had the wonderful pleasure of being your friend. bethann you are unlike anyone i have ever known and i am truly amazed of how beautiful you were in every possible way. your girls miss ya so much BZAGS, please continue to watch over us and guide us as we start this next chapter of our lives parting from each other but never forgetting each other and the wonderful friendship we have and that common bond that we are best friends with an *angel*. I LOVE AND MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING ANGEL...Krista
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Date: Tue Aug 12 18:56:42 MDT 2003
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Well Bethann... I have been at college for a week now and I think about you all the time. It's just not fair! You should be starting a new chapter in your life.. even though you still are but it's with God now .I miss you a lot!Please continue to watch over your family and friends! Love you angel!
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Date: Wed Aug 13 23:25:07 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I look at your pictures day after day, not understanding. Your death has brought so much sadness, we are all trapped in it's echoes. Two yellow roses meant so much and now ...... Lord please help us all.
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Date: Fri Aug 15 17:04:10 MDT 2003
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Bethann,
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Date: Fri Aug 15 17:37:11 MDT 2003
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My Angel Bethann...I can't believe it will be a year soon...So much has happened, yet I feel like you were just here...I miss you so much...everyone misses you...words cannot explain our sadness. I was golfing the other day, and there was a butterfly that flew around me for quite awhile...I have never experienced anything like it before. It was beautiful...it must have landed on me 20 times and would not move...just hang around like it was there to tell me something...Someone I was with said, "That butterfly sure likes you." I just smiled, because I knew your were sending me a sign that you are fine, and are always looking down and watching over all of us. I know that these butterfly signs are from you, because they have happened twice before on special occasions, but this one your were with me much longer. My family misses you so much...your smile...your unique laugh...how you could light up a room. I found a quote that said..."Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away...Bethann, you did and still will always take our breath away. Love you...miss you...till we meet again.
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Date: Sat Aug 16 12:54:34 MDT 2003
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Bethann was probably only 12 yrs. old the last time I had the privledge of seeing her. She came running up to me at work with her ponytail swinging behind her head and her usual BIG smile on her face just to say Hi- I'm shopping with my Mom. What a beautiful young lady she has grown into and what a beautiful flower in God's Heaven. Know you are missed and loved by all.
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Date: Tue Aug 19 14:08:55 MDT 2003
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hey bethann sorry i havent wrote in a while.we all miss you very much.it just seem like it wasnt long ago we were together at kirks birthday party and now yet i remember it was nearly a year ago.it will also soon be a year since we lost you.the time goes by so quickly when you think about it.it hurts still but we manage not by choice of course.its hurts a lot more going off to college because i dont want you to think in any way we could forget you by going on.we have to move on but we will never forget that 1000 watt smile and that unique laugh that had you laughing before you knew what was funny and i loved that about you and will never forget you and will see you soon love u bethann~alex
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Date: Wed Aug 20 14:30:38 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann. Sorry I haven't written in a while, but I have been so busy. I'll be leaving for Notre Dame tomorrow morning. Bethann, I believe in my heart that you had a part in me going there. I think that your blessings helped me achieve my dream. I want to thank you for that. I swear I am going to work very hard and make sure to make you proud. You always made me feel so good about myself. You were just that type of girl. I have faith that you will be with me whenever I am far from home and will continue to guide me when I am lost. Bethann you will forever and always remain one of my very best friends. All I ask is for you to continue to send your blessings down here to Earth. Watch over your family and everyone who misses and loves you so much. I love you Bethann and will continue to look to you no matter where life takes me.
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Date: Wed Aug 20 19:08:02 MDT 2003
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it will be good to be amongst your family this weekend.i really feel good about seeing them. i wish you were here. man,johnna sure does miss you.i know you see, and when the time is right, you will help her have peace.i know that would be your will. she is trying.i miss all of you.i really wanted to take your dad fishing.i know you are doing far better than any of us.it doesn't make it any easier though.give strength bethann-to all of us.i hope john,johnny, and barb knows how much we love them.i guess that's about it.God Bless kid.Jason
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Date: Thu Aug 21 09:43:35 MDT 2003
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Bethann, 11 months today, i still feel life is a blurr without you being here. everything in life that passes by is a reminder of you. that u should be here experiencing it as i am too. even though i kno you are with me in spirit b/c i can feel you around me sometimes, which is the most incredible feeling i have ever had in my life, its unexplainable. but now going back to school, i need your guidance more than ever. i wish so bad i could just call you like i used to, and have those long talks about our every day life stories and what to do about them. i miss that exuberant face with that pretty smile shining back at me. i know we lost touch over the years, but our childhood friendship seemed to come back everytime we were together. i need you more than ever, life is changing and is so confusing, its different without you here, please keep sending your lil prayers to me every once in a while. i appreciate them so much. watch over your family and help them in their grievance, but i kno you do anyways. love and miss you angel
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Date: Mon Aug 25 22:32:41 MDT 2003
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I've written in here once before. It was a while ago but it took some time for me to actually build enough courage to actually visit your website. Everytime I read this guestbook, I am floored by how many lives you have effected in such a positive manner Bethann. Sometimes I sit and wonder, "What if it was me?", you know? I can't help but ask myself this question. I wonder if I had as big an impact on others as you have. There is no way I could have touched as many peoples lives as you have, but I'd like to. You are the kind of person I would love to be like. I swear that you must have been an angel put on earth... I honestly believe that. God is probably so happy to have you back and to see that beautiful smile and to listen to your unique voice that was always full of emotion and to hear that laugh... oh my gosh, that laugh Bethann! I wanna make a difference like you have Bethann, I wanna make my life mean something. Well, pretty soon it will be a year since we last seen you... September 21st. Do you remember our conversation at my locker on September 17th? Well... It was my birthday and all my friends had showered me with gifts and balloons and you had asked me what I got for my birthday. I told you that Mark had bought me flowers and it was so sweet. You told me that you never got flowers before(which I find a lil hard to believe being that you were such a beautiful girl whom I'm sure had lots of admirers!) and you were all disappointed and then I told you that I would get you some flowers. I never got you those flowers yet Bethann, but I swear I'm gonna do it. I haven't visited you yet and for that I am sorry but I'll get there. You've changed my life, even though we weren't the best of friends or anything, but you've had such an impact on me, as well as many others. There is no doubt in my mind that you were an angel sent to earth and you are greatly missed and admired! Miss ya forever!
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Date: Mon Aug 25 23:27:48 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I havent never met you but i visit here alot and read what people have to say and i look at your beautiful pictures. In every picture you have some sort of glow that just makes you stand out. You truly must have been an amazing person because there is not one mean thing anyone has ever said about you only wonderful things and how you changed there life. I wanted to write to you and tell you that i am one of the many people whos lives you touched. You dont have to know the person for them to touch your life. Everywhere i go i tell them about you even though i dont know you and how you inspire me. Its kinda weird to say that but you really do inspire me. When i read your friends and familys memories i envy the strength they have and what great things they say about you..I really do. Well i just wanted to tell you Thank you and that i hope your doing just fine up in heaven and i know your giving everyone the strength they need...Love u Bethann<33
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Date: Wed Aug 27 11:50:18 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann, I'm sitting here in my dorm, thinking about you of course. You have been on my mind non stop all summer and especially now since I came to college. This summer was soo incredibly hard without you.. It was horrible not going to Myrtle Beach and not being able to lay out together or be at each others houses 24/7 like always. I really can't believe that in a few weeks it is going to be a year since all this horrible stuff happened. Around this time last year, I remember you gathering up all the girls in school and we all went arm in arm out the door singing "My Girl" right before Chloe's surprise that was waiting for her outside. And I can remember you fixing my schedule so that we had 2 or 3 classes together, when at first we only had a study hall together. I still can't believe that it is true, it doesn't seem like it could be possible. I lay in my bed and look at all the people outside and wish on everything that I could look out that window and see you walking around. Or when I'm walking to my classes, there have been different times when I have to take a second look at someone because for some reason I get this glimmer of hope and I think that it might be you.. even if the person really looks nothing like you. I have so many pictures everywhere of you and a collage hanging in my dorm.. it is the first thing I see when I wake up and the last thing i stare at before I go to sleep while I squeeze the angel bear that Barb gave me out of your room right before I left. College is pretty ruff so far and all I want to do is to be able to call you because no matter what you could always make me feel so much better about anything. I have told my roommate and others so much about you, and no one can get over how gorgeous you are. I feel so lucky and blessed to be able to tell people that you are my bestest friend in the whole world. I love you so much Bethann, I can't wait till the day we get to see each other. I miss you Angel :o( Love always, Y*B*F*F*A*E ~Beth
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Date: Wed Aug 27 17:47:11 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann...I just read what Beth wrote and just cryed my eyes out. I can tell that she misses you more than anyone could possibly imagine and would do anything for you. I guess that is why she is trying to be strong...For you. Bethann, you were truly someone special and i will never get over the fact that your gone. I guess the one thing that makes me happy is we will all be together again forever and ever and it will just be like you went on vacation or something. That will be the happiest day of my life when i see you. I miss you Bethann, so muchhh!!! I know you see us all hurting but all we want is you back. You left a space no one ever on this earth could possibly fill. I know your so happy up there with Can. Keep watching over and i will keep missing my little angel <3 I love you forever <3
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Date: Fri Aug 29 11:34:37 MDT 2003
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Bethann, Heyy angel...I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking about you(but im sure you already knew that):) I know you and Candace are doing just fine up there. Sometimes I'll just sit and think about what you must be doing together...what you are doing right at that second. I can't even begin to imagine. We all miss you a ton down here. I read the memories that people write to you and I'm honestly amazed by how many lives you have touched. I wish so much that I could be like you...make an impact on other peoples lives as you have. You probably dont even know the half of how you have changed people lives and all for the better. You had it all Bethann...you were absolutely beautiful beyond discription, you had an amazing smile and a laugh that no matter the situation could make anyone smile. Your energy was so contagious, your personality was one of a kind. You were beautiful inside and out. You had this glow that just followed you. It was almost like all this time we knew there was something different and special about you and there was...you were an angel. I love you Bethann and I cant wait to get to heaven and tell you how much of an impact you had on my life and tell you how thankful I am for you just being you. Bethann you accomplished in 17 years what most cant accomplish in a lifetime. You loved life and it shined through you. I cant wait to see you again...we love you...please keep watch over your family and friends. Especially Beth...I cant imagine what it must be like to lose a friend...a best friend and an angel on earth at that age. Rest in peace
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Date: Tue Sep 2 01:27:42 MDT 2003
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Hey there... I haven't written to ya in a while. I still come here and look at your picutres everyday tho. I just had a nice long talk about u tonight with a friend. What amazes me the most, is that every single time I talk about you, a smile is just forced upon my face. I love the fact that I have a million things to talk about, that you said or did, sometime in the past that just makes me giggle to myself. Sometimes all it takes is the thought of the sound of your laughter, and thats enough to make me laugh to myself. Through all the hurt and pain, I can still smile. I know you don't want me to be upset Bethann, so thank u, for putting all of the smiles on my face. I could just talk about you for hours on end sometimes. I swear, the Bethann stories could go on and on. You were such a beautiful, unique person. I love when I think of something new that you said or did that i didn't think about before. Every memory is so precious. Sometimes I just sit and think to myself about everyday in aerobics, walking around the track, all of our conversations. You always had something to tell me to make me laugh and start my day off right. We shared a lot of stuff in that 42 minutes everyday. In the office working together too, you always made sure I got the late-day gossip lol. A lot has been going on these past few months. I know that you've been here thru it all too. Thats why sometimes I just remind myself, in the end its going to be alright cause Bethann is goin to take care of everything. I know you know whats going on every single day. I am so lucky to know I have an amazing guardian angel watching over me, and lots of others do too. Its crazy tho, it feels like that terrible day just happened yesturday becuase its so fresh in my memory, every single moment. But then in a way it feels like it was so long ago because I miss u so much. I really miss u more and more. I cant believe that I havent seen u in a year Bethann, a whole year. That just doesn't seem real. I remember our last hug and what you were wearing and what you said to me. Never did I think it was goin to be my last hug. I don't think this is ever going to seem real. I am always going to wonder why every day for the rest of my life, until I get my answer. And until then remember that I will always love you, and I miss you SO much
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Date: Tue Sep 2 20:19:09 MDT 2003
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Dear Bethann, It's my second week of college and almost one year since you've been gone and I cannot believe that u are missing all of this. It breaks my heart to know that we will never know what you would have ended up to be in life and that I cannot tell you all of my experiences. I just wanted to let you know that you are always in my thoughts and in my prayers and that I hope to see you again some day.I know that if I keep on reflecting on all of the pain of losing you, you will never rest in peace, but it is so difficult not to. Now some days are hard and others better, but one thing is for sure that you are and will always be my guardian angel and keep me out of trouble. I love you!
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Date: Fri Sep 5 10:25:07 MDT 2003
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Name: Chlo
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Date: Sun Sep 7 21:46:57 MDT 2003
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Date: Sun Sep 7 21:51:26 MDT 2003
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Well I've been at school for more than two weeks, and you have already helped me so much. Whenever I felt lost or homesick I simply prayed to you and you helped me through it. Whenever things seem to be too much I just remember that I am determined to make you proud. And I know that you are. You are proud of all of us. And we are all so proud to say that we had you in our lives. You are my light, Bethann, that leads the way when everything around me seems dark. I cannot believe it's been almost a year, yet it seems I've gone forever without seeing your face. I miss you, I love you, and I thank you for all that you were to me, all that you are to me, and all that you will always be. I love you more than words could ever say.
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Date: Mon Sep 8 16:39:38 MDT 2003
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Have you ever lost a friend who was very dear to you? If you haven't known the heartache we pray you never do. To have, to love, and then to part is the greatest sorrow of your heart. There are other friends, yes, we know, but she was ours and we miss her so. Please, God, forgive our constant fears, and our constant wish that Bethann was here. We see her smile and her sweet face, no one can ever take her place. it seems to smile and say "Don't cry, I'm only sleeping, and we'll be together someday." If we could have a lifetime wish, one dream would come true, we'd pray to God with all our hearts for yesterday and you. A thousand words can't bring you back, we know because we tried, and neither will a million tears, we know because we cried. You left behind some broken hearts and happy memories , too. But we never wanted memories we only wanted you BETHANN<333 I love you more than ever and i miss you sOoOoO much i cant even explain it. You will always be in heart Bethann...Theres not a second i dont think about you hunny<333
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Date: Mon Sep 8 22:32:13 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I can not believe it has been nearly a year since you have left me. Times have been tough, and time has not healed my pain. I dont think any amount of time will heal the pain that will forever rest within my broken heart. Now that I am back at school, I often reflect on our long internet talks and phone calls we would share,and how happy we'd be to see each other on the weekends, and how you were always there in my times of sorrow to help mend my sadness. I struggle often to even think that this can be true. I swear the other day I was sitting at the kitchen table and I almost asked mom "Where is Bethann at?" Then it hits me like a violent ton of bricks, that you are not here. I try to seek comfort in knowing that you are in Heaven, but then fall back into torturing myself on how this could happen to you, How this could happen to our pefect family. The thoughts race through my mind like a rampid roller coaster entrancing me with visions and reasons of why you were taken. I dont believe anything will satisfy my hunger to find the answers until I see you again, and realize that everything is alright. I miss you so much Bethann, I am so lonely with out you. I feel like half of me is gone now. I know that you are watching over me, but how I long for you to be here with me again just like the old times. I love you so much,you know I am still here for you like always If you ever need me. Please try your best to help mom and dad find peace especially in these difficult days to follow, and for everyone else as well. Everyone misses you so much, and loves you dearly my wonderful sister. Love always and forever, your big bro and best friend ~ Jawn
Name: Malena Mazurek
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Date: Wed Sep 10 13:00:41 MDT 2003
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Hello Bethann: It has taken me a very long time to write to you because, in my mind , you never left. Everyday, I think about you and wish that you would walk through the door and yell "Miss Maz" like you did everyday that you came to school. I just want you to make me laugh again and be able to see your family and friends. I miss you and I wanted to tell you something. Many people think that teachers can't learn anything from their students but I learned alot from you. Bethann, I learned to be a better person because of you. I have never met anyone who made every person around her feel special in some way. Thank you for making me feel special and loved. Please look out for your family and friends. You are in my thoughts everyday. I hope that you can somehow touch everyone to let them know that you are still with us. Love ya and miss you lots "Miss Maz"
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Date: Wed Sep 10 23:16:59 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethaz, I surely do miss you baby girl...I have been thinking about you so much lately. I guess it is that time of the year. I am reminded of that morning over and over again. Bethann, I love and miss you more than words can say. It is so weird because lately I have been seeing people and I think they are you, and I wanna run up to them, but they aren't. I feel like you are everywhere. Bethann, during this time of the year, please watch over your brother and mom and dad and all those who love you. They need you now more than ever to show them that you are okay. I pray every night for you and for your family. I pray that pap takes care of you up there. Have you met him and Aunt Nell? I hope so. Thank you so much for watching over me. You have been there with me through everything. I love you girl, more than words can say. Miss you so much. I cannot wait to see you again! "I know your smiling down on me from heaven, like so many friends we've lost along the way, and I know eventually we'll be together, one sweet day."
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Date: Fri Sep 12 20:16:32 MDT 2003
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Bethann, Its almost been a year an I still can't believe it. It seems like yesterday when we were at the TJ game. I would have never thought in a million years that would be the last time I would get to see you.I miss you so much its unreal.I wanna thank you for visiting me in my dreams and always helping me out when i need you. I love you Bethann!This has been such a hard year for everyone, we all need you so much!I can still hear your laugh an see your smile.The things we've talked about are always going through my mind.There is so much i want to say to you and this is so hard for me i dont know why.I know you know this already, but i want you to hear it again..I love an miss you so much Bethann!Youll be in my heart forever<3
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Date: Sun Sep 14 12:37:44 MDT 2003
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Bethann, i just got off the phone with chloe, we couldnt even talk anymore, the tears were too much. angel we miss you so much, but you kno that. i sometimes can not even believe how long this world has been without your smile, i long for you, we all do. if i could go back one year bethann, i would keep you so close and keep you safe. i would do anything to have one more sleepover, one more day in school, one more of your laughs. it is so hard without you, i honestly do not kno how i go on. you were the heart and soul of our circle of friends, and we fell apart without you. there is nothing to bring you back bethann, this i kno, but i swear to you if there was, it would have been done 1000 times. there is so much hurt and pain in this world without our bethann, and all these tears that fall, fall for you. i kno i keep repeating myself but i cant tell you enough how much i miss you. my birthday is friday, it does not even matter, cuz i kno sunday will be the most terrible anniversary i will ever endure. i dont want gifts or money for my birthday, i want you. i would do anything to see you one more time, if only for a minute. no one here understands why i cry and why my whole computer is filled with you, my background, my screen saver, anything to see that beautiful face more. although it could never compare to your presence, we must do everything we can to keep you alive in our hearts. bethann, you are on my mind nonstop, there is never a passing moment when i do not think of that goofy girl that always made me laugh and me feel better about myself and told me how i made her crack up, that goofy girl that i was so blessed to have as my best friend. i looked forward so much to meeting you in the hall and walking to class together, or deciding whether we should go to class or just say the heck with it. no one can ever compare to you, no one will ever hold such wonderful qualities that you possessed with such grace and beauty. you were our everything bethann, and when we lost you, we lost part of us too, so please dear angel, watch over us, your parents, brother, grandparents aunts, uncles, cousins, and friends, we miss you so much, guide us in the right direction so that we may be with you someday for an eternity, and until that sweet day comes, my heart will never heal the loss of a friend so dear to me.god bless you angel, i will continue to pray to you each and every day, i love you, love, Krista
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Date: Tue Sep 16 21:40:11 MDT 2003
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I think of you all SO often! I know you guys have had some rough times, with graduation, Bethann's birthday, summer memories, and yet a 1-year anniversary approaching. It's unblievable that it even happened. I just want you to know how much you are thought of. I have to say that every time I see a rainbow, too, Bethann's name comes to mind immediately...and it brings a smile to my face...because of the beauty and feeling it gives me. I'm glad you guys have this site. I check it periodically. So many people love her! I'll continue to pray for your healing. God Bless! Love, Cheryl
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Date: Thu Sep 18 11:16:06 MDT 2003
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I miss you every day. And I'm being especially selfish because I keep thinking that this year has been so stressful for ME. I keep saying to myself that I would go back to Vietnam for 1000 more years rather than have to live through the past year since you died. And I keep asking myself; "What could I have done differently to prevent what happened to you?" and the answer is, of course - nothing. Just like your Mom and Dad and John and Joyce and Johnna and Jamie and Justin and Claire and your Grandmother - none of us could have known to change anything we did to prevent what happened to you. The only good thing we might take from this is to maybe try to think through that next step with a little more vision and understanding than we did before. We all owe you so much Bethann. I hope we take your many gifts to us and lessons we should have learned to heart.
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Date: Sat Sep 20 14:13:44 MDT 2003
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Hi Bethann. You and your family have been on my mind alot especially over the past week. Leah went to Camp Spirit at the high school last Saturday - Camp Spirit was supposed to take place on the day of the accident last year. Leah and I also saw a picture of a girl in a catalog who looked like you. She had a big, bright smile, too! It is such a beautiful day today, but also a very sad weekend. Thanks for giving us the happy memories. Keep watching over everyone. Love you and miss you, SuzyQ
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Date: Sat Sep 20 17:22:04 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I miss you more than words can say. I can' believe its already been a year since you left us. Its just not right without you here. I cant believe that exactly one year ago to the minute you were sitting right behind me at the TJ game, and you wouldn't talk to me because you were mad so if I wanted to say something to you I had to say it to Lauren first and she would tell you. I would give ANYTHING to be able to talk to you again even if you won't say anything back because youre so mad. I just can not believe your gone its not right. I love you and miss you more and more each day that your gone and I cant wait to see you again. There are so many memories that I could say but for some reason right now I can't think of anything all I can think of is that your gone and I want you to come back right now. Its getting harder again because of the time of the year and because when I'm at school a lot of people don't know about what happened and I have to explain it to everyone I meet. It makes me realize though how much you really meant to me and how much I miss you. I wish so bad that you would come back today and run up to me all excited to see me with your little voice screaming "Hey Brando I'm back!" And I hate to see Beth so upset on her birthday because the only thing she really wants is for you to be here. I could go on and on but I wont. I just want to tell you one more time that I love you and that I miss you more than I will ever be able to explain until the day when I finally get to see you again. YBFF, Brando
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Date: Sat Sep 20 19:29:35 MDT 2003
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Hey hun, I was just sittin here thinkin its been a long time since I looked at your website. I just wanted you to know I still think about you and you are forever in my heart. Linds and I talk bout you all the time, she misses you a lot. I know you are fine up there, but please look over your family and friends they still need & miss you more then anything. Love ya babe!
Name: Lauren
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Date: Sat Sep 20 19:52:03 MDT 2003
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Bethann- I can't believe its a year since you got your wings. I can promise you that not a day goes by that i dont think about you..miss ya so much Love always Lauren
Name: Just a Girl
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Date: Sat Sep 20 20:31:18 MDT 2003
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I meet u once at a soccer game from a good friend n i look at your site all the time and cry...ur were beyond pretty and sound like u were sent to earth as an angel. I was talking to my volleyball grls today and today was our derry torney and they were telling me how the parents told them about u n candace died... that story runs threw my mind over and over again... to picture 2 of ur good friends droppin to the parking lot wet freezing ground and crying over the horrible news makes me sad and sick inside... ur didnt deserve to die... but god took u because he needed another angel to help pour out the rain... Tomrw will be a year n it will be a hard day for everyone but we now u and can r watching over us...We all Love and Miss you GREATLY _EF ANGELS_
Name: Angie
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Date: Sat Sep 20 21:44:02 MDT 2003
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my dearest Bethann.....I sit here with a heavy heart and my eyes filled with tears..I miss you and I love you..amgie
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Date: Sat Sep 20 21:54:20 MDT 2003
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Angels Angel's are God's most precious work Angel's come in different sizes and shape Some are small and some are big Some are babies and some are adults Everyone has a angel inside or outside Angels are young and old If you look deep down inside you will find it God has made a specific angel for each of us Some of us have angels living inside our house Some of us have angels walking around with us But no matter we have a angel and we should be greatful for it The hero is big and we should thank our God and his precious angels because without them we wouldn't be here So if one day you see two or more shadows you will know that one is God and the other is your Guardian Angel. ( v ) We havn't lost 3 friends .´~`( , , )´~`. but only gained 3 `( ")( ")´ angels!
Name: Chloe
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Date: Sat Sep 20 23:01:36 MDT 2003
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My Dearest Bethann, I cannot believe it has been a year. I know it seems that is all people can say, but it is the truth. We all always talk about how it seems as if we haven't seen you in ages, but that last night seems like just yesterday. Bethann, words cannot describe how much you are missed by both your family and friends. You are a girl that was and always will be incredibly loved. You will always and forever be admired for your strong spirit and kind heart. You always made room and time to make others comfortable. I know that God has reserved a wonderful home for you in heaven. I love you forever and always....... Chlo
Name: Nicole
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Date: Sat Sep 20 23:18:26 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann...I can't believe it has been a year since the world has seen your beautiful face. I think about you all the time and come to this site often. So many times I want to leave a message on here but never know exactly what to say. I think part of the problem is that there is just so much that could be said about you. You were truely a special girl. I can honestly say I never met anyone like you. You were so beautiful both on the inside and out. In the short time that I knew you I never ever heard you say a mean thing about anyone. You were always so willing to help people and so incredibly outgoing and kind. You had the greatest personality and were always bringing so much joy to other peoples lives. It so rare to actually know someone like that and I'm so glad that I can say that I did. I always look through the pictures on here and you were just absolutely gorgeous. Your smile was something else! You always looked beautiful no matter what and it was rare when I didn't see that beautiful smile on your face. I loved how full of life you were. I have the best memories of you and I am so happy and thankful for that. Bethann, you are missed by so many people. So many people adore you and love you. You have touched so many lives and so many of us can learn so much from you. Please help your family and friends get through this very difficult time...I know you will. Also, please know that I think about you all the time and miss you dearly. I will keep you and your family in my prayers always and the memories of you close to my heart. God Bless you and your family.
Name: Allison
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Date: Sun Sep 21 00:23:24 MDT 2003
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Bethann.. my angel.. I don't have words to describe how much you are missed by your family and friends. I can't believe that it has been a year already since we have last seen your beautiful face. You were such a wonderful girl inside and out. I think about you all the time. I miss you and love you tons!Please give your friends and especially your family the strength they need during this hard time. I can't wait til the day I get to see you again but until then contine to watch over everyone. Love you Angel! Love, Allison
Name: jawn
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Date: Sun Sep 21 00:46:34 MDT 2003
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At this time last year Bethann, I was sleeping in your bed..completely unaware of what was going to happen within the next hour, and the horrifying news I would wake up to. I still cant not believe you are gone, I guess that I am just not ready to accept it. "the thought it just too much to concieve". We will be attending a service for you tomorrow, and everyone will come over the house to pay tribute to your wonderful life. I think that its going to be nice, but its going to be really sad. I want you to be there with all of us tomorrow If you can. Thank you for all the wondeful times, I just wish we could have more to come. I really cant express my feelings at this point, All i know is that this was the worst day of my entire life and i hate it, and I hate that you are not here. I love you with all my heart, Until we see each other again... LOVE your big bro and best friend FOREVER - jawn
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Date: Sun Sep 21 05:16:03 MDT 2003
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Date: Sun Sep 21 05:16:03 MDT 2003
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Date: Sun Sep 21 05:16:23 MDT 2003
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Date: Sun Sep 21 05:34:58 MDT 2003
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Dearest Bethann, It is so hard to believe that today is a year. In many ways it went so slow and in many ways it seems like yesterday. Why when someone we love leaves this world is it so painful. We are told and believe they are in a much better place, yet our tears for them do not stop. The pain we all have endured since last September 21 is beyond belief. Every morning upon wakening I still have to tell myself this is real and not a dream. I so miss all the "Bethann stories" from your mom everyday. The one thing I am gratful for is I still hear your voice, I still see your smile, and I still have all the wonderful memories of all our times together. I know you are happy for me because you know how bad my memory is. Watch after all of us Bethann, we need you more than ever. MISS YOU BABY and love you.
Name: Christy
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Date: Sun Sep 21 07:26:17 MDT 2003
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I can remember every moment of this day...Everything I did that morning, and then the phone rang. The news that everyone recieved that morning is still unbelievable. Bethann, words can not express how much you are missed by everyone. My sadness is overwhelming, and even growing deeper today because I am not at your service this morning. Matthew is going, and I want nothing more than to be there with him. We love and miss you so so much. You are always in our thoughts, and the memories we have of you will never be forgotten. I cherish all those memories with all my heart. I know you are a beautiful angel dancing in heaven, the way you always danced to life here with us. There is not a day that goes by that we do not think of you...Your laughter, the wonderful things you have brought to everyone, the way you could light up a room, and most of all your beautiful smile. Your smile will live in our hearts forever. Love you always and forever, Christy
Name: Virginia
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Date: Sun Sep 21 08:15:30 MDT 2003
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I too can remember every moment of that most horrible day a year ago that changed the world for all of us, and I am sad by not being at your service this morning with Matt. We all love and miss you so so much. I went to sleep last night thinking of you, and woke up this morning thinking of you. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Life will never be the same. Bethann, your beautiful smile that we all miss so much will live in our hearts forever. Love, Virginia
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Date: Sun Sep 21 08:23:50 MDT 2003
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Where were you when the world stopped turning that September day? Bethann, The greatest thing God has given us, was your love.
Name: Franki
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Date: Sun Sep 21 11:07:50 MDT 2003
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Bethann ,i Cant believ its been a year seeing yu at pancake breakfast at tehhighskolltelling my mom evr since i was little that i want to be just like. Saying o mom she is soo pretty i want to be just liek her. Bethann i miss yu very much adn just wna yu to kow yur always on my mind.And to please look after all yu friends and family and keep everyone safe.Bethann I know yur doing fine up there but i miss yu, and i love yu!!~Franki
Name: Kali
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Date: Sun Sep 21 12:22:31 MDT 2003
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Bethann, a year has passed and this still does not seem real. The pain inside me has not subsided and to tell you the truth it is identical to what I felt exactly a year ago. I know that you are still with us in our hearts, and that you left us because God needed you to be the angel you were and are. You are and forever will be in my heart; the memories we shared together are eternal. Not a day goes by that I do not think of all the good times we had and just am thankful for the time we had together. I miss you like crazy Bethann, but I know you are watching over us all. Please continue to watch over us, especially your family, my thoughts and prayers are with them today and always. I love you Bethann!! May you rest eternally in peace. Love, Kali
Name: Ashley
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Date: Sun Sep 21 14:24:11 MDT 2003
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hey angel, it's been one year today it dosent seem like that long ago, i miss you so much it is so hard , i know your watching over everyone today * i miss you terribly. I love you so much * i love you angel* love always ash Bethann Patricia Zagurasky 6~13~85 ~ 9~21~02
Name: Ash
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Date: Sun Sep 21 15:06:59 MDT 2003
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Bethann-its been a tough past year w/ out you. I go past yer house at least 3 times a day because its less then a mile away from my house and i look out the window and think of how someone so beautiful and so generous could be seperated from the people she loved but then i tought of all the pain in this world and think of heaven and how there is no pain just happiness and how beautiful of an *angel* you are and we all miss you soo much this past years been hard and i pray for yer family and friends and candace and brian ever night but i know yinz are safe i miss you sooo much *-ash ¸,.·´¨`·. RIP .·´¨`·.,¸ ¨··-..-··oxangelsxo··-..-··¨
Name: betty
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Date: Sun Sep 21 16:07:57 MDT 2003
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Hello my sweetie. i couldn't let this day go by without telling you how much i miss you. i think about you all the time. I miss seeing your beautiful face and hearing that wonderful voice. Please watch over your family and friends and know that i will never ever forget you. I love you bethann
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Date: Sun Sep 21 17:01:22 MDT 2003
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My Angel Forever Meeting now at heaven's gate With golden wings to share Everyone who enters here Such beauty they now wear Wings to fit most any size With halo special gift Given with such happiness So special is their fit Flying flying through the sky These precious wings will soar Free to travel through the world Their hearts will now explore Looking down from up above To give to us their love Hovering with special wings God's special lace above Watching over constantly With love they now can share Wings to hover constantly An answer to our prayer. CHERISHED Your life that once was, lives on in my thoughts, TO cause me to wonder what time would have brought. If your time had continued and you had lived, The path that I walk now would not have been. Changes are made by one moment in time, The path that was lost, I never will find. Words that you spoke, just one day before, Are remembered forever, since you speak no more. Promises made, that you cannot keep, Continue to haunt the dreams of my sleep. Your presence is here and will always be, Cherished forever, in my memory. If tears could build a stiarway And memories a lane I'd walk right up to Heaven And bring you home again
Name: Lindsay
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Date: Sun Sep 21 17:49:23 MDT 2003
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Bethann,Hi sweetheart,i went to your grave today and saw all the flowers and i started to cry,i can't believe it's been a year since you left,you were so amazing and such a sweet person who didnt deserve this at all,i think about you all the time and everytime i pass your house and see your angel i say a little prayer for you,i kno we weren't really friends but you were still so nice to me and just everything,i miss you so much and i know your up in heaven with god and your as happy as anything..I love you angel and I miss you with all my heart!
Name: Abby
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Date: Sun Sep 21 19:29:06 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I know it's taken me a long time to sign this but I guess I just didn't know what to say. How can you know what to say? I don't know what to do. I think about you constantly though. I sit and think about everything that I can remember about you Bethann. I remember your voice and your laugh (though who doesn't?). I remember the way that you would pull up your hair and make it kinda puffy and then you'd ask if it looked ok. And then you'd still check it every 3 seconds to make sure it was still big. I remember walking to class with you and Kali arm in arm and rushing Lauren because we didn't want to be late and she was always so slow. I remember complaning about physics everyday and you'd tell me everything we did because you had it in the morning and I didn't have it until 7th period. I remember how you would find something to compliment me on everyday and how it would make me feel good for the rest of the day. You always had something nice to say about everyone. I remember you showing me what your prom dress was going to look like and how excited you were. I watched the prom video before I came back to school this year, to reminisce I guess. It was the first time that I had seen it. I just kept rewinding the part where you were spinning. You looked so beautiful. That's what we all want to do Bethann... rewind. I want to rewind back to every second that you were here. I guess, in a way, I do. I always think about you and I try to remember everything I possibly can. That's my way of rewinding. I love rewinding because it helps me to know that I'll never forget you Bethann... help me to never forget.
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Date: Sun Sep 21 19:47:08 MDT 2003
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hey angel, i love you and miss you more and more everyday. i cannot beleive it has been a year since you left us. my mind will not let me accept this. i dont think i ever will. it still does not seem real to me. it never will. i have to tell you that i am so proud of you, you have touched so many peoples lives. i had no idea how many friends you actually had. everyone has such wonderful things to say about you. Not just about your beauty but about the person that you are your inner beauty is what is important. i am so proud that you are my daughter. please help me and dad and john we miss you so much. we need your strenth and guidance to help us go on without you. you know how you always told me "don't miss me too much" whenever you went somewhere? I will always miss you SO much. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I MISS YOU SO MUCH. MAY YOUR MEMORY BE ETERNAL!
Name: Laura
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Date: Sun Sep 21 19:55:14 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I can't believe that it has been a year since you left us. Life seemed so much simpler a year ago. We all miss you so much. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you and your smiling face. Please watch over your family and friends and know that we will never forget you! I love you and miss you angel. Love, Laura
Name: Cara
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Date: Sun Sep 21 20:38:14 MDT 2003
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Bethann- A year later and the pain is still here that we felt a year ago today. I still cannot believe that when I go over to your house that you will not be there. You are missed so incredibly much by everyone and you have touched so many people's lives, including mine. Everyone that has ever met you has been touched by your kindness and warmth towards everyone. I look at your beautiful picture every day and I know that you are in a much better place right now. What is helping make this day easier is all the happy memories that I have from over the years. There is not a day that I don't think of you and what you might be doing. The service this morning was so beautiful and Father said so many wonderful things about you. I felt that you were there listening. Thinking back on this day last year seems like all a bad dream. You never think that something like this could ever happen to someone as wonderful as you. But everything happens for a reason and we have to put faith in that. Bethann you are forever in my heart, memory and prayers. You are forever missed and I am so happy to have had you in my life and as a part of my family. I know you are watching over all of us. I love you and miss you so much and you will live in everyone's memories and hearts always. <3 Love, Cara
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Date: Sun Sep 21 21:17:16 MDT 2003
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Where can I even start with this thing...sometimes I am just totally lost for words Bethann. Your church had a very nice memorial service for you today. It honestly felt like yesturday that I was there a year ago. As soon as I walked into your church since the last time, the smell, and singing, and the sound of the bell just made me weak. It all just flashed back into my mind, every little moment was so fresh in my memory of the last time I was there. When I sat there and heard your Father speak your name during the service, it was like I couldnt swallow it down. Every time he would say "Bethann" all I could think was "is this real?" Reality just isn't fair. I still can't imagine how something like this could happen. And even if I were told the best reason, it wouldn't be good enough. I saw so many heart broken faces today. Its so sad. Well your family can deffinitely be certain that you are so incredibly loved by people. When your mom said that she had no idea of how many friends you had, I really can see why she would say that. You talked to everybody! You always gave someone something to smile about. It was impossible to be having a bad day when you were around. How could you not smile at the sound of that voice everyone loved so much? It was impossible! You were such a beautiful girl, but your inner beauty was what swept people away. Everybody will always remember you for that. Your family must be so proud of you. If you scoll through all of the past postings people have put up about you, its insane to see how many amazing things are said about you. Not too many could possibly get that many compliments and warm things said about them. You're so special angel. I just sit here and look at this picture of you. I can't even find anything more to say to you right now. Just always be sure to know, that I LOVE YOU and miss you so much ...
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Date: Sun Sep 21 21:28:25 MDT 2003
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Its been one year and it seems like it was just yesterday. I still cant believe your gone bethann, I think about you so much, but half of the time I just think that I will be seeing you again. I dont think it will ever sink in. Im here at college and when i walk to class i always imagine you walking with me because we were supposed to go to college together. Its just all so wierd but I know your looking down on all of us and I know that you know that we all love you and miss you so much and i cant wait to see you again. Thank you so much for the rainbow the other night when i was driving home too!! I love you Bethann and miss you sooo much!!!!!!!
Name: Jacki
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Date: Sun Sep 21 21:58:22 MDT 2003
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MY GIRL, A year without that smile I love…without your energy and jokes…without your friendship. A year full of pain, tears, and broken hearts. I will never get over the fact that you are gone~ I just can’t believe it. Last year I was on my way home from school on Friday, Sept. 20th. I talked to you on the phone on the way home and you were cracking up, joking around with me. You and Jawn were in your room together, and I told you I had a gift for you, so you were all excited. When I got to your house, you had already left for the football game and I remember feeling sad that you weren’t there to greet me with a big hug and smile like always. It breaks my heart to think that I didn’t even get to say goodbye, but then again, nobody did. I remember our last hug in the weeks before that as if it was yesterday~ the warmest, longest hug that I am so grateful for. You were like my little sister, Bethann. I treated you the same as I do family, because that’s what I consider you. I am so very thankful for the memories we shared…I cherish them each and every day. You left this world a better place than you found it…you have deeply touched so many lives. The service at your church today was really nice~ a lot of people sincerely care about you and your family. Please keep sending your signs angel…they really do help. I know you are happy in heaven my girl…just like Father George said. I miss you so much, and I will think about you until the moment we meet again. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART. Love, JACQ
Name: Chris P.
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Date: Sun Sep 21 22:00:46 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I wish that things would get easier as time passes, but it's still just as hard to deal w/ u being gone today as it was a year ago. Please continue to give ur family and friends strength, especially today. I just want you to know that I still think of you every day, and that I will never forget you.
Name: Jamie
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Date: Sun Sep 21 23:17:24 MDT 2003
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Bethann, Its so hard to believe that it has been 1 year since you left. This has been the most difficult year for all of us who love you. I was happy to see so many people at your service. Even though you are no longer here I find it comforting to know that we can always reflect on memories as if they happened yesterday. The whole thing still does not feel real. In the back of my mind I hope to walk in your room and see you or wait for you to run down the stairs. I’m sure all of our memories will seem like yesterday and I can always be thankful for that. Thanks for being such a great cousin, we always had so much fun. I miss you and I love you love jamie
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Date: Mon Sep 22 11:30:08 MDT 2003
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Date: Mon Sep 22 12:01:27 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann, this weekend has been soo hard without you. Everyday is a constant struggle but this weekend was extra hard. Friday was mine and Krista's birthdays and the only thing that we really wanted, we couldn't have. When I woke up, all I could think about was last year how you called me in the morning before school screaming HAPPY BIRTHDAY BETHY! into the phone, then seeing you in the parking lot when you ran up and gave me a huge hug and gave me that rose and balloon, which I still have. And we went to Chi-Chi's and had soo much fun... it was completely perfect and I don't understand why this had to happen. Then the next night, I can see you in my room figuring out what to wear and how to do your hair. You were so worried if you looked alrite and we all told you that you looked gorgeous like always. Then we got to the game and walked up there holding hands. I don't understand why that nite had to be the last nite we saw you without any warning so we could have stopped it from happening. Now it's a year later and like everyone says, the pain is just as bad, if not worse. It doesn't really matter how long its been, its the worst feeling in the world to know that your not here. I feel like I haven't seen you in forever but then again it seems like just last week we were at your church, when it was really a year ago. The second I walked in there, it brought back bad memories and visions of last year and thats all I could think about. The service was beautiful tho, so many nice things were said about you. Everyone has wonderful things to say about you, it just shows how much you touched everyone and how much you mean to everyone. There are still so many times when I go to call you to tell you something or just to talk about everything that is going on right now. I wish so bad that I still could. You always made everything better, and you were the first person I went to for everything. I love you so much Bethann, words can't describe how much I miss you and how much we all want you back. Please just continue to watch over Barb, Sir, and John, they need you soo much. I can't wait to see you Angel.. ~*YBFFAE*~ Beth
Name: rachel
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Date: Mon Sep 22 19:31:26 MDT 2003
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Bethann i miss u so much. its been a year and a day but it feels like it was yesterday that i got that dreaded phone call. i didnt want to believe it, and i still dont. i was just reading all the great things people had to say about u n it really made me cry because i kno exactly what everyone is talkin about n it makes me sad cuz none of us will ever get to experience anymore of u. no more stories, no more laughs, nuthing. i cant help but think its not fair. u should be here with all of us.i kno sumhow ur better up there tho. i never kne ur family but i can tell how much they completely adore u. u were their everything. be with them always. i love u so much bethann. i just wish i could talk to u one more time, or at least say goodbye. until i see u again.....i love u always angel**~Rach
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Date: Mon Sep 22 20:32:54 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I can't believe it's been one year since you, Brian and Candace left us. We all miss you so much down here. You were such a blessing to this world. It needed someone like you down here. But your work was done...you deserve to be in heaven with all the other angels because thats exactly what you were. When people talk about you its so obvious what you were sent here to do. You were here to make this world a better place and to change people for the better. Thats exactly what you did Bethann...anyone who knew you had nothing but nice things to say about you and amazing stories about how you changed their lives...I know you changed mine! I miss you Bethann and I love you...I cant wait to see you again to thank you!
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Date: Mon Sep 22 23:50:42 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethann, ever since Thursday night when this weekend started to arrive I don't think a period of five minutes had passed me by without a thought of you. I was sitting here not being tired because all I can think of is you and why you aren't here. It's just not fair. I just wanted to tell you how much I miss you and to tell you that I will love you for the rest of my life and after that. Can't wait to see you again. Love you Angel. Love, Brandon
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Date: Tue Sep 23 15:16:45 MDT 2003
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Dear Bethann, I can't believe it has been a year. Sometimes it seems like it has been longer, other times it seems a little too recent to get a decent swallow to go down your throat. I don't really know what to say, and i'm usually pretty good at writing. After reading some of the other things written in the last few days,particularly from your Uncle Jim, all I can do is concur.There is so much bad about not having you anymore... I hope God, You, and Time can help everyone to find a smile here and there and some peace inside.I pray you will continue to look over your family and help them through their tough days ahead and send a little extra help to your cousin down here. She loves you. We had a beautiful ceremony on the sound Sunday night. The sunset was a picture.I know you saw your little float floating out into the sea. It was as close to heaven as we're going to get for now. See ya when it's time.God Bless all of the Zaguraskys and the rest of the fam.Love- Jason
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Date: Tue Sep 23 16:32:06 MDT 2003
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hey bethann, i cant believe its been a year now since u guys have been gone. i miss u guys so much and it never gets easier with u guys not here. i wish u guys could expierence life with us a little while longer but ur gone. i know i will se u again...save me a spot bethann. love u and miss u always
Name: Rach
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Date: Tue Sep 23 20:51:29 MDT 2003
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Well...i came to see u today Bethann. I knew I'd get there sumday but its just hard ya kno. U r in such a beautiful place up on top of the hill. And the wind was blowing across my face n i just knew it was u saying hello. if only i woulda gotten to actully hear u say it. i miss u more than ever. sumtimes im just at a lose of words when im thinkin about u. i went to see candace n brian n luke today too. i hope u all kno that i was there. o n i pe u liked the flowers...they were the prettiest ones at the store so i had to get em for u. i really miss u Bethann...i promise ill come visit u more often. i just wish i could see u again...ill be waitin till that day...God Bless u my beautiful Angel...Luv Always *Rachel
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Date: Thu Sep 25 09:01:51 MDT 2003
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*One more day One more time One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied But then again, I know what it would do Leave me wishing still For one more day with you* Wish you were here with everyone Bethann...
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Date: Fri Sep 26 00:45:48 MDT 2003
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When I think back on these times And the dreams we left behind I'll be glad 'cause I was blessed To get to have you in my life When I look back on these days I'll look and see your face You were right there for me In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky In my heart there will always be a place for you For all my life I'll keep a part of you with me And everywhere I am, there you'll be
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Date: Fri Sep 26 15:43:55 MDT 2003
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dear bethann, i am missing you like crazy. i would give anything if you could come home. like uncle jim said, time does not heal especially if someone knew you. i miss going to the mall every saturday with you. i miss just hanging out and talking to you. i miss everything about you. i dont think this is ever going to seem real i love you and miss you with all my heart and soul. may your memory be eternal LOVE MOM/BARB
Name: Johnna
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Date: Fri Sep 26 18:51:08 MDT 2003
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Hey Bethanny, I apoligize for not writing in such a long time.I have been trying to figure out words that would portray my feelings...I can't think of any. I think of you everyday and how this cannot be real. I want our future back. It is so hard to think that you will not be here physically. I can feel you with me when I see a sunset that is a magnificent array of colors. I can feel you with me helping me through each day. I see you in colorful butterflies and gorgeous flowers. I see you in the brightest star in the night. I pray that you are happy, which I know you are. You are in Heaven watching the waves roll in and the sunrise and sunset from a cotton shaped cloud that feels like silk. I want to thank you for all of the wonderful memories we have together. They all stay fresh in my mind. Although it hurts my heart to think about them, it also brings a smile to my face to be blessed with them. You, my sweet sweet Godchild are one of a kind. I think about how I can better myself to be the wonderful person that you are. We had a memorial down here at the beach for you. I am sure you were with us. I made a flower wreath that floated and we lit some candles to put in it. Jason added incense to it so that our prayers would be lifted to Heaven. We floated it off of the club dock when the tide was going out. There is no doubt in my mind that it made it to the open ocean. I know how much you loved it down here. When I am at the beach or on the boat I take in all the surroundings and know that you are a part of thenm now and forever. The seashells I pick up are for you. I love you so much. You are in my heart in a special place always and forever. Please guide me honey. I need you with me. I love you Bethanny. Love always****Johnna.....ps- I hope you like the tattoo.
Name: Jordan
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Date: Sun Sep 28 22:35:58 MDT 2003
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Hey Baby, how are you my beautiful angel! I have been thinking about you so much lately! This past week, especially last weekend, you have been on my mind nonstop. Everything from last year on that horrible weekend is still so vivid to me. I can remember what I wore to what I did to where I was. I remember the Monday after that weekend, I had an exam, and I stared at my notes for like 12 hours straight, and all i thought about was you, and tears just feel on the pages..and I ended up failing the exam miserably..lol.. Bethann, I know that everytime I write I say the same things, everyone does, we all say how much we love you and miss you and wish you were here...I wish you were here with us more than anything, but we all know that it can't happen..but what can happen is that you give your family and friends the strength that they need to go on with their lives knowing that you are there every single second of every day with them. Make them know that you know every aspect of their lives. Watch over your mom and dad every day and also your big bro at school... watch over all of your friends, I know how stressed out they may be at school Bethaz, college is new to them and they need you there. You were there for me every step of the way last year when I was a freshman and I cried every day.You helped me get thru the whole year, and for that I am grateful. I love talking to you in my prayers every night, I love knowing that you hear me. Most of all, I love looking forward to the days that we will be together, it will go so fast, i know it. Make your family understand that Bethann. Help them not to look at the negative side of things, help them to smile and look forward and know how happy you are where you are, and make them smile because one day they will be with you again, and this time it will be forever and ever, nothing or no one will take that away! Everytime I pass your house Betha and I see that beautiful angel in the yard, I think, that is my girl there, protecting her family and waving to everyone who drives by. Bethann never forget all of our long talks, all of your advice, all of our laughs, all of our boy scenarios (we were nutz .. lol) I love you more than words can say. So many people look at your website in my profile and say, Man that girl was gorgeous, why did that happen to her? I believe that you are lucky that it did, it is a wonderful thing, because you are experiencing something BEYOND PERFECT, you are so happy and at peace, I know it. I love you babygirl... I will miss you eternally, I cannot wait to see you.. cannot wait to catch up... Take care angel...love always, Jordan
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Date: Mon Sep 29 09:21:12 MDT 2003
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Bethann, How long it has been since I saw your beautiful, smiling face. I cannot believe that one whole year has passed since the accident. I did not think that I could get past one week, let alone a whole year. It is not real to me yet, my dear. I do not know if it will ever really be real to me. Thank you so much (again) for all the signs that you send telling me that you are happy. I just still do not understand why you had to go so sudden; without notice. I was at your house a couple weeks ago visiting with your mom. She has that room looking so beautiful...all pictures of you of course!!! All the angels and pictures of you and your loved ones. There's so many pics everywhere!! You were so loved by so many people and will continue to be until we can meet with you again. I pray for you everyday, Bethann. I pray for your well being and for the well being of your family and friends. I pray that you will keep us strong by showing us that you are still around eventhough we cannot see you. You were an angel in disguise, my dear. I just remember all the good times that we had in school, especially our talks around the track with Binz and Chelsy. The little things are what stick out and what I miss the most. Even Mrs. Oakleys class; all the goofing around and no matter how many times you would yell out the answer, she never got mad at you!!!!! I love you, Bethann. Please continue to be with me until I can see you again. LOVE YOU!!!
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Date: Wed Oct 1 11:58:57 MDT 2003
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Bethann u were probly my closest friend as a girl and u just kept getting closer as we hung out more and more. It's been over a yr now and the way I feel when i think about u being gone is undescribable. I know you're in a better place but I still wish u weres till here. Its so hard to deal with for me but me and everyone else made it through it for a yr. We know your in a better place and hope that you are happy there even though i miss you so much words can't describe it. I remember when u and beth called me and sed u needed a ride back to beth's b/c her tire was flat lol and yinz jus wanted to make me drive all the way to your house for no reason haha. I remember ridin u home f/ skool 3 days b4 the accident. I remember goin 2 frosty cone with u the week b4 the accident just b/c i never picked u up just u and me b4 lol. I miss hangin out witchu soo much and i wish we still culd. -marfon
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Date: Thu Oct 2 18:22:47 MDT 2003
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Bethann, my darling angel who never lets me down. It is so rough being out here in Indiana and so far away from all of our friends. I have been thinking of them constantly. It sometimes feels as if my body is here but my mind is still back home. When I miss home, I just pray to you and I swear each time you make it easier. I wish so much I could have been home for the one year service. All I wanted to do was be with everyone as we celebrated your life. What a wonderful life you had, Bethann. Your spirit is what keeps me going sometimes. It's kind of like that song "everything I do, I do it for you". I just keep a little picture of you wherever I go. I am working really hard out here and I know that you would be proud. I feel your presence all the time and I know that you help me to figure things out. Please watch over our group of friends as they set out on their new paths of life. And bless your family who loves and misses you so. Bethann, as we have said so many times before, words just cannot describe the pain we still feel to this day. Memories are what we have and what keep us moving on. We love you and miss you angel, and thank you for all of your blessings.
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Date: Sun Oct 5 08:00:15 MDT 2003
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dear bethann my angel, i love you and miss you more and more everyday. i will love you forever and always. love mom
Name: chrissy
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Date: Mon Oct 6 22:49:33 MDT 2003
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hey, betha.. i know it*s been awhile since i*ve written here, but since the 1 year mark, i just haven*t been able to bring myself to this site until now. it doesn*t seem like it could possibly have been that long ago.. an entire year. i have a collage of you up in my dorm, and i think about you everyday.. and i know you*re there watchin over me when i need you the most. i tried to send a card to your mom, but apparently i had the wrong address.. that*s what i get for being 500 miles away from home. it*s so hard out here, and i don*t have any friends, but my friends from home have been there for me, and i know you have, too. a lot of the time i catch myself wondering what you*d do if you were in a certain situation.. probably be more social than me and have the whole campus as your friends already. =) you were always trying to get me to be social and make more friends in high school.. i wish you were still here to help me. but even though i can*t hear that voice everyday now, i know you *are* still helping me, just from a little farther away. love you <33
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Date: Wed Oct 8 18:28:06 MDT 2003
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Our Beautiful Angel~ How are you doin Sweetie? I know your happy in Heaven, its supposed to be perfect up there,and your presence makes it even better. Everyone misses you so much Bethann. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you, and I always see things that remind me of you. Please keep watching over your friends and family its so down here without you. Love you Bethann. ~Until the wonderful day I see you in Heaven~
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Date: Thu Oct 9 21:04:56 MDT 2003
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Hey Angel....Im sorry i've never written in here..i guess i've jus been speechless..until last nite. Last nite i had a dream about you..it seemed soooo real. I saw you from far away and as you walked closer i couldnt believe it was you! I started crying..and you told me not to cry because everything is okay. You said "please dont be sad because im happy, the reason why this happened to me was so i could watch over all of you and get to know all of you better." I woke up with chills thinking it was real. I guess this dream gave me some closure and comfort that you are okay. But it will still never bring you back. Watch over ur family and close friends, they really need you...love you Bethann
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Date: Mon Oct 13 20:34:37 MDT 2003
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Our beautiful angel, life is changing with each passing day w/o the presence of your smiling face being here with us, which is heartbreaking to everyone who knows you. even after a year, words cannot and will never explain the pain we all have in our hearts, the pieces are still shattered, and are still left feeling empty. which i know you never wanted us to feel this way, because you were always so exurberant, and your heart was filled with enough joy for you and everyone in your presence. halloween is just around the corner, your favorite holiday, and it was the time of year i have the most memories of you. From your costume parties in W.P., girl scout haunted houses and plays, and you taking me to my first ftball game in middle school, carving pumkins, being genie-fortune tellers, and even dressin up for trick-or-treating together. i have all these pictures of us together in a frame, my favorite is the one f/ the homecoming dance where you are kissing me on my check, which when i got on court this year, i knew it was b/c of you since we had so much fun at that dance acting crazy together. even though it was only at blaine hill fire hall, you made the best of every experience, having so much fun. i am so blessed to have these special memories of you bethann, the memories are what keeps us going. the pain does not subside, we just become stronger, only from you and your lil prayers sent down from heaven. watch over your family and close friends who miss you so incredibly much. i love you
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Date: Tue Oct 14 12:38:24 MDT 2003
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Days have turned into months, and months,into a year since our lives changed forever...I am no longer afraid of when my time will come.Because I can't wait 'til the day I get to see my angels again..I look out the door and watch the leaves fall off the trees and wish that you all were here. It feels like time moves in slow motion, yet time is going by so fast.I just wish every single day that this never happen.It's seems unreal! But it so strange I really feel that You, Candace, and Brian were ANGELS sent to us. You each had a way that made people automatically feel great as soon you each entered a room. You shined! You read the memories people leave and almost every person says that you taught them something, that's exactly what you sent to do. You did it well. You taught people that Beauty comes from within and when it comes from within it shows on the outside, you were sincere,nice to everybody, and so much more. Not too many people are sincere these days. You were and still are perfect in every way!
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Date: Thu Oct 16 11:56:35 MDT 2003
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I have never met Bethann. But I will tell you that she has changed my life. I came across her story from the news, and from there I somehow found this website... I feel like I have known Bethann my whole life, I just don't understand. She was absolutely gorgeous and every time I see the sun's rays shining through the clouds, I say out loud Hello, Bethann. Every time I look at a cloud I swear it looks like an angel. I was at a funeral yesterday for my aunt and the whole time I thought about Bethann, and how it was OK for my aunt to go to heaven because Bethann is there. I have never met this girl, but for some reason she is always in my thoughts. I hope she doesn't think I am weird when I talk to her and pray to her. I am so sorry to everyone who knew Bethann. I can't imagine how hard it is for all of you who actually did know her.
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Date: Fri Oct 17 20:17:11 MDT 2003
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I never met Bethann before but from what i've heard she was fun to be around and she always made people laugh no matter what. She really has alot of people who care about her and miss her alot during this time right now. Bethann you truly were an angel on earth so that's why god would want you to close to him. And to John im really sorry for what happened to your sister from what i read, i know that you care about her alot and that she means the whole world to you! All my love goes out to her family and friends. Rip Bethann
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Date: Wed Oct 22 07:08:12 MDT 2003
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My dearest Bethann...yesterday was 13 months since God reached His hand for you to come back to Him. Is this real? Do we really have to live the rest of our lives without your beautiful smiling face? Or am I still dreaming this horrible nightmare? No I am not and I must face reality...you will be with all of your loved ones eventhough we cannot see you...I pray for you in Heaven and please pray for me here on Earth...I love you Sweetheart, always and forever...
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Date: Thu Oct 23 15:45:02 MDT 2003
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Bethann, I miss you so much and I know that you are having a great time in heaven but I just wish that you could come back to earth and make everything right again. To stop the heartache that so many have from you not being with them. Thank you so much for being the person that you were. You were nothing but wonderful. I can honestly say that looking back I never saw any flaws in you. You were an angel on earth and now your an angel in heaven...miss you and love you more than you could ever imagine.
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Date: Sun Oct 26 17:34:12 MST 2003
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Bethann... Living in the world without you is really hard. You were such a wonderful person who inspired so many people on earth. It still seems so unreal that you arent here but i think that it will never seem real. When i just think about what happened i just sit in disbelief that this would ever happen. Heaven gained 3 wonderful people, and although we cant see you we known your still here. I sit here and cry just thinking of a whole lifetime without ever seeing your beautiful face, but i know we will have forever together which will be the happiest days of my life. I miss you and Candace more than words can could ever describe. I love you so much<3 Keep shining down on us angel... I love you<333
Name: Jawn
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Date: Wed Oct 29 20:15:54 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann, I just wanted to write to let you know how much I miss you, times are not getting any easier. Halloween is comming up and I know it was one of your favorite times. It makes me think of the times that you used to have halloween parties with all your friends and me dad and mom would always be involved, that was always fun. How i wish we could turn back the clock too those days, when we were still together. I miss not having my little sister around so bad that I dont know what to do sometimes. I dont think I will ever be able to accept this, there is no justification for you being taken away from me my mom and dad, and you not being able to live your life. I love you so much, please help us all, Love always your big bro and best friend forever - jawn
Name: Jacki
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Date: Wed Oct 29 23:12:16 MST 2003
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MY GIRL, It's been too long...I just want you back so bad. We all do. I find myself thinking about you in everything that I do. When I do something silly or stupid, I think, Bethann would definitely be laughing and making fun of me right now. When I find something in the store, or hear a new song, or go anywhere, I think, Bethann should be here, she would love this. More than anything, when I'm really sad and miss you to an unbearable point, I just want to talk to you and hear your voice. I did have a dream and I talked to you and got to hear your voice again, loud and clear. It made my heart jump with excitement because I've yearned for it for so long. I know it was a gift from you, angel. I am so sick of trying to pretend like everything is okay, when it is not at all. I am screaming inside. I beg and ask God every day what I can do to get you back. I am brokenhearted. Never did I imagine that you wouldn't be here...and now that I am experiencing it, I know it is the worst feeling in the world. I long for you so badly, Bethann. I long to get a message on my cell phone from you asking me where I am because you've been looking for me. I long for you to tell me that you'll save me a spot to come sleep in your bed when I'm staying over for the night. I long to lay there and have our girl talks and hear your stories that I love so much. It is so hard to believe that the happiest days of my life are gone already...they left with you. I miss you so bad I can't stand it. Please watch over your mom, dad and brother. It breaks my heart every time I see them. But I see so much of you in each of them, and I know you're there. I love you with all of my heart, forever. Love, JACQ
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Date: Sat Nov 1 19:07:13 MST 2003
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just wanted to wish u a Happy Halloween .. love and miss ya
Name: Chelsea
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Date: Mon Nov 3 13:13:48 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann, It's been a year and more since you have been gone, buI still think of you all the time. I remember when we had lunch together Junior year and we would talk about where we wanted to go to college. You were so excited about it. You wanted to so to WVU but your Mom didn't want you to go there because it was a party school. Well I ended up at Penn State and I'm getting along okay. I brought your and Candace's pictures up with me and I look at them everyday. I miss you so much and I wish that you could come visit me up here. But I am sure your watching over me and keeping me safe. Thinking of you Always.....LOVE YOU BIA!!! Cia
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Date: Thu Nov 6 00:35:00 MST 2003
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Hey Bethanne I never knew you but I only wish that I could have. I met your brother less than a year ago, and he is one of my best friends. I love him so much. I have met your family and they are great. Me and your brother are like brothers and I try to help him. His loss is like nothing i can imagine, you two had a bond like nothing else. I will be by your brother's side forever. I do feel his and your famiy's pain, i don't know why this happened, but i feel like i am here to comfort. I have come to your site many a times and sat here by my self and cried. I will try as hard as i can to comfort your family. All i can promise you is that Jon and I will be best freinds forever, and i will do the best i can to help your family. I'll meet you in heaven love,
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Date: Tue Nov 11 09:40:16 MST 2003
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Hey sweetie... I just wanted to leave a note and let you know how much I miss you, and how much everyone misses you. Everyone loves you so much. Please continue to let us know that you are okay up there.
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Date: Tue Nov 11 20:56:46 MST 2003
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I always wondered what it would feel like after a certain point in time. I thought maybe, just a little, the hurt would ease up. They say pain heals with time. I think we have all learned this year, that a statement like that is only true in some cases. Not the case with you Bethann. Not the tiniest bit. It makes sense though when you think about it. You can't expect your heart to just pick up and keep moving through life when something so precious has been taken away from you, without any warning. I still think about you every single day. There are moments through out each of my days where something will remind me of ya. There is a girl in my geography class right infront of me, her names Bethann. Shes only the 2nd one I have ever known. Any time I hear my teacher call on her for something my head pops up, its like a natural reaction and it just feels wierd and I usually end up upset. On Sunday I was at the Steeler game and they played Mony Mony. Instant thoughts of you of course. And I hurt on the inside but I have to smile, I cant hide it. You gave me so many fun times. So many smiles. A few weeks ago I stopped by one of the football games at the highschool and just looked at the field from the distance of the road. I was plannin on just checkin out the game, then I started thinkin about us doin our laps around the field every day for aerobis and I remembered a conversation we had. "The Plan" you decided to name it. I still laugh when I think about it. I am so happy that I have a great memory with things like that because still to this day I can recall every single thing you said to me. I remembered running over to the mats they used for track and takin a break to jump up and down on them when we got tired of walkin. They we layed out on them to get tan, and shortly after that we would get hollered at by Mrs. Hearn. Oh she loved us too much! I was glad I stopped at the game that night though. Even though I ended up in tears, I felt good when I left. I miss you so much. That will NEVER change. But I am realizing more and more how lucky I was to have you in my life. You sure knew how to give a good time and bring out the best in people. Thank you Bethann. I LOVE YOU
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Date: Thu Nov 13 14:34:51 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann, I've been thinking about you constantly lately, even more than usual if that is possible. There has been so much going on recently, and all I want to do is call you and tell you about everything and talk to you cuz you always made everything so much better. My sister had Joey on Monday and she had him at Mon Valley Hospital so when I was driving past your house, I almost forgot that you weren't here anymore and I wanted to pull over and pick you up so that you could come see him with me. Then I realized that I couldn't do that and it makes me sick to my stomach. And last night I had another dream about you, that you came back. I remember coming to pick you up, and I don't know where we were going but we just talked forever in the car about everything. Your voice and your laugh sounded exactly the same and it made me miss you even more than I already do. I remember too that we were holding hands like we used to and I could feel you touching me...it was the exact same feeling as your hand felt in real life, it all seemed so real. When I woke up, I had to lay there and think for a few minutes and tell myself that I was dreaming, but I wanted so badly for it to be true. That dream just brought back so many memories of things we used to do and still to this day, I haven't accepted that this all has actually happened. I don't think it will really sink in for anyone, you were waaayyy too good of a person to lose. It is still amazing, over a year later, to see how many lives you've touched, especially those who never even got the chance to meet you. Every single person says the same thing tho, no one can get over how beautiful you are, and they can tell by our stories and reading the messages on here how wonderful of a person you were on the inside. Everyone wishes that they could have been friends with you, and it makes me feel even more lucky to be able to say that you are my bestest friend in the whole world, nothing will everrr change that! With everything going on lately, all I want to do is to be able to see you and talk with you, hear you talk back, and give you a hug, and it makes things worse to know that I can't do that. I've been talking to you a lot though and I know that you are listening and helping me, so I want to say thank you. Please continue to be with your family especially over the next month or so because it is going to be so hard going through the holidays again without you, it shouldn't have to happen and it's not fair at all. I miss you Bethann more than words can ever say and I love you soooo soooo much. *YBFFAE* ~Beth
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Date: Fri Nov 14 21:30:31 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann I wanted to thank you for visiting me in my dreams again. I had two dreams about you recently, in the first one you got to come back an you had people over your house and I just remember we kept hugging an I kept telling you how much I missed you and how happy I am that your back. I wish so badly that was true. In my other dream I was walking, im not sure where at but I looked up an there was a beautiful rainbow an written on the rainbow was "TIME FLIES" an then underneath that it said "LOVE BETHANN". Someone once told me that in Heaven time goes so much faster than it does here on Earth because of how happy an how much fun everyone is having in Heaven. I think that was your way of telling me your having a great time and your doing just fine. I remember so many things about you an conversations we had, and i still cant believe this has happened. I'll think of something and say to myself oh i hafta tell Bethann that or I'll just ask Bethann, and then I realize I can't and it just hurts so bad. We all miss you so much Bethann. Well I'll talk to you again sometime soon! Love You:)
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Date: Mon Nov 17 02:29:57 MST 2003
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Bethann, I would like to thank you for everything that you have ever done for me. You always invited me over your house when we were younger. Everytime I hear that Tom Petty song last dance with Mary jane I think of when we were little and being in your mom's van and you kept changing the radio from the back seat to be funny and everytime I use my Skip it I think of us playing with them in the back of your house. I don't know why god took you, but I know you are having a good time because he wouldn't have taken an angel from earth for her not to be having a good time in heaven. Please watch over all of us and help out the kids that still don't get it. I miss you.
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Date: Tue Nov 18 01:03:45 MST 2003
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"May today there be peace within. May you trust your highest power that you are exactly where you are meant to be.... May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith. May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you.... May you be content knowing you are a child of God.... Let this presence settle into our bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of you...." -Bethann, I know you want that for all of us who love and miss you so much. I think about you all the time and our memories together. I hope you hear my whispers during the day when I look up at the sky and tell you how much you mean to me. I hope you know that I do not mean to cry every night, but that the tears on my pillow signify how much I long for you to be back here with us. I want to smile for you and make you proud until the day I can see you...oh, how I long for that day Bethann. That glorious day that I will be able to hug you again will radiate with emotions of happiness that could not possibly be overcome with words. I hope you know how much you always meant to me and always will mean to me. I know you are the only one keeping me going at this point...I wouldn't be able to do it without you angel. I will love you forever Bethann.
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Date: Thu Nov 27 13:00:57 MST 2003
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Happy Thanksgiving Bethann...If i could have just one thing in the world, it would to have you back. I just miss you so bad that sometimes i just cant stand it. Please watch over your family and friends today, we miss you more than anything. I love you Bethann and Miss you sOoOo much<333
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Date: Thu Nov 27 21:01:40 MST 2003
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MY GIRL, I hope you are having a Happy Thanksgiving in heaven. You've been on my mind so much, and it's just not getting any easier without you. You mean so much to me, and my mind cannot accept that you are not here. I am missing a loving little sister and wonderful friend. I've been talking to you a lot and I know you hear me. Sometimes I can even feel you in the room with me when I ask you to hold my hand. I keep dreaming that you come back to all of us and it hurts so bad to wake up to this life...so many lives that will just never be the same without our one and only Bethann. There's just something about you, like an air or glow, that always lifted spirits when they were near you. You just had that joy and passion for life that radiated without effort, and we all miss it so very much. As I sit here, I can hear your laugh and voice echoing in my mind loud and clear. I miss everything about you. Thank you so much for all of the happy memories that I treasure in my heart. Please try your best to help your family and everyone find peace today and in these difficult weeks to follow. Always remember how many people love you dearly. I know you are doing great in heaven, and I'm sure the gravy there is the best. I know you're the most gorgeous angel above. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART. Love always, JACQ
Name: mom
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Date: Fri Nov 28 08:16:00 MST 2003
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dear bethann, somehow, someway we made it through another holiday without you. times will never be the same without you. like i said before you were the sparkplug of our family. i wanted to let you know how much i love you and how much i miss you. please watch over all of us and give us the strength to get through christmas without you. everyone misses you so much. everyone loves you so much. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. YOU ARE MY ANGEL. MAY YOUR MEMORY BE ETERNAL. LOVE MOM
Name: To Bethann
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Date: Sat Nov 29 11:45:13 MST 2003
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Bethann, today I just felt like I had to sign this. I have a class with a girl that looks like you, and everytime I see her I think of you and your beautiful face. It has taken me a long time to write down some feelings, but today I just wanted to. I hope your Thanksgiving in Heaven was wonderful and I know you were with your family and friends in spirit. No one will ever forget you...God Bless You P.S. Please put in more pictures of the gorgeous Bethann! Everyone loves seeing her shining face...
Name: Chloe
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Date: Mon Dec 1 20:31:52 MST 2003
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Bethann, Our beautiful angel. Not a day passes that you are not in my thoughts. I am far from home and won't be going back until Christmas, yet you are still with me each and every day. You have helped me so much during my first semester here. I have met so many wonderful people and they all question my pictures of you and the bracelet I always wear with your initials. I tell them your story and although they don't know you, they cry. Bethann you are such an inspiration to me and give me so much strength. I love you so much and thank you for always looking out for me.
Name: SANDI PASCOTTI-PUNTURI
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Date: Thu Dec 4 07:25:11 MST 2003
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TO THE ZAGURASKY FAMILY: I READ YOUR DAUGHTERS WEBSITE EVERYDAY-MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU, ESPECIALLY DURING THE HOLIDAY SEASON. IF ITS ANY COMFORT, I TOO LOST (2) PEOPLE THAT WERE VERY CLOSE W/ME. MY BROTHER (8) YEARS AGO THANKSGIVING DAY AND MY MOM (4) YEARS AGO CHRISTMAS DAY. KEEP YOUR FAITH, NEVER GIVE UP; BETHANN IS WITH EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU EVERYDAY. HER MEMORY WILL LAST A LIFETIME, SHE'S A BEAUTIFUL ANGEL. MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR.
Name: MisSin You~
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Date: Thu Dec 4 21:33:30 MST 2003
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Here is a song by Mya that reminded me of Bethann wen I came across them, its called "After the Rain" take the time to read them, they mean alot *Tried to go on my way without you, oh Why did you go (Why did you go) Everyday I'm lost without you, oh I just don't know (I just don't know) We were laughing and joking like nothin' Then you got taken from me all of a sudden, oh Why did you leave me (Why did you leave me) You were my homie My nigga My sister When I needed you there you would listen I seen a rainbow yesterday Remember you use to say After the rain ~Memories falling on my pillow, oh And I hear that slow They say that You don't know what somebody really truly means Until their gone (Until their gone) You were my homie My nigga My sister And I'm tryin' so hard but I miss you, oh How can this be (How can this be) Doors will open and with you I'd walk through Now I'm here by myself Girl I need you No one can ever feel your shoes Your one in a million, you Oh you use to say ~Every little drip drop won't stop Got me cryin' waterfalls, yeah Cause I miss you And I know that one day soon The sun is gonna shine I pray, yeah One day I'll see you again Oh *Every little drip drop won't stop Got me cryin' waterfalls, yeah Cause I miss you And I know that one day soon The sun is gonna shine I pray, yeah One day I'll see you again ~Oh Every little drip drop won't stop Got me cryin' waterfalls, yeah Cause I miss you And I know that one day soon The sun is gonna shine I pray, yeah One day I'll see you again Oh ~After the rain Things will get better So baby dry your eyes After the rain Every days a struggle So there's no need to cry After the rain Gotta keep your head up You gotta stay strong ~You will always be in our hearts... thinking of you AlWaYs*
Name: cj fiore
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E-Mail: fioreousf@aol.com
Date: Wed Dec 10 12:41:55 MST 2003
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its been 15 months since i saw ur face,heard your voice, or felt your embrace,its still hard to think of u being gone, a life so special, so many others torn, and even tho i dont bring it up to much, in my heart ur spirtit i clutch, the one that made everyone so cheerful, and in the end so very tearful, i think about the times that it was just us 2, memories nobody else knows to be true, the talks we had with each other,and believe it or not bethann u helped me discover, alot about life and what its about,now i live each day without a doubt,and even though your gone today,in my heart i know your not far away,and i would just like to thank u for all u have done, u touched so many people, and i am deffinatly one...missin ya babe...
Name: Jeff Gongas
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E-Mail: gunga_lunga17@hotmail.com
Date: Fri Dec 12 00:26:49 MST 2003
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Hey Bethann, I hope you remember me. I used to go to elementary school with you. Then I moved away. What is funny though, is that the last day I saw you was on our last day of elementary school, and i remember screaming "I love you!" outside of the buses windows as we drove away from school. I remember having the biggest crush on you. There was one time when I bought you a fake pearl ring and your mom made you give it back to me. I will keep you in my prayers and will not ever forget you.
Name: Allison
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Date: Sun Dec 14 09:33:07 MST 2003
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Well Bethann... I finally finished my first semester of college and I thought about you all the time. I am just so thankful for all the memories I had with you and I will forever cherish them! Its soon to be Christmas and a New Year again. Please give your family the strength they need to get through the holidays and continue to watch over everyone like you always did and always will! Love and Miss you Angel!
Name: Misty
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Date: Mon Dec 15 16:06:33 MST 2003
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WOW! This site is constantly building. There is not a day that goes by that I do not pray for healing and comfort for the Zagursky family. I never knew them, or Bethann. I do know the Hovey family. Johnna is one of my closest friends. She speaks so highly of Bethann that I feel as if I've known her for years. It's been over a year since I made an entry on this page. Today I was just browsing and thought I'd take a look at it. JOHN - your love for your sister is beautiful. The memories you've captured here are so that any outsider can look at the hundreds of pictures and words and feel what being part of your family must have been like. It sends chills up my spine. I wish I had the chance to know you all. There isn't a day go by that I don't pray for you all (and the Hovey's). I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you. God Bless!!!